All Alone

I am writing to tell you that I am really having a good time at this resort retreat. And I am going to look back at all. I have done in my life. All that happened. All the occurrences in the safe spot appearing in the hills of Massachusetts and we are traveling to Vermont to go to a fair and we're having a great time. These strangers who are becoming my friends. So now that I have a distance on my, a new perspective from the distance that I have now looking back over my life and the occurrences, I have a better broader overview and I can figure things out what they happen in. Why? Who? How people played their parts in my life, lives since I've been through many different types of situations and had certain occurrences and stances on things and also had to act crazy and got hospitalized a lot of times and I pulled through. I have had very supportive staff and clients. Peers and I can talk to higher-ups pretty well and they get me and they are on my side in mental health. And they listen to me, they honor me. They admire me even in mental health societies. So society and mental health are separate and so is my family, and it's the 3 of them. The 3 groups, my family, society and mental health. And I have my daughters to depend on me, but from far distance. My one daughter is in Tennessee. Adopted to my family's friends and also that was an occurrence. I want to know more about how that was arranged and whose idea it was or if it was like a divine coincidence. You know, just like a like a coincidence or if it was really planned out by someone specific in my life. Who knows me and did that for me and the daughter and how it's like meant to be in divine intervention, a random house in Tennessee.

Random friend and how they feel they don't owe me which they don't. Okay, thank you. I'm glad I got that out and also then there's my other daughter adopted by her grandmother. Who she calls her mom, that she believes is her mom and I think she was brainwashed; she believes I am not her mom at all, and it's a closed adoption, and that's what they do in closed adoptions. They tell the child, nothing I mean, the real mother who. You know developed the baby in her womb had nothing to do with her birth. So I think it's a little delusional and crazy, but maybe it's the best for some people. And they don't have to deal with me. You know, interfering in their lives. They just cut me out and live their life peacefully. But that's how it's supposed to happen. Good glad I got that out too. And also I believe in astrology. And I know other people who adamantly definitely believe in astrology. And nothing can shake that from them. They live their life by it. They live in Florida that's my brother's friend and family's friend and their family and his wife, kids. You're doing great? Gotta got that out and my friends are in Maine. And uh, New Hampshire. I don't know why I said that. I don't know anyone in New Hampshire and New York, Western and also New York city. I don't really know if they're my friends or if they're being polite to me they're gotta get that out. And my family sort of ostracizes me. My parents were divorced. There's 2 sides of my family like 2 clans. Maybe they're opposing. I don't know, they have their different characteristics that don't really get along with each other. But they sort of cross over time to time, meantime. Meanwhile, sometimes I feel like I'm an outcast. Sometimes I feel like I'd just rather be alone anyway. So I let them have their family parties and gatherings and outings alone without me. Gotta and so I'm living in a subsidized apartment with mental health.I don't have real contact with my. am writing to tell you that I am really having a good time at this resort retreat. And I am going to look back at all. I have done in my life. All that happened. All the occurrences in the safe spot appearing in the hills of Massachusetts and we are traveling to Vermont to go to a fair and we're having a great time. These strangers who are becoming my friends. So now that I have a distance on my a new perspective from the distance that I have now looking back over my life and the occurrences, I have a better broader overview and I can figure things out what they happen in. Why? Who? How people played their parts in my life lives since I've been through many different types of situations and had certain occurrences and stances on things and also had to act crazy and got hospitalized a lot of times and I pulled through. I have had very supportive staff and clients. Peers and I can talk to higher-ups pretty well and they get me and they are on my side in mental health. And they listen to me, they honor me. They admire me even in mental health societies. So society and mental health are separate and so is my family, and it's the 3 of them. The 3 groups, my family society and mental health. And I have my daughters to depend on me, but from far distance. My one daughter is in Tennessee. Adopted to my family's friends and also that was an occurrence. I want to know more about how that was arranged and whose idea it was or if it was like a divine coincidence. You know, just like a like a coincidence or if it was really planned out by someone specific in my life. Who knows me and did that for me and the daughter and how it's like meant to be in divine intervention, a random house in Tennessee. Random friend and how they feel they don't owe me which they don't. Okay, thank you. I'm glad I got that out and also then there's my other daughter adopted by her grandmother. Who she calls her mom, that she believes is her mom and I think she was brainwashed; she believes I am not her mom at all, and it's a closed adoption, and that's what they do in closed adoptions. They tell the child, nothing I mean, the real mother who. You know developed the baby in her womb had nothing to do with her birth. So I think it's a little delusional and crazy, but maybe it's the best for some people. And they don't have to deal with me. You know, interfering in their lives. They just cut me out and live their life peacefully. But that's how it's supposed to happen. Good glad I got that out too. And also I believe in astrology. And I know other people who adamantly definitely believe in astrology. And nothing can shake that from them. They live their life by it. They live in Florida that's my brother's friend and family's friend and their family and his wife, kids. You're doing great? Gotta got that out and my friends are in Maine. And uh, New Hampshire. I don't know why I said that. I don't know anyone in New Hampshire and New York, Western and also New York city. I don't really know if they're my friends or if they're being polite to me they're gotta get that out. And my family sort of ostracizes me. My parents were divorced. There's 2 sides of my family like 2 clans. Maybe they're opposing. I don't know, they have their different characteristics that don't really get along with each other. But they sort of cross over time to time, meantime. Meanwhile, sometimes I feel like I'm an outcast. Sometimes I feel like I'd just rather be alone anyway. So I let them have their family parties and gatherings and outings alone without me. Gotta get that out and so I'm living in a subsidized apartment with mental health. I don't have real contact with my landlord which is a little.