2AM

2 AM!!!!

Hi Notebook,

I found you peeking out of the bottom shelf next to my bed. 

I see I’ve written in you before but gave up after three days of writing; why am I not surprised?

Gosh, my hand is cramping already. No idea why I thought this would be a good idea but...

I CANNOT SLEEP. 

All I can think about is how that one girl in my Spanish class unfollowed me on Instagram.

Like why would she do that? What did I ever do to her, ugh.

I never really liked her anyway. She doesn’t deserve to see my high quality posts.

And not to mention my friend who keeps telling me I’m not texting her enough.

Doesn’t she have better things to do than continuously text me, “Are you dead, lol?”

It’s annoying, I’m telling you.

Okay, but honestly.

Can we just talk about my other friend who tells me I’m always complaining?

Like who does she think she is? If anything, she’s the one crying about her life all the time.

Don’t even get me started on the time she called me for one hour to complain about her insecurities. Like girl, really?

She always tells me I’m not fat and continues to insult her own body even though she’s literally ten pounds lighter… and taller.

Where is the logic in that? I took logic in my eighth grade year and yeah, I think her statement disagrees with quite a lot of fallacies.

I don’t even remember what ‘fallacies’ mean. It’s too late for this.

Wait, is it too early or too late? I mean- technically, if it’s 2am- it’s morning, right?

Whatever, I can’t think right now. 

Actually, all I can do while lying on my back and staring at my ugly ceiling is think!

It is literally so annoying.

My memory has always failed me, but right now, all I can think about is all those people who’ve said something insensitive to me. Like can you believe them?

(Oh my gosh, I used me twice in a sentence. What is wrong with my grammar??? This is why I’m going to fail high school. That and the fact that I have exactly four hours left to sleep until my alarm rings. You know what, frick you high school!!)

Where was I… RIGHT. INSENSITIVE COMMENTS.

You’d be surprised how many I hear on a daily basis. 

Just yesterday this g

ASDLFKJE Hand cramp! I’m going to go massage my hand and think about everyone who has ever done me wrong. Great, good night!!! 

XOXO,

Me

2 AM AGAIN! :D

Morning Notebook,

I swear I am going to officially LOSE MY MARBLES!

I literally didn’t fall asleep until 3am last night and man, my day was rougH!

I don’t even know what we did in math today. Something about logs and trees? Maybe not trees since it’s math class, but how would I know.

I’m telling you, if it weren’t for this stupid mind of mine filled with thoughts, I’d be having my beauty sleep right now, but NO!

It wants to think about that one time I accidentally farted in front of my crush in second grade! Like what??? It took me so long to forget about that traumatic experience, but it is officially back in my memory folder. FRICK YOU, MEMORY FOLDER IN MY DUMB BRAIN.

Anyways, it didn’t even smell that bad. ANYWAYS, I feel like I should write about actual, relevant, interesting events in here, but my life is so… dull.

My crush (not the one I farted in front of !! He’s long gone, I don’t even remember his name… Okay, so maybe it was Jake, but that's irrelevant!!)-- my crush hasn’t talked to me in like two weeks… I think I either scared him away with my obnoxious personality or my obnoxious face, could be both, idk I can’t read his mind. 

I swear I am such a likeable, fun person sometimes and people are so unappreciative of that!

HOW DARE THEY.

Why does my hand cramp so much after writing literally two pages??

Gotta go massage my hand again, peace out lil’ guy.

12am

Good news Notebook!

I have officially, for the first time this whole semester, finished my homework by 11pm! YAY.

I swear, homework should be illegal! 

Anyways, today my crush talked to me… :D

He asked me for a pencil. Pretty exciting if I do say so myself. And... he also smiled so hAH!

Oh my gosh, I’m so pathetic.

Literally for the past hour I’ve been lying in bed, I’ve been replaying the scene where I hand him my pencil. PATHETIC! SO PATHETIC! 

Sigh, at least I know my heart is properly working. 

Even though I’m down to one pencil and only two back-ups, I couldn’t be more happier. 

Okay, so maybe I’m a little sad because I’m PATHETIC (yes, in all caps), but a girl’s gotta do what a girl’s gotta do! Even if that means giving away a pencil and thinking about the dreamy moment for over an hour.

(AGH, PATHETIC)

Anyways, how are you? Doing well? You hanging in there reading my crappy writing to you?

I’m going to try to fall asleep again cause I really should pay attention in math, but anyways, I hope you’re doing better than me at least.

Bye Notebook!

2AM

I swear, 2am is literally turning into “writing in my notebook” time. 

At least that means you’re finally serving your purpose by letting me write in you. (that sentence sounds dumb, please excuse me)

Today was a boring old day. I was tired, I went to my classes, I listened to my friend complain (the one that calls me skinny and herself fat even though she’s skinnier,, I literally won’t stop talking about that), and I also finished my homework.

Before writing in you, I was thinking about that lunch lady that serves people with a smile every time. Every other lunch lady hates their job and the world (at least judging by their expression). This lady is so kind and for some weird reason I was thinking about why. 

Like do you think she has children? Do you think she goes home after work and smiles while making her kids dinner despite the fact that a random high school kid made fun of her “lunch lady outfit”? Yeah, some jerk was whispering jerky comments about it to his equally jerky friend.

I feel like I’m overthinking everything, especially tonight, especially at 2am, but it sucks. 

How dare they comment on things like that?? Like pull your pants up and stop gelling your hair, your “bad boy outfit” is literally asking for a puke-fest to happen.

Ugh, anyways. I hope the lady had a good meal with her family. I hope she has a family to eat with. I hope-

This is too sad, I’m peacing out for the night.

Good night, Notebook.

Sweet dreams!

10AM

Hi Notebook,

Just dropping in to apologize to you. Like wow, I talk a lot of random crap at two in the morning. My mom talked to me this morning and said my scribbling and page turning while writing in you is getting annoying. She’s such a light sleeper, geez.

But I think it’s time I just take a sleep pill and actually get some rest cause writing just makes my hand cramp and my brain hurt. (No offense to you, of course.)

I’m surprised I haven’t given up writing in you earlier. (A NEW RECORD :D)

So, ‘tis our sweet goodbye I guess.

Until the next time I find you, toodles lil’ guy!