The Decisions of a Moment

Chapter 1 - The Madness.

Rebecca sat in her room,on her bed, in tears. She felt hurt and undone. Rebecca's brother, Stephen, seemed to be a pro at making her cry. Stephen lived in an entirely different state then his sister but just a small conversation with him, always ended with Rebecca crying and running for her room.

Rebecca Cry's and thinks about the hurtful and insulting things, Stephen had said to her over the phone. She replays the words inside her head. "Rebecca, you're Stupid! You'll Never Be Good Enough!! If You'd Live Your Life The Way I Live My Life, You'd Be A Better Person! Everything You Live For is Stupid! Because its Not My Way!"

Rebecca knows that Stephen had been drinking. Because he's more opinionated and mean when he's been drinking. He was over critical of people when he drank as well.

Rebecca's mother, Alice, lived in Colorado with Rebecca, in her small 2 bedroom apartment. Rebecca was still in her room sobbing. She knew that the only thing that could calm her was to turn on some music. Music was Rebecca's favorite thing. Music was her medicine for almost anything. It calmed her from deep within. After about 15 minutes of taking in the wonderful harmony of the music, Rebecca was so much more calm. No more tears running, on more sobbing, no more having trouble breathing. She was a lot calmer.

The music danced in her head as she lie back in her bed, just thinking. Her favorite artist was playing. An Underground, Solo, label Artist. This man could rap, sing rock, country and pretty much anything. The most versatile Artist yet, in Rebecca's opinion. The song playing was his alice and chains cover album song,, "Rooster," which in Rebecca's opinion, He Rocked in the song. Rebecca realizes she's now smiling.

Before Rebecca even knew it, she was waking up to the music still playing and a loud knock on her door. She jumps up quickly, startled. She hadn't even realized she had fallen to sleep. She hurried out of her room and into the living area to answer the door. When she opens the door she see's, Mikey, standing there, typing away on his smart phone. Rebecca says, jokingly, "You going to come in or play on your phone?" Mikey, lightly chuckles and begins hiscway through the doorway, going inside the apartment. Rebecca was relieved to see Mikey, after her stressing day.

Mikey was a dark haired, lightly tanned, goofy, yet serious, man. He was always the most kindest and most caring man. The perfect friend. Was always willing to listen, give advice, and be the friend, Rebecca always needed. And she was thankful to have his friendship.

Mikey sees that Rebecca is dazed off and lost inside her own head. So he walks up to her being sneaky, and lightly shoves on her. Just enough to tip her a bit but not enough to make her fall over. Then he Chuckle's and says, "Hey, Dazey. Earth to Rebecca! You plan on coming back anytime soon?" Then he chuckles some more.

Rebecca realizes she's off in her own world and joins in with Mikey's laughter. Mikey then asks, " So what's on your mind? Is everything okay? " Rebecca replies, " Yeah, was just thinking about my phone call with my brother today." Mikey asks, " I'm assuming he was the same as always? Insulting you and making you cry? " Rebecca replies, " Yeah, but doing okay now. "

Mikey clears his throat and then says, " Rebecca, I know Stephen's your brother and I know you care about him. But do you think it's emotionally healthy for you when he does that to you? Do you think that may be cutting off contact with him would take away that mental and emotional strain that you feel? " he pauses, " I've heard him call you names, Insult you, and be downright horrible to you. I've never seen you end a phone call with him, without you being emotionally distraught."

Rebecca is now looking down at her feet and lightly picking at her fingernails. Then looks up at Mikey and says, with sadness and disappointment, in her voice, " Mikey, I do love Stephen, with all my heart. That's why when he speaks to me in that manner, it upsets me so much. And you are right. Without his emotional abuse, my stress level should get lower. But that's a really hard decision for me to make. He's my brother, my blood! " She slowly returns her eyes towards the floor and a couple tears sneak down her cheek. Mikey reaches out and softly wipes the tears from Rebecca's face. Then Mikey grabs her and pulls her towards him for a much needed hug.

Then Mikey says, "Rebecca, You know I care about what happens to you, right? Your happiness means the world to me. This decision is yours to make. I'm just giving my opinion and advice."

Rebecca puts her face in Mikey's chest and let's out a shivering sigh. And replies, " I know. I'm glad I can depend on you. I'm lucky to have you as my friend. And I'm definitely going to keep that advice open in my mind for future use. It's something I'll need to think about. " She raises her head up from his chest and looks at him and smiles. She continues with saying, " I can't help but be happy when you're with me. You seem to turn frowns upside down, Mikey. " she giggles and then says, with enthusiasm, " Hey, how bout we go to the Drive Inn tonight? Been a while since we've gone there. So, what do you think, Bestie?" "Hell Yeah!" He replies, with excitement. "Well I'm going to head home to get ready and I'll meet you back here to pick you up." Says Mikey. "Does that sound like a plan, Rebecca?" She replies, with glee, "Okay, that sounds great. So I'll see you here around 6:00 pm?" Mikey smiles and replies back, "yep, of course. Talk to you in a bit." Mikey was heading out the door after saying their goodbyes and doing a little wave.

Rebecca scurries to get ready for their evening. She can worry about deciding what to do about her brother, tomorrow.

Chapter 2 - Decision of a Moment

Rebecca rose from her bed at daybreak, Wondering why she was already awake? Mikey and her hadn't made it home until around 1:00 am. And she didn't actually fall to sleep til about 2:30 am. Rebecca heads towards the bathroom for water to splash on her face. She could hear her mom, whistling a tune, in the kitchen.

Rebecca strolls toward the living room and sees her mom standing by the kitchen table, coffee in hand and whistling and sort of dancing. It made Rebecca smile. She walks to the coffee pot and starts pouring herself a cup. " Good Morning, Mom." Rebecca says softly. Her mother replies, " morning to you too Dear. How was your movie night with Mikey?" Rebecca responds with a smile, "Thank you mom, It was Great!"

Rebecca takes a seat at the kitchen table to drink her coffee. She stares blankly at her cup of coffee, still not quite awake. Rebecca and her mom sit and chat the morning up. Rebecca realizes its almost 11:00 am and hurries to go shower. Work begins at 1:30 pm. Right before she was entering her doorway to her room, the phone rings. She runs to answer it. "Hello" Rebecca says, sweetly. "Hey, sis" the voice replies. Rebecca, realizes that it's her brother, Stephen.

onOh, Hey Stephen," Rebecca says. Then asks" What are you up to, this morning? " Stephen replies, " Well, I read a post on social media and I didn't like it. The post was on your page." He says, all arrogant and sure of himself.

Rebecca sigh's in frustration. Then responds, " And what on my page did you not like, Stephen? "

He says," Why you be posting about drugs,and sex on your page? Always posting personal business for everyone to read?"

Rebecca answers, "Because the drugs are a part f who I am, the sex stuff I'm not shy about, and it's my page, my decision."

Stephen starts getting frustrated. His voice begins to rise as he says, " You Will Never Learn, Rebecca, You'll Never Listen! That's why you have crap drug addict friends! You are White Trash! Everyone You Hang Out With Is White Trash! You Disgust Me and Embarrass me and I'm ashamed to call you my sister! "

Rebecca already beginning to tear up. She could feel that lump in the back of her throat. She then speaks up and says firmly, " "Stephen, We were raised in the same White Trash Home, in the same White Trash Trailer Park!" She pauses, then says," Honestly, Stephen, I would rather be White Thrash, then a rich, judgemental, asshole, like you!"She pauses, and hears him gasp in disbelief, over the phone. Rebecca finishes by saying, "You know what? Every time you call, you insult, make fun, call me names, and put mW in a complete emotional and mental state. You never praise me when I'm doing good. You only criticize me for my mistakes. You always judging me and you are so opinionated about the way I live. How bout this, Stephen? You lose my number, I'll lose your number and we will never speak to each other ever again?"

There was a brief pause on the other end of the phone line. Then Stephen says, "That sounds like a good idea to me." Rebecca says, " "alright Then good riddens!" She slams the phone down while hanging it up. She jolts towards her room. Tears rolling and anger built up so fiercely. She slams her bedroom door, sinks into her bed, and she Cry's.

Once again, after listening to music, she was able to calm herself. Once she was calm,she pucks up her phone and calls Mikey. The phone rang and rang. Rebecca was sure Mikey wasn't going to answer but right when she was going to give up, she hears, " Hello, Summers residence." She replies, "Hwy, you Knucklehead giggling and smiling. Mikey laughs and says, " Hwy, Rebecca, glad to hear you're able to joke around today. How you doing? " he asks

Rebecca replies, "My day was going awesome until Stephen called. I listened to it for a bit but then decided I didn't have to listen to it anymore. So I cut him off and told him exactly what Ilater. at that moment. Mikey, I decided to do what you had advised yesterday." Rebecca says, with an unsteady voice. Then she finishes by saying, "So I told him to lose my number and I'd lose his. He agreed and I hung up. I took a vow today , to not ever speak to him again. Or until he realizes he's been in the wrong and he can't treat me that way."

Mikey says, with admiration, "You done the right thing, Rebecca. You may not be sure of it right now but I promise the dismissal of negativity and emotional abuse will create more good feelings about yourself, and let go of the bad ones."

Rebecca let's our a breath of relief but also a breath from exhaustion. She then begins to say to Mikey, "Thank You for being here for me, for always being my friend, and always showing me you care. If it wasn't for you, Mikey, I don't know what I would do? Please help me through this and continue to be that friend, I know so well?" Mikey smiles and says, " I do those things because I want to and I feel it's my duty as your friend. And I'm just as grateful for your friendship. " he pauses and then continues, "We be friends until we no longer breathe. You are stuck with this Crazy, Nutty friend." He laughs loudly. Rebecca joins him in laughter. She then ends the call by saying goodbye and she hopes to see him later.