I have been up all night. It is probably around 3 in the morning, if I am guessing right. I'll be leaving in an hour. That's the time declared.
It's really cold in here. It is freezing when you have to sleep on a thin bed sheet on the floor. Winters are seemingly around the corner.
I stand up from my bed- that's what I like to call it- and walk towards the little sink. There is barely a trickle of water when I turn the tap on.
I always wanted to live a better life. Have a house with enough water supply and light and also a bed. It just frustrates me to think about how great my life could have been and still here I am.
I put my hands under the water and surprisingly it isn't freezing at all. I splash the water on my face.
It is a dark room with just a little bulb which emits almost nothing. I come and sit on my bed again.
" I AM NOT GOING TO WAIT HERE FOR A MINUTE. YOU. YOU HAVE RUINED MY ENTIRE LIFE! " Jack screamed so loud, his voice trembled.
" DON'T YOU DARE KEEP A STEP OUT MR. NOT WITHOUT YOUR SON. " Julie replied back just as loud if not louder.
Julie picked up a vase and threw it at Jack when he tried to get out.
" ARE YOU FREAKING OUT OF YOUR MIND? YOU WITCH! "
I came down because of all the noise. " What the hell is going on? "
" YOU. YOU ARE THE REASON WHY I AM STUCK IN THIS HOLE. LET ME TELL YOU ONE THING YOUNG MAN I DO NOT CARE A BIT ABOUT YOU. YOU WERE NO LESS THAT A FILTHY MISTAKE. YOU WANTED A 16TH BIRTHDAY WITH YOUR FATHER RIGHT? THIS IS IT I AM LEAVING YOU WITH HIM NOW. "
She started walking towards the door when Jack punched her in the jaw and she fell on the floor with a thud.
She wasn't moving. Probably fell unconscious.
" WHAT THE HELL HAVE YOU DONE! " I screamed.
Jack stood there breathing heavily and sweating his clothes wet.
Julie started groaning on the floor after a while and tried standing up with a mouth full of blood.
" I AM GOING TO KILL YOU! "
She ran to the kitchen and got a knife.
" Julie, stop right there. " Jack said with caution. She started running towards him.
" THE HELL! " He ran out the door with her chasing him with a knife in her hand.
It has been 20 years since I saw my parents for the last time. I don't know where any of them went after the fight. I never heard of or from them. Are they even alive? I don't know. They left all their possessions home. I hoped for a long time they'd come back, but they didn't.
I look outside to see if anyone's there. No one has woken up yet. Why do I even expect them to? It's 3:30am for god's sake. I probably won't be getting to see them before I am gone. They probably don't even care.
I have been here for almost six months now. Some of the people were quite crazy in the beginning and some were just silent grim. They asked me why I was here. I didn't know what to say most of the time. But they thought I was cool.
I lay down on the bed again waiting for the waiting to end. It is just difficult to leave something while knowing that you have to leave it. I start wondering what my life would be like if all this wouldn't have happened. What if I had never caused this? What if I hadn't met Emily? What if I had refused to go to her father's that evening?
" You are going to be fine, Jay. My dad is going to love you. " Emily said persuasively.
" Emily, I really don't think this is a great idea. I am not ready for this. " I said.
" Honey, trust me you'll be fine. Let's go, he's waiting for you. "
I hated this. She knew I had issues with my parents and she never stopped bragging about how great hers were.
She rang the door-bell, to be opened and greeted by a tall, old man.
" Hey dad. " Emily hugged her father.
" Hey sweety. And you are Jay. " He said looking at me.
" Yes sir. Uh. Good evening. "
" Come on in. "
We were at the dinner table when he asked about my parents.
" So, Emily tells me your parents left you when you were sixteen. Is that true? " He asked me very unapologetically.
" Yes sir. " My blood was already starting to boil at his words.
" May I ask why? Why would a parent just leave like that? Did you do something? " I couldn't believe his nerve for asking me that.
I looked at Emily questioning her ignorance. She acted like she didn't know what was happening.
" No. " I wanted to say and do so much more.
" Come on tell me did one of them have an affair? "
" I do not really wish to talk about it. "
He laughed and said, " Come on now tell me. Don't be a baby. "
" And why should I tell you? "
" Why shouldn't I know? My daughter is in a relationship with you and I have to know about you. I don't want my son in law to be a jackass whose parents left him. "
That, right there was my breaking point.
I stand up and walk to the wall beside the sink. I have been marking the days left. I cross the last one with a piece of stone.
They should be here now. It is almost time I think. I walk back to my bed, sit down and close my eyes, waiting.
" Hey, hey you. Get up. It's time. " He says banging on the bars with his baton.
I walk over as he unlocks the cell gate.
" So, any last wishes? " He asks.