I am powerless not weak

Samara , a young jolly girl of five years ,was constantly tugging at her mother's dress crying to be carried in her arms.The mother was so held up in her gossips that she had entirely forgotten about the existence of her poor little daughter.The pink evening sky slowly lost its glow and was draped with a dark blue blanket of stars and a moon.The mother looked down and yelled at her daughter,"What is it ?Can't you walk a few more steps , Samara? If you can't bare this ,how will you bear what the world poses for you ahead?Remember, the world is a rat race where only the fittest survives"

Samara begins to sob and attracts the attention of the crowd.One particular mundane caught Samara's mother's attention:bulky built body, shabby nails and unkempt hair .She swiftly picked up her girl and rushed away from that mundane ,her intuition was constantly pricking her .Bang!She fell as the sole of her slipper broke,Samara wailed holding her knee which got scratched.Her mother quickly dusted herself and moved to grab Samara when she saw that man again with a cigar in his mouth looking in her eyes "Nope that was not a possibility , I mean it couldn't be.....he can't be here."She debated with her mind yet a teenage fear instigated in her again.The same fear that had made her leave her family 8 years back and live in France to raise her dearest Samara.

Samara's mother i.e. Katerina Petrova was originally from Bulgaria.She had a life that any girl could ever want: a rich family, beauty, boys at her heels and obviously her one and only Prince Charming,Irwin Coroner .The love of her life was the reason why she left, he was the reason she detested the idea of love and he was the reason Samara happened

Irwin had called Katerina to their secret meeting spot that unfortunate day but strangely asked her to leave her phone at her home.As a love blind teen she followed her lover's commands.That day was freezing ,the sun had masked itself behind the clouds ,it was as if there was an icy fang that drifted over the day and sucked out leaving not even an iota of warmth.The day appeared to be marked by Hades, himself.

"Katerina is that you?" Irwin asked when she knocked on the door ".Yes the sun and moon of my life" Katerina answered.Irwin came out and quickly grabbed Katerina's hand and pulled her inside.The stable had a stench of cigarettes and tons of beer."Irwin why does the room stink of cigars and beers?Are you drunk?Also why did you ask me to not get a phone?"Katerina asked incinerated . "Love the other day when you were puking and we took you to doc to run some tests.Their reports have come.You are pregnant"

Katerina replied"I know sweetheart.The reports had come a week back.I have thought over it.At first I was scared but now I only feel love for this child.Also I was thinking about our wedding........."."Are you being serious over here?You wanna be a babysitter at eighteen.Huh?You can do whatever you want with your life not mine.I request you to not make me a part of this.If you want, I can arrange you tickets"Irwin mumbled.”What did you just mumble!Don’t make you a part of this.Do you even know what will people say?My parents may abandon me for all you know." Katerina screams.“See, I am a guy ,I would face still lesser issues than you would.Plus I love you and I can't bear the duties of parenthood and marriage.If you want we can go to Montenegro where you can drop the kid."Irwin said.“Irwin are you even hearing yourself?You will murder your child.Don't you feel anything when I say our child? Like seriously our child?I would rather leave all this than kill my child"Katerina said."Okay then,I will book your tickets for tomorrow night" Irwin said.These arguements went on and off for a week, finally one ticket was booked to Paris, France. 

A week later Katerina arrived in Paris ,the irony was that she had come to city of love for the sake of love and due to her love.

The sacrifice she had made was undeniably the evidence of her motherhood and her unconditional love for her child.After a few days she got a job as a writer in the French Gazette.After eight months Samara happened.Her life seemed to fall back in place.

That is how Katerina Petrova ,the prom queen, became a mother for a Samara and a writer for The French Gazette.

Returning to the present time, the man with cigar was Irwin.Katerina recognised him, tears blurred her eyes.She went upto him with Samara and asked" Irwin is that you?" "Yes,Katerina."He replied with a rusty voice."Samara say hi to a friend of mine.His name is Irwin"Katerina said with a tone of pride.Irwin was blank about her existence.“Ma, it hurts" she said pointing to her knee.Katerina quickly rushed to a hospital where Samara got her first aid.Irwin just asked her blankly “ Is she....,.. ours?" Katerina replied"NO!She is only mine, her father abandoned her eight years back. “Katerina ,I am sorry,I know I was an idiot please forgive me"Irwin begged.Irwin ,I forgave you a long time back,I could never grow with regrets, I just need answer of one question,How is my family?Do they know where I am?About Samara?"Katerina asked eagerly.

“Katerina, Your father died due to a heart attack, seven years back.Your mother is living in poverty."Irwin said looking at floor.

Katerina was on the verge of breaking down until Samara came.She held back her tears and asked her"Are you okay now?"Yes Ma.Now I am good"Samara replied with a toothed grim.Katerina's lips flitted into a smiled she said enthusiastically,"Wanna take a trip to Bulgaria?"Where grandpa and grandma live!Yes!I do wanna"Samara replied stammering.

Irwin and Katerina exchanged a look.They couldn't believe they were going back where it all started.They took the flight a day later.Irwin was stupefied when Katerina paid for his fare back with just one word“Even”

When Katerina got down from her flight with Samara and Irwin, she was aghast.Her mother, once an actress, was terribly struck with old age .The wrinkles on her face showed the scars she had bared and her face was as pale as a full moon in a foggy night.They both hugged and cried in each others arms.When she saw Samara ,she linked what had caused her beloved daughter to leave , she hugged and kissed her as if there was no tomorrow.Later that very day Katerina visited her father grave and buried a few flowers with a few cries and tears.Life moved on again.Katerina moved to France with her mother and Samara.When she was about to leave Irwin gave her flowers and asked her"How did you live through with no hope?You were in such a powerless state?"

Katerina answered with a smile"I was driven with the hope of. motherhood and my child.Also Irwin ,I was powerless but not weak.The fire within me never died you know?”They left.

Samara turned out be a straight A-grade student with a boyfriend who didn’t leave her even if she was in her worst phase.Samara always had her priorities straight.Nothing was more important to her than her education.

After twenty one years when Samara cleared her MBBS ,she said in her graduation speech"I am the daughter of a mother who wanted me to survive rather than her celebrity life.Trust me when I say this , a queen is needed to run the world whereas a king is needed only to run a game of chess.I may look powerless but remember I ain't weak"