Make way for the losers

Dear diary, Have you ever stayed up until 4:31 am. Have you ever wanted to sleep but couldn't close your eyes long enough. Well my insomnia is getting worse. I want to do something but everyone is always asleep.It makes me feel so alone. But at least I have you though. Sometimes I want to talk to friends but then I remember "What friends?" It's so exhausting being lonely. No events, no contact, and no sleep! To be perfectly honest I don't even want to sleep anymore. I wanna meet someone. Do something spontaneous! I try so hard to get help but nothing helps.

Dear diary, It's daytime and there was no sleep for me. So how did you sleep? Also I looked for some pills today to help me out. I think I may be addicted. I also looked up happy pills today. They do exist! But I can't afford them. Can I borrow some cash? I wish people understood me though. Then I wouldn't need them. It's getting kind of rough all alone in mind. Just me you diary.

Dear diary, it just hit midnight. My family is already out cold. I keep scrolling through Instagram and finding these famous people. They have so much fun. I don't understand. Does my inability to sleep repel fun? Well I wish I had friends like that. Also I think I want to be an actress!

Dear diary, it's now 5:23 AM. I am still wide awake! Also I found this app called Tik Tok. It's addictive I swear. Back to the actress idea, I applied to be an extra for a popular show. Will it work out? I really hope it does. Maybe I'll make some friends on stage!

Dear diary, the agency called! They said the want to MEET. Now it's even harder to sleep. The meetings tommorow. So I guess I have to sleep. I finally got some sleeping pills! ( Stolen from stepdad shhhh).

Dear diary, sleeping pills only lasted an hour! :( I guess I'll scroll through Instagram then. I'm so excited for this job! I'm only a kid and kid actors are amazing. I want to be a role model for others. Just like the IT cast are mine :)

Dear diary I'm on my way to the meeting. Keep the pages warm for me ok?

Dear diary OH MY GOSH I got it!!! So excited. More reason I can't sleep. I have so much to talk about can you handle it? I decided to make a late night salad so see ya in a bit ok?

Dear diary salad was great last night. My first rehearsal is today! People are so nice! I might just make a friend. You are amazing diary:) Were almost to the studio and the anticipation is high.

Dear diary, just checked Instagram and I have 10k followers!!! Am I popular? Am I COOL? Is this what friends feel like? I don't feel so lonely anymore. Is that weird?

Dear diary, I finally SLEPT! I'm not that sad anymore either. My dreams constantly make my life better I hope it stays that way. I forgot to mention one of my biggest role models!* Other than you diary:) his name is Jack grazer. He is an actor ( duh) he makes me confident! I'm so excited for this episode to air.

Dear diary, episode has been aired! I'm officially an actress. I made it diary I actually did it! I love this diary. You won't even believe. This is my new life I guess? This is all you though diary.

Dear diary, I just won $50! I did this challenge at 12:00 yesterday. I won! I also made some friends! But I think it's kind of weird that I can just sleep all of a sudden. I had a good dream for the first time in years! I love this rush of adventure my life has turned into. But I'm hungry and need a snack! I'm gonna make some cake >:3

Dear diary, I just got casted for a movie! I can't wait to start it. I'm the lead:) I can't believe that my dreams came true finally I have more dreams everyday. A new cycle has started!

Dear diary, the movie is done! I'm sorry I haven't written in a while :( I have been kind of busy but I'm here now. I love you diary <3 my parents are sleeping. So it's just me and you like old times I can't believe our new life. It great isn't it?

Dear diary, times are changing life is getting better . My insomnia is gone. I can't believe this all started with a loser who couldn't sleep late at night! Hey diary am i still a loser? Wait don't answer that:) I can't seem to see how i have had you for all these years. I love the time we spend together <3 Your getting pretty full and looking back you were the best friend anyone could have!

Dear diary, movie is GREAT! Still in denial of my new fame! I wish I could just show you how much you mean to me. Now I can't sleep. I'm so restless. But in a good way! You made this happen. I'm not just out of my she'll I have destroyed it ! All because of you diary! :)

Dear diary, I just finished the movie! I am so happy. oh Guess what diary! We are gonna watch the movie together and stay up for fun! I can't wait for the night to come . I love you diary:)

Dear diary, I have had you for years. This is your last page. You have always had my back! You have seen my dreams come true. I was a loser and I hated it. But I had you:) Now I love being a loser. Seeing how I was special and cool in my own way. I longed for friends that I didn't need! I changed alot and it's not the acting or new found friends. It was you! *and maybe Jack grazer too:)* Always you. So tell me let's be losers together forever. So on forever Make way for the losers!