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Hey, I'm Abby. Most of my life was spent being on the outside. Being homeschooled and kept inside. This year will be different. I'm going to actual school this year. My mom was against it at first, but dad talked her into it.Tomorrow is my first day, and I can't wait.

Here I go, Mom insisted on driving me to school today so I let her knowing, this was a big change for her. We got there and I am so nervous. When I got out of the car my mom did the one thing I didn't want her to do. "Goodbye, my little mouse!!" I froze, I had asked her specifically not to do. Everybody was staring now. I knew this was not going to be a good day now. I walked inside and as soon as I did the insults hit "Hi little mouse" said one kid "Squeak" screamed another. I ignored them already knowing I won't be making any friends today. I walked into my first-period class and sat down in the back. As I sat waiting for class to start, the kids started slowly flowing into the class. Everybody was staring at me probably judging me in their heads. I slouched down lower and put the hood on my jacket over my head. Trying to disappear from view. A few minutes later I feel a slight pressure on my head. I pull my hood up just a slight amount to see who touched my head. I see what looks like the middle-aged version of Audrey Hepburn when she played Sabrina. "Excuse me?" I sit up straighter and pull my hood off. " Yes," She handed me papers and walked back to her desk. When I looked down the papers seemed to be math worksheets, when I looked up everyone seemed to be whispering back and forth and pointing at me. I sighed and started on the sheet and said to myself "This is going to be a long day."

That night when I got home my mom looked eager to hear how my day went. I would have told her the truth but I didn't want to ruin her mood so I told her the good things about my day. That would be very far and few, but I wanted to make her happy. I didn’t want to let her know that my bad day was there at all, or that it was her fault. Afterwards I was so tired I passed out from exhaustion. When I woke up I looked at my alarm clock and it said it was five a.m. My alarm clock isn't supposed to go off till six-thirty. I laid there, my thoughts racing, turning and twisting, and what felt like thirty minutes later my alarm went off. I got up and got in the shower. I stood in the hot water collecting my thoughts together.When I got out I stood in front of mycloset trying to think of the right outfit that would help me fit in. I found something decent. I put on a small black tank, my yellow plaid skirt, and my black knee length black boots. After I style my hair in a low hung messy bun. I walk down stairs and grab a piece of toast before heading out to the car where my mom is waiting. I open the door to a wave of cool air which feels nice when it's ninety-nine degrees outside. I plop down in the car and buckle the seatbelt, before looking up at my mom. When I look at her she looks proud and sad. “Oh look at my beautiful baby girl. Oh i’m so proud of what you have become, a smart and beautiful young woman.” I smile at her. “ I love you mom” She smiles and hugs me over the center console. “ I love you to my little mouse.” I may get made fun of for the nickname but I don't care any more, I like it. 

When I got to school, I walked inside and got the same thing as yesterday. “ Look, it's a little mouse!” They said mockingly. All of a sudden one of them received an elbow to the stomach. “Steven stop being mean, I think little mouse is cute.” I look to see a red haired girl who seemed to have been the one to say it. “Thank you, my mom made it up. My real name is Abby but by all means call me by little mouse. I quite enjoy it as well.” She smiled “ I’m Nicole. Nice to meet you little mouse. Sorry about Steven, he can be a jerk sometimes.” She held out her hand, and I took it with a smile. “I can see that.” I say slightly giggling. Nicole was really sweet and apparently is in my first period math so we sat next to each other. I helped her understand it, because my mom basically tutoterd me to be a math whizz. Nicole thought it was cool. I thought it was kinda embarrassing. Afterwards the day went on great. When I got home I had an amazing day to tell my mom about and she was so happy. Little mouse may not be such a bad nickname after all. I think I like it. We talked over dinner and I told my dad about the amazing day and my new friends. After dinner I helped my mom clean up and while we were I looked at my mom and said “ Mom I love you. Thank you for letting me go to school.” I went to my room and smiled at the amazing day I had. I texted Nicole and we talked for a while. Steven ended up actually being pretty chill. I guess he’s not so bad. Hopefully tomorrow will be another amazing day. As I got ready to go to sleep. I remembered the great day I had. I layed down and thought to myself, I finally fit in.