As you check your mail box, you notice a letter that makes you stop in your track.

Sunday’s are best to have some rest and calm your body and what is better when my husband and children went to their aunt’s house. Is it life? Am I even alive? Why is there so much silence? For me I was in heaven. Birds chirping around that blossom tree, Clouds forming shapes I can never detect but they were moving smoothly and silently we don’t know where they might end because the road is ceaseless.

I sat on my bed. Radio was playing classic music. Calmness caressingly touched my face, my body rested, and my heart was filled with the mixture of happiness and pleasure which dissolved in my blood.

It’s even weird when you still have those assignments to do. A book report of a book I never read and I will not read because my time does not give me permission. Well, what’s Google for? When laptop was finally on my laps, I woke it up from sleep. And what was THAT? 100+ Emails! As soon as I clicked on it they were in front of me. Well as I expected, almost all of them were advertisements and I had a question what would I do of papers? Well my children are teen’s now. And what was that? A men’s underwear!          Well what can I do with that? Maybe gift it to my husband on his birthday. Most of them were BookBub or Pinterest. Well looking at those emails I thought at least one would be a job invitation for me of $15000 or even $20000 which will change my lifestyle and I could buy that GUCCI purse even those hoodie’s or go to that LOUIS VUITTON and walking out with 3-4 bags but not with disappointment and wishes. I could even visit some five star restaurants instead of eating a regular hamburger near the fountain of the park next to the mall with my three children, where I would greedily look at those clothes with branded design and that would be the time when my children will start fighting and I will be the judge to decide whose fault it is and who will face the consequence. Well that’s the best part though.

There, an email caught my sight. It depicted “THE JOKE OF THE DAY”. Well I love joke and who would not like to read them specially a person like me. Well as soon as I opened it I felt nothing than humiliating, as if a cloud of despondency showered on my head and it mocked me like those relatives who only came to my house on my result day to enjoy. It said,

Dear OOHHHHHH dear do you know what’s more fun? Do you? Well for me to know about yourself because every person in this world is a joke. Well how humiliating it is but you will know if you are a fool or stupid if you will answer the following question;

Do you make sandwich for your children every day in the morning?

Do you wash clothes of your children if they put the tomatoes and the cabbage of the same sandwich in the pockets of their uniform?

Do you ever lost your children while shopping in mall which just announced 50% discount?     

Well do you smell of vegetables and chicken and sometimes of the soap you use to wash the dishes?

Yes or No

Well in simple words you are a mother. So what do you expect you are a fool or a stupid?

I’ll solve it for you

Fool=stupid

Stupid =fool

So,

(Fool=stupid=you)= your children must be hungry make the sandwich

 Well I was frowning in anger. And I was than determined to buy a new perfume and a nice soap with exquisite fragrance. But I don’t know will I do it?

When life is going fine and you start to enjoy it people really can’t bear. I don’t know how they know if you are happy but that’s the moment they come to you ready to annoy you as hard as possible. Even if it is through internet by emailing they are there to annoy you. It is when life questions, “why even am I here?” And commonsense argues in return, “People need you but why am I here? I should get the train back home”. There is this one email I remember and I too question my commonsense and ask god why do I exist?

It is showed to you in the following lines,

HEY THERE I AM GOING THROUGH SOME VERY BAD STUFF. I HAVE REACHED A POINT IN LIFE WHERE I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO ‘I CLIMB EVERY MOUNTAIN AND SWIM EVERY OCEAN’ BUT I DON’T KNOW WHERE THE SOLUTION IS.’I AM A MESS I AM A LOSER’ BUT I KNOW YOU ARE A TOPPER AND A GENIUS. EVERYDAY I SING TO MY BABY ‘I LOVE YOU BABY AND IT IS QUI….’ BUT SHE ALWAYS SHOUTS. EVERYTIME I TYPE ON IT SHE SHOUTS AND PEOPLE CONSIDER I ME AS A FOOL.’BLOOD, SWEAT, AND TEARS’ BUT TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO. DEAR IT’S MY COMPUTER. WHEN EVER I SEND ANY EMAIL THE LETTERS ARE ALWAYS CAPITAL PEOPLE THINK I AM SHOUTING BUT I AM NOT. WHAT SHOULD I DO I JUST BOUGHT MY COMPUTER IT IS SO EXPENSIVE AND NO ONE WILL TAKE A BROKEN COMPUTER I LOST MY MONEY, HOPE, CONFIDENCE HELP ME! I NEED AN URGENT HELP.

I was very worried. I felt tension and physical changes like increase in blood pressure. I felt so much pain as if my stimuli was damaging. I couldn’t understand the meaning of commonsense and even can’t pronounce it. Life too questioned me and I was silent like I don’t understand English. Desolation, mournfulness, wretchedness, dismalness and disconsolation broke me apart. I questioned am I very intelligent to be described or I am not a human who can’t understand their perspective. Am I an alien who was sent to earth or I am a ghost turned into the shape of human. I am a human or not but how genius am I to click on the ‘CAPSLOCK’ key.

Well life is hard and problems will come. Although disappointment was sitting on my head, like a king sits on its chair. But still silence calmed me, “Nothing can be worse now”, I thought, and rested my back on my bed.

What then? And suddenly I heard a voice of three of them shouting together, “Mama we are home. OPEN THE DOOR. OPEN THE DOOR.”

I never expected that NOW.