ANNA'S DIARY

  ANNA’S DIARY

Sunday, 25th Jan. 2020.

Dear diary, 

I’ am sorry to have kept you waiting about my daily activities. Actually, I’ve been out of my mind lately. I am just so bored, that’s why I didn’t have anything to write. I just stayed at home watching movies, sleeping and eating from Friday till today. I can’t believe that, I didn’t go out on weekend and stayed at home indoors. You know, I sometimes wonder how different my life will be, if I attend parties, hangout or maybe when I finally have a boyfriend right?. But who would take interest in someone like me, right? That would definitely be unbelievable . Who would wand to date or hangout with a nerd in glasses?. I’ am 25yrs and haven’t been kissed by anyone or am I that ugly or am I sick. At what age will I be kissed by a cute handsome prince charming?. At 40? 50?. Oh! No! I won’t die old without experiencing my first kiss right?. I wonder who would be my first. I have always imagined that person to be my first and last. Crazy right?. I know am crazy. First love don’t last in movies, even in reality. It’s just a step of learning what love truly means and how a relationship works. What when the hell will I experience such?. 

 Do you know, when my hand will be intertwined with someone else’s as we walk on the open streets with lots of people?. 

The day, that person will look at me in the and say to me, Anna, will you be my girlfriend?. 

 I’ve become impatient now, I badly want to know when that time will come?. Do you perhaps, know when?.

 Thursday, 29th Jan. 2020.

My dearest diary,

It’s Thursday and I don’t know what to do. Where should I go?. You remember my new year resolution right?. I promised to change but I haven’t been doing anything lately. So, hmm! Yes! Know I know. Shopping. I haven’t been to the mall for like a thousand years. I’ve to get rid of all my nerdy cloths. Yes! Shopping it is. And yes, I should start by cleaning my messy apartment. Yes. Deal. Goodnight.

Friday, 30th Jan. 2020.

Diary guess what?

I did it! Yes! I did it. Well this what happened. When I woke up from my beauty sleep, I cleaned every tiny part in my apartment and opened the shutters I’ve closed for month. I disposed all my old nerdy wears and glasses. After taking a very long sweet bath, allowing the cold water to caress my skin and the soap just seduced me with it’s natural ingredient. To cut the story short, after the bath, I wore the dress my mom bought on my birthday last year, you remember right?. I wore the blue dress designed with pink flower and let my hair down. I couldn’t apply any make up on my face because I didn’t like the old one and I went to the mall. I bought a lot of outfits with the help of the sales girl. She was really attentive and patient. She helped me picked out new cloths, shoes, under wares and lots more. I was able to buy them all with the help of the black card dad gave me. Although , I never really used it. It was really helpful today. Then I went for spa!. Awwwn! It felt nice. I also went to the salon to change my rough hairstyle to a wavy one and dyed it to brown at the top and gold at the tip. The stylist really did a good job. Even I couldn’t recognize myself at first, because am just too beautiful. They even applied makeup for me telling me it’s on the house. My ugly nails became sexy, when it was painted in rose red. The moment I stepped out of the salon, people couldn’t take their eyes off me. Some  even complimented me, telling me how beautiful I am. 

Diary, am done with the first step. On Sunday, am going to that get-together party. You remember how I was humiliated there last year. Now, it’s payback time.

Goodnight!.

Oh! I skipped the part I bumped into a guy. For unknown reasons, my heart beat increased at that moment and my body temperature increased. It has been long, since I felt that way. Although my purse fell, but I didn’t mind at all because, his face was too perfect and he was even polite. He apologized immediately and picked up my purse. He returned it with a smile, that melted my heart, which have been frozen for years. Will I ever get to be loved by someone else apart from my family?.

Sunday, 1st Feb. 2020.

Am aback from the get together party and I seriously don’t know whether to be happy or not, due to the event that took place.

Everyone had arrived earlier and they all seemed to be a good mood. The moment the door opened to the ball room, my arrival gave everyone a head turner as I walked slowly like a bride, dressed in a pale pink shoulder neck dress. The stiletto hill helped me walk with my chin up. That moment was just like the one I had fantasied about. The feeling of being portrayed and treated like a princess as the walk way was cleared for me. They were surely surprised to see that, Anna is no longer the nerdy girl with glasses they bullied but the beautiful, ravishing, sophisticated girl that no match for them. I was so happy, that I wanted to scream out the whole world, when people commented on my outfit, skin , make up and lots more. 

The party began and I was carried away by the sound of music in the room. I walked to the dance floor and allowed my body to blend in the rhythm of the music. It had been long, since I had so much fun. Even I didn’t know that I could dance like that. I kept taking shorts of tequila and going back to dance fall each time. I just wanted to party everything away. I was rather elated than tried, because I kept chatting and talking old friends, when I stopped dancing.

And some how, I found myself playing truth or dare with a group. 

“Wow! It’s you Anna”. Someone informed. I rolled my tired balls to stop my self from sleeping. I shouldn’t sleep right at this moment.

“Truth or dare”. Someone sitting vertically to me asked. 

I smiled. “Dare”. I muttered.

“ Are you sure about that?”. The person asked again. 

But as soon as I mouthed “Yes”, I suddenly regretted my actions.

The questioner was Bella. She had always had always hated me, since high school days.

I inhaled deeply, knowing she will definitely ask me to do something ridiculous. I could have recognized her , if I didn’t drink.  

Adrenaline was greatly secreted, when she asked me to kiss the person sitting right beside me. I looked at person who seemed greatly surprised like I was. But we couldn’t say no, knowing the consequences. I also didn’t want to lose my first kiss to a total stranger.

“Anna, are you that nervous, don’t tell this is actually your first kiss”. Bella said, winning everyone’s attention. 

Before I could even reply, I felt my shoulder slightly moved to the right side, changing my sitting position. Everything happened so swiftly next thing I knew was, I felt something soft on my lips. And hell I was being kissed.

Alas ! I lost my first kiss.

But I won’t deny that I felt butterflies in my stomach as he kissed me. I slowly wrapped my tiny arms round his neck like have always practiced. I opened up to him as I kissed him back.

People say, first kiss is tastes like apple, while some says it’s sloppy. But my first kiss, tastes like red wine. Deep and red. Though, it wasn’t for love but it was memorable.

Diary, today is day I lost my first kiss. Record it for me.

But do you know the interesting part, when the party was over and I was waiting for taxi, the person I lost my kiss to came standing right beside me. Then I could clearly see his face. He was the guy, that bumped into me.                                     

“ Am sorry, for taking your first kiss”. He apologized. “ Also, I apologize for bumping into you the other day”.

I wonder how he knew, it was my first kiss. “ Don’t be sorry, it’s better than undressing right in front of everyone.” I had told him. “ But how did you know?”. I asked.

“ My brothers tells me a lot of stories” he replied awkwardly. Then, I made a guess, that all his siblings are boys.

“Ah! I see”. Was all I could say.

The taxi arrived and before I could enter he stopped me. “ Can I get your number?”. He asked. I collected his phone and punched my number in.  He thanked me and waved bye as I entered the taxi.

And guess what? I got a message from him telling me it was also his first kiss, but was too shy to tell me in person and that why he asked for my number.

Could this be a new starting point for me, Dearest Diary?

Saturday, 7th Feb. 2020. 

Thing have been going on well with me. My co-workers were surprised, when they saw my new look and a lot of them complimented me. It’s like I’ve totally changed, because my opinion now matters in during our meetings. 

Also , I’ve been hanging out with Richard. Yes. The guy that stole my first kiss. We eat lunch and dinner together most times. He’s fun to be with. I won’t deny the fact that a have a tiny crush on him . And today, we went to the movies, ate lunch together, ending it with a walk in park.

Friday, 29th Feb. 2020.

Dearest diary, this is your last page. Thank you for being with me for a whole year. Although I seem to neglect you at times, I’AM SORRY. Thanks for being a part of me, my listener. I promise, to make sure to write only about happy things in the next one I’ll be using. I’ll be happy. I promise.

Richard asked me out yesterday, he wants me to be his girlfriend. 

I know you are happy for me.

The words he told me yesterday are like songs to my ears. 

“Anna, let me become the soft pillow you can rest on, cry on. I want to be your listener. I can listen to you all day long with getting tired. Permit me to love and care for you like no other. I want to be that person you can rely on matter what”.

My heart was definitely beating like Africa’s talking drum. “ Kindly, give me the honor of becoming your boyfriend”. His words melted my heart. 

I smiled to him, accepting the rose flower he had been holding. “ I LOVE YOU”. He said and I knew he meant it, when I felt his heart beat, by hugging him. “ I love you too”. I whispered.

He looked into my eyes like never before and his eyes met my pink lips. I bit my lips in frustration , knowing what he was asking for as his eyes met mine again.

“I can’t hold myself back”. He deep masculine voice was audible. His drew me closer to himself and his lips met mine. I drew the collar of his shirt for support as I kissed him back with full passion, expressing my love for him. The kiss was different. It wasn’t like the first one without love and passion. I truly felt it. What kissing was.

I silently prayed that we last forever, till death do us apart.