Okay?? I think.

Hugging Claire. That’s what I was doing now. Ellie Gonzales; the social freak hugging Claire Barrat; they most popular and pretty girl in school. Ellie hugging Claire. Claire hugging Ellie. I still can’t believe we’re dating

“Ellie? Ellie? ELLIE??!!” Claire says. I snap back to my senses, I still can’t wrap my head around the fact that we are girlfriends. Claire says it’s will be okay, but I just can’t take it. Why does it have to hurt so bad, why is there a pounding ache in my chest. Why does it hurt so much I just can’t take it. I break down sobbing. Ellie sits down and puts me in her lap. She starts crying too. After a while we have no more tears to cry and we just sit there dry sobbing.

Ellie repositioned me so I’m facing her. She said “we need to talk honey”. I slowly say “Ok”. She said “ He died you need to accept that honey. We can never get over it until we accept the fact they’re gone. And yes, it will take a while. But where humans we have a long while of a life.” I just can’t speak. I literally can’t. My heart starts to speed up and I my chest feels like it’s caving in on itself, I feel like I can’t breathe. Claire gently picks me up and just rubs my back. I slowly calm down. She puts me on the couch and sits next to me. We sit in silence for a minute or two. I then shout “ MY BROTHER! MY BROTHER! WHY DID HE HAVE TO GO ON THAT STUPID MOTORCYCLE! WHY! WHY! WHY! I finish off with some dry heaving, Ellie quickly grabs a bucket and places it between my legs. She pulls my hair back and slowly rubs my back in circles.

I have nothing to vomit, I haven’t ate in a day in a half. I came back from the funeral and laid in bed for 36 hours until Claire came to check in me.

Claire stand up and says “ let’s get you some apple sauce”. I say “okay.” Claire grabs the apple sauce from the pantry. She then squeezes some out onto a spoon and feeds me like a baby. After I eat all of it, she put me in my bed and covers me up she then lays next to me. She says “it will be okay, eventually Elle-Belle.” She then turns towards me and slowly leans down so are noses are touching. She then softly kisses me on the lips. That was our first kiss. Maybe, just maybe I will get over this.

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EPILOGUE

I am okay, at least I think I am. Claire and me are still dating. I’m taking her to prom tomorrow night. I am wearing a suit. She’s wearing a dress. It masquerade theme so nobody knows who is who. We are going to announce where a couple at the end of it though. We are SOOO exited!! My brother Henry is gone, my one and only brother. I am glad I wasn’t mean to him before he died. He had a fiancé he was getting ready to marry. She was in a badder stare than I was. Anyways that’s all I wanted to say. . Love ya, Mean it, Hate u, Kidding.

ELLIE

CLAIRES POV

i am hugging the one and on one of my life. I went to check on her the day after the funeral. I found her cuddled up in a ball in her bed.

I suddenly remember hugging her Ellie??!!Ellie??!!Ellie??!! I shout her name. She glances up at me. “It will be OK” I said. Ellie suddenly starts to breathe heavy, she starts panting. I know she’s having a panic attack. Then all of a sudden she just collapses, to the floor and breaks down sobbing. I sit down with her. I pull her into my lap and rest my head on her head. I can’t take it, I know I have to be strong for her. I just can’t be strong seeing her in this state. I start crying too. After an eternity of tears, wet shirts and snot, there’s nothing more to cry out.

I pick Ellie up and set her on the couch i plop down next to her. I tell her that we need to talk she says “okay.” Ellie, he died, We can never get over it until we accept the fact they’re gone. And yes, it will take a while. But where humans we have a long while of a life.” I think she want to snuggle instead she jumps up and starts screaming. MY BROTHER, MY STUPID, STUPID, BROTHER. WHY DID HE HAVE TO RIDE THE STUPID MOTORCYCLE. WHY?!!! WHY?!!! WHY!?!!

She starts like she’s about to throw up. I grab a bucket and place it in between her legs. No wonder she felt like she had to vomit. She’s hasn’t ate in a day and a half, she just screamed herself horse, and she is super dehydrated from all the tears. She starts retching again and I rub her back a hold her hair out of her face.

I hear her stomach grumble so I go to for some apple sauce in the kitchen. I spot her favorite; Go Go Squeeze, Apple and Banana. I grab a spoon and I fed her like a small child. After she ate all of it she yawned. Time for bed I suppose??

I pick Ellie up and take her to her bed. I cover her up and she lays on her back like a vampire. I do the same next to her. I softly call her name. I turn towards her. She does the same. Then I lean forward and kiss her on her lips. She smiled a bit that was our first kiss. I think it’s going to be alright.

EPILOGUE

AHHHH!!! Proms tomorrow!! Me and Ellie are going out for ice cream after. She insisted on a suit and I said “whatever floats your boat.” I am wearing this super fancy, blood red, strapless ball gown. It’s masquerade theme so nobody knows who is who. We are going to announce that me and Ellie and a couple at the end of prom.

See ya,

Claire