REUNION WITH PAST

"Warriors don't care about the person they are battling with or the ground they are battling in. They never think about what their future holds they are never afraid to give their best. They never compare their miserable life with anyone's easy one." All I could do was just read these words over and over again. I was the one who wrote them six years ago. Since then these have become my motivational speech for myself.

Today I need to read this because I am going to face my fears. Its not supposed be a battle for others but for me it is. This morning I received reunion invitation from my high school. 

When I look back and think about all those bitter memories it feels as if I am still living them. I still have time to think about it as the reunion is next week on saturday. To be honest all pages of my best freind since high school have some sweet memories too. 'Missie Amanda' that's what I call my diary, my best freind. It's just that some memories are unforgettable. 

And one of them is Sam Jone, the boy with most beautiful features. Those blue eyes deep as sea, those wavy black hairs; how badly I had wanted to touch them and those perfect kisable lips. Not only his features were amazing but he himself was a good human. Girls literally praised him as if he was god. Then some were like me those who could just look from a very far distance. I was from the gang of people not so popular and peace loving people. Though my gang was uncool for many but for us we had our ways to have fun. He had a girlfriend Claire Hope, sweetest girl you can ever meet as a cheerleader but that's until you do as she says. I was my class's one of the brightest students. So I had to finish her assignments,and I didn't mind because what you want to do is spend your high school in peace. 

Everything was alright for others to see but at home I was constantly being judged for the way I looked. Not that I looked like some ghost or something but I didn't care to put any makeup or tried any new hairstyle because I thought that I just needed to focus on how my grades looked like. On the other hand my older brother and sister were perfect in their looks and studies too. It was not that I hated them but I wanted to tell my parents that we all are different from each other so you can't compare me with them or with anyone. It was not easy for me to maintain the grades as I wanted to earn that white coat and stethescope. On top of it I had to finish assignments for others, so one day I decided that I would politely say no to Claire.

She and her gang was full of those typical rich kids, these people had there personal club room. My plan was to go to that club room during our long break and tell Claire about not able do her assignment anymore. So as per the plan I went inside the club room but it was empty so I thought of waiting for her. As I was waiting I had nothing to do so I started checking on my emails. Then suddenly the gate opened and someone called out Claire but she was not here. As I looked at the door my heart skipped a beat there stood Sam looking confused yet so dashing at the same time. I tried to compose my self and then he asked me "Do you know where is she?" "I don't I am also waiting for her" I said but inside I was like Oh my god he talked to me. He just nodded his head and started texting someone. I couldn't believe I was just few inches away from him. He looked so handsome. It was like a dream. It had been almost 20 minutes, waiting for Claire and I was literally dying of hunger and then my stomach growled loudly.  

I was so embaressed that my whole face started burning. "I think you are hungry, if you like you can have a sandwich?" He asked looking at me. "It's ok I will get something from the canteen." I said repressing my hunger and again my stupid stomach gave in and growled for the second time. "Well your stomach doesn't like your idea and break is almost finished." He smiled at me extending a sandwich. I took it and ate believe me when I say it tasted like heaven. "Thank you so much." I said smiling with finishing of my sandwich and then I saw Claire. She just came and kissed Sam as if I wasn't there but most saddest thing was that hw kissed her back. I didn't know why but my eyes wanted to burst out in tears. The thing was I knew they were a couple but maybe somewhere in my heart I had hope for me. 

"Sorry baby I made you wait." Claire said in her sweetest voice I ever heard. "It's alright and yeah your freind is waiting here for you." He said gesturing towards me. "Oh Jenny how may I help you?" She smiled a lilttle too extra. "Claire you know we are getting a lot of work lately so I am sorry I can't keep up the assignment. I am sorry." She stared a lilttle and then smiled again "It's ok Jenny now you can leave and make sure to shut the door." I was mentally thanking her because I can't hold my tears when she was almost throwing herself on him infront of me. I realised that my sadness broke free from my eyes. 

This was 5 years from now but I could still feel the pain in my heart and I didn't realise I was crying. I closed my diary and stood up to see my own reflection in the mirror. I was different person now, an independent doctor still studying to be a surgeon. I might have grown my hair a bit longer, I now wear the kind of clothes I like to wear but still a part of me is still that same 19 year old girl. The girl who cried in her pillow, a girl who still wants to fall in love, a girl who loves food. 

My reflection in the mirror told me that the girl standing is worthy of all the things she want and she is brave enough to face any fear even her bitter memories. With this I decided I will be going there. The days flew away and I already prepared a navy blue with golden glitter gown. I looked in my jewellery box to she if I had suitable braclet to wear with the dress. And then the red dull paper caught my eye when I looked closely I remembered it instantly. This was a note somebody on my hoodie's back when next day I reached school the day after I told Claire about not doing her assignment. The world looked peaceful until I reached my locker where someone had pasted insulting and humilating things for me. They wrote fat cow, poor girl ,despo bitch, ugly bitch etc. Then something I actually was expecting happened. Claire and her girl's gang brought flour, water and splashed onto me. "Oh we were throwing away things but looks like you blocked are way as you are so fat it came onto you. Why don't you pick up some and take home for your poor family." She laughed as if this was the only joke she found funniest and all other students got something for a laugh too so they joined her. As she was going back I said "Excuse me Claire I thought you came from a highly educated family but I feel sorry for you that you even don't know that you must not throw things in your school corridor but in dustbin." With this I produly say that I stopped their little joke. "Mind cleaning it?" I asked her raising my eyebrows and she just got irritated and left. The problem now was I almost looked like a pan cake. I went to restroom and fixed myself up, only problem was my hoodie was all wet so I just had to remove it. I was only in my full seleves top. I quickly went to my locker and put my stuff in it and took my books in doing this I was shivering. "Hi! Do you need help?"a familiar voice spoke up. I turned to find the last person I expected Sam. "You are shivering, didn't you bring your hoodie or you were trying to be a model?" He asked me with a perfect smile and for the first time I noticed that he had dimples and killer one. "It's so great of you but I am..(sneeze) al... (sneeze)... (sneeze)." "Well you say you don't need help but your body reacts differently." He took out hoodie from his bag and gave it to me. I was almost fainted with happiness the hoodie smelled like him as if he was hugging me. I returned it next day. The days went and with a new day came a new bullying idea for me by Claire and others. Life at school was hard but I had my dreams and my one sided love for Sam. I realised that I love Sam as one day his football hit me accidently and I banged my head against a rock because of the force of ball. I was fainting but I remember him lifting me in his arms and taking me to the infirmary and when I woke up he was sitting beside me with a guilty face. I told him that I was alright and that it wasn't his fault. But he felt bad so he dropped me at my place. During walk he asked me my name and we talked some random stuff. For the time the hurting felt like a blessing. From then Claire was more mean to me but I wasn't wrong so I never backed off. Though at one point I was all alone my freinds and even Sam stopped talking to me. Later I gotta know that Claire was cheating on Sam with baseball captain and she excused Sam that he was cheating so that she could easily breakup with Sam. It was almost exam time so I focused on them and finally aced them. With time I got my freinds back and I forgot Sam. Sam was just a dream for me. Finally the day of our prom came everyone had a date except me because I didn't wanted any boy except Sam. We all freinds entered the party. The aura at that place felt weird cause we were welcomed by Claire with an apple juice. But the apple juice felt weird in taste bitter and I started to feeling a lilttle light weight. The party begun with Claire exposing a bitch and guess who was that it was me. My picture with Sam when he gave me his hoodie caption wrote 'stealing others boyfreind' and 'fat cow' me eating lunch in cafeteria. I didn't say anything snd stopped my freinds. I just gulped down 3 more glass of weird apple juice. Then Claire wrote despo bitch etc. My blood boiled when he excused Sam as a cheater with a picture of me and him going back to my home when I banged my head. "Ladies and gentleman attention please. We thank Claire for showing us some amazing pictures." I clapped and went to the stage . "People out journey of high school ends here. I have a confession to make. First of all I love eating and I don't mind if you call me a 'fat cow' because I might look fat infront of these skinny girls. I didn't steal anyone's boyfreind because the day Claire you cheated on him with Max the relationship ended. You Mr Sam can you please come here." I asked Sam and he came up. " Mr Sam you know you are really handsome. I wish I can be with you forever I am happiest when I can get your one smile. I will ask you know Sam would you be my boyfreind though I look fat cow to some?" Before he could say something I found myself sleeping in my bed and what a amazing dream I had but what happened at the promp after we had our weird apple juice. I tried to go to my freinds place but I found the examination letter first so without any other thought and telling any of my freinds I told goodbye to the town I grew up in. I still read that crazy dream I wrote in my diary. I wish I did something like this.

The reunion day arrived I reached exactly at the time it was going to start the town had changed a little since I left. I was here finally the school looked just the same way but we were different now.

As I was looking at the decoration a hand tapped my shoulder,I turned to find none other than Darcy my childhood freind. " Darcy I can't believe it's you, look you are still so pretty." "Yeah I am angry with you it's almost 5 yrs and no text, no call." "I know I had to go back, the next day of prom I got a letter from examination centre about applying for med school so I had no time left to tell anyone." I lied because I could text her atleast but I didn't wanted anything to distract me from my dream not even Sam. "Well you are here how have you been?" She asked me hugging back me tightly. I returned her hug and said "Well how do I look to you?" I raised an eyebrow. "To be honest I couldn't believe it was you. I mean look at the way you have been looking it's just fabulous." She said taking a look at me. Darcy introduced me our old gang everyone looked so grown up and everyone was upset about me not getting in touch with them but were happy to see me at reunion. My eyes still searched for those deep blue eyes.."Well Darcy what happened to others ?" She just smiled and pointed her finger at a girl "Look it's Claire she now has joined father's company. She is soon going to take over it."

I looked at where she pointed Claire looked more beautiful just as some very rich family's fine daughter. "Jen you know she got cheated by that Max serves her right. Sam and she broke up a long time ago." "Sam what about him. He must have gone to Los Angeles for his studies." I asked her searching the crowd. "Yeah and he is in relationship a long distance one Charlie told me. It's possible that he would bring her with him or if she is already here he might introduce her." I felt that old pain of hurt and jealousy in my heart but I didn't wanted ruin my reunion with my past. "Look Jen." Darcy shrugged I looked to find that handsome creature and my heart skipped a beat now more handsome. "Hello everyone it's been 5 years till now we meet again. I had some unfinished buisness so care to give me your precious time for 5 minutes. I want to show you the person I love after these 5 long years I too meet her again. Can we have the video." He gestured towards the screen behind him and damn it was me asking him to be my boyfreind on prom night but it was supposed to be a dream.

Now everyone looked at me as if I had grown horns I looked at Darcy she just winked at me. "Ms Jenny wherever you please join us on the stage I have unanswered question for you?" He said looking at the crowd. I felt this feeling when I was about to be humilated again but this time I had to make peace with my past. So I walked towards the stage and as I was going towards Sam our eyes met I could see some amusement and excitement in them. "Hi!" I said awkwardly. "Hi, you look stunning." "Thanks, you are handsome yourself." "Ok so on promp night you asked me if I wanted to be your boyfreind or not but before I could answer you passed out so my answer is that I have been in a long distance relationship. But no one knows about the girl. I already consider you my girlfreind since the day you asked me. Jenny you are the only girl in my life since that prom night I love you so much..." I couldn't help my tears of joy and the way my body acted I kissed the boy for the first time. "You took so long to answer." "I am sorry Jen let's be together forever since today." I could just hug him tightly and everyone cheered for us. I am glad that I came at a reunion with my bitter memories because I have received very special gift today for my life time.