This Is What Life Is

It was a cold winter night. I could not sleep though I was tired and have not been able to sleep for almost two days. I turned on my tv and started watching a web series that I can binge watch. The series that I selected was “I am not okay with this”. The title was quite catching and it actually matched with my previous condition so I started watching it. It had only 8 episodes so I finished it that night. I usually get inspired from everything or anything that I see. I remember that after watching money heist I was so obsessed with Tokyo's haircut that I changed mine like that as well. But this time, it was not someone’s looks or dressing that I get inspired by. I was attracted by the main leads younger brother’s pet, which was a hedgehog. I was so obsessed with his pet that I started looking for one in my locality. My area was not very populated. Animals like dragon lizard, weasels, foxes, snakes and squirrels were very common there. I have seen them plenty of times but never a hedgehog. After finding it nowhere near my area, I searched hedgehogs online. There was a pet shop some 60 kilometres away from my hometown. I mailed them and they promised me to get a hedgehog for me. At that time, I was a student of computer science but I used to work during my off time. I was a waiter in a café. My income was even less than my needs. But my obsessions have always been so pricey and I cannot control myself from that. My father died at a very young age, just when I was born. He was an addict and he died because of his addiction to drugs. His habit of addiction transmitted to me as well. I was an addict myself for a very long time, but then I rehabilitated on my own. But after that, I became addicted to one hobby, which was to get obsessed with anything that I see. I remember that time too when I cried for so long when Ian Somerhalder who played the main character in the vampire diaries got married in his real life. But this is what life is, you have to move on one time or another. My mother ran away with a man he fell in love with. But I never hated my mom. I believe in prioritizing yourself in every situation and I am proud that my mom did that. She is happy and enjoying her life that’s what really matters.  

The day came when that pet shop mailed me and told me that they have got hedgehog in their shop and they will be selling it to me for worth 500$. I was so overly excited and happy to hear about that. So, I could not sleep that night as well. But the only problem that I was facing at that time was the money. Where the hell can I get 500$ to buy that hedgehog? I started brainstorming ways on how to manage my money. I had total 90$ at that time in my pocket. But then I remembered, oh I have an heirloom that my mother left for me. It was very valuable and pretty. A necklace that was of my mother’s. The very next day, I went to a jewelry shop to sell it. They told me that they will take it for 650$. I was happy enough that it even exceeded the price that I wanted. So, I readily agreed, took the money and went on my way to get that hedgehog. Whole way I was acting insane. I was driving, dancing and singing all together. I reached there after an hour of driving. I bought the hedgehog for 450$ after bargaining with the pet shop's owner. They gave it to me along with the food and proper instructions on how to deal with a pet like this one. My hedgehog was so beautiful and handsome. I would have married him if I was a hedgehog myself. Haha just kidding. I started bunking my high school and I used to take leave from my café hours as well. All day log I was just cuddling and playing with my Zobu. I named him Zobu, it suited his personality. I could not let him out of my house. He became so precious to me in no time. My neighbors used to fear him and used to call me freak. They used to talk a lot of bad things about me as well. That I live alone in my house as a girl and my character is not good. But again, I never cared about them because at that time Zobu was enough for me. He became my best friend and I loved him a lot. One day, I was very concerned about the lifespan of my Zobu. I searched on google and the lifespan google showed was 2 to 5 years. I became totally numb at that time. It felt as if the sky has fell on my head. Zobu was like a child to me. And when I checked his age after contacting the pet shop, they told me that he is of 4 years old male woodland hedgehog. I tried looking for medicines and other supplements that can increase his life span. Time was going fine but I always had this fear of losing him. He was getting slow and dull day by day. and I was getting anxious that I will might lose him someday. One day on a beautiful evening, I took my Zobu to a nearby park. I was sitting on a bench while he was wandering slowly and quietly in front of me. Out of nowhere, A fox came running at my Zobu, took it in his mouth and he ran as fast as he could. I did not get the time to even get up from the bench. My legs started shivering and I fainted right there. After some hours, I came back into my senses. I took myself to my house and I cried as loud as I can. It was even worse than losing my father and mother. I cried like a small baby who could not help himself but to cry. That night I could not sleep so I turned on my television and searched for a web series that I can watch. This time I started watching dark desire. And I got obsessed with Spain and Spanish actors. So, after some weeks I started gathering money for Spain, that someday I will visit the country, Spain. Because you know this is what life is. You have to move on from one thing to another.