GONE

" I don't want to go mom I'm sorry" I told this to my mom trying to hold back tears because I hate crying.

" Where are you gonna go if you don't come with me"

" I don't know mom but I'm not going to Mississippi with you the last time I been there chad's mom called someone a 'nigger-lover' me being half black mom I don't like that it hurts and what are you gonna do if she want's to kick y'all out huh where you gonna go on the streets"

" Nicole I don't know but i'm the parent your the daughter you are coming you don't have anywhere else to go to anyway your dad doesn't want you"

" Ok mom but I'm 15 years old I thinks i and decide for myself you said it when I turned 15 that was legal age for me to start making my own choices"

I left after that and went tell my neighbors who I have grown to trust because their daughter is my best friend I don't really trust people like that tho because why your just gonna get hurt in the end nobody is trust worthy depend on yourself.

" I came to tell you guys bye and I'm gonna miss y'all but I have to go to mississipi with my mom she is the only family member who I have that I know I can trust."

" Why is she moving to mississipi" Mr.Scott asked me,

" She wants to get away from my dad from lousiana and chad's wife thats what she told me" I was trying to hold back tears while saying this.

" well why don't you stay with us my wife has grown to love you so has my son and you know Maddie loves you to this is a serious offer say yes or no I can make it happen." I had to think this thru and I decided I was going to stay with them for the school year and live with my mom during the summer but little did I know I was going to lose the most important person to me in this process and over a man at that. My mom decided to let me stay but there was one issue she signed me out of school the day before she left so we had to find a way to get me back into school. The very next day I moved in with my new family we tried to get this business handled by going to the school board and we got my mom to sign a partial custody paper, but they said we couldn't stand alone with that paper.

" If you want to get her back into school you will need the mother to come back or her father is his name on the certificate?"

" No sir his name isn't on my certificate" I said trying to hold back tears.

" Well does he have proof that he is your father"

" Oh yes sir he has a DNA test but I think my mom has it and she may have thrown it away"

" Do you know your dads phone number" I gave him my dad's number but I was prepared for the worst because I have always been thru things my whole life.

" Destiny you are seven years old now how many times do we have to go thru this you have to feed and water the chickens every day"

" But I did daddy three times actually"

" No you did;t how many times do I have to tell you" I was crying at this point because when I was younger I couldn't control it would just cry I was so sweet and soft hearted but crying never fixed nothing to be honest.

" But daddy I did go feed and water them"

" Why are you crying there isn't anything to cry at" he yelled at me.

" I did feed them I tend to the chickens everyday after school and you come home everyday and tell me I didn't you don't ask either you just go straight to yelling at me"

" Shut up your not worth anything all you do is cry and eat my food there is no purpose for you here and you will never be worth anything nobody is ever gonna love you because you are stupid and you don't know how to do anything" This happened to me everyday after school and it did hurt until when around I was ten I started numbing the pain I did believe him to I thought I was unable to do anything and I was't worth anything I still do. That was my memories with my dad. My dad has now answered the phone.

" Hello"

" Yes this is max I am calling to see if you have paperwork saying That Destiny Green is your daughter"

" I did but my ex wife has them I believe"

" Thank you that's all I needed to know sir"

We tried getting me in school for three months and were unsuccessful. It's around christmas time and I really miss my brothers and my mom so I went spend a week with them in mississipi. The neighbors really didn't like me for some reason and they didn't want their daughters talking to me but what got me was this when I was walking outside I heard their mom yelling at them.

" I don't want ya'll hanging around that half nigger-bitch"

That really hurt so I went home and just got ready since I was leaving the next morning. On the way back home Mr. Scott's wife told my mom that if she didn't sign me into school I could no longer live with them. I convinced my mom to sign me in but she only did it because she knows I have a mouth on me and did't want to get kicked out of her boyfriend's mom's house. Everything was going fine until monday morning when my mom came down to sign me into school.

" They told me I can't sign you in I tried now get your stuff and get in the truck we going" I did't think twice and I went into the house and told Mr.Scott.

" Oh no she don't " he went outside and she said,

" give me my daughter or I'm calling the cops"

" Call the cops then because your not getting her" my mom called the cops and they came but little did she know they knew the cops that came and that paper she signed with partial custody she couldn't take me because of it.

" Well ya'll can have her I don't want her anymore" and she drove away I was so hurt, but it didn't matter it's just i lost the one person I thought I would never lose in a million years my mother. I have not talked to her since but my dad did get the DNA papers and I'm in school now talking to a boy named Jeremy I really like him to. My mom doesn't know I'm in school and my dad called her and she did not know I was there and she told him about how she was waiting for those papers contract to end and when it did she was coming get me and putting me in military school and about how she hates me and all kinds of stuff. It really does hurt to know your own mother left you for a man who wanted to live with his mom,a man who doesn't have a job, a man who is still married. I don't cry about it tho ,but it does hurt I hide it from everyone. I thought my mom was the one person who I could trust who would never leave me but that proves that I can trust nobody and keep to myself the moment I start to even think about trusting you, you best believe I won't trust you I'm tired of getting hurt my dad broke me before any boy can and my mom left me teaching me to trust nobody believe me I didn't go into detail into this story either about the beatings and everything I am the way I am for reasons. Just ne careful what you say to people.