Don't let go

"I knew already, something would came up whenever we're going there. What we will dow now sister? Young child asked with a sad pout.

"I don't know let's get unready, we won't be able to visit aunt today." said the elder one being disappointed.

A sudden voice intruppted their conversation. " why are you guys so eager to go there? They don't even care about you"

" Not now mon, I know you hate them with all your heart but she's my aunt and I love her more than anything and I know she loves me too. I'm already tired from living with you all. The way you all treat me I'm from that."said the elder one with tears in her eyes.

"Oh come on Sarah, you're showing as if we treat you like a slave" said her mother.

"You treat me worse than a slave. All I ask for is love and affection from you guys and to treat me as your beloved family but you always treat me like shit saying rude things to me, ignoring my all efforts to get along with you and brother."Sarah said being teary.

"Alright I see you're hating us for your stupid aunt if you want to go that badly to that bitch I'll surely drop you there. But make sure to live there atleast till your next life." said her mother being angry.

After the argument they went to there aunt's house.

Sarah stayed there for five days because she was feeling as if she's a burden to her aunt. She always used to visit her but she never felt this way.

Sarah came back at her own house as always no one was excited to see her back again instead they asked why she came this early the house felt nice without you. Sarah was not at all surprised because she expected this. Sarah was already tired and bothered about something. The reason was the one she trusted and loved the most, who was most precious to her. Yes her aunt, her aunt behaved differently with her. Sarah knew that her mom and aunt's relation is not good. But she believed her aunt love her purely and will never drag her into the mess. But this time she behaved as if she hated her and showing all fake care and affection for formality. Sarah's heart broke into millions of pieces. Her aunt was her only treasure she had and she lost her too.

Sarah was just a sixteen year old young girl. She never intended to hurt anyone. She was as innocent as a little child. But she saw too much at such a young age. The thing she hated most was when everyone pitied her. She wanted to be strong but those pity eyes always shove her efforts. She had many friends, they were all nice to her but no one was worthy enough to share her pain and sorrow. She was afraid and embarassed to share anything with anyone. How could she tell that her mom is having an affair with another man, that her brother hate her, that she want to help her father but she's afraid of him, that her most beloved aunt broke her heart, that she's insecure that her every friend will leave her alone, that she's so coward that she thinks to suicide hundreds of time.

Each day was breaking her and she was losing hope in everything.

She again thought hundredth of time to suicide. She was determined this hundredth time. She took her little sister and went up to terrace. She got up on the railing with her sister.

" Are we going to fly like a super man?" Asked the little one with a innocent smile.

"Yes" was the only word she said.

Just at the moment when they were about to jump her little sister held her hand tightly and said "Don't let go of my hand Sarah, I'm afraid".

That's when reality hit her she forgot she had another treasure to take care of. And how cruel she was being to her little sister, how could she ruin this innocent being's life that has yet to start. She can't drag her into her own problems.

Everything started getting clearer and everything started getting meaning. She got clearer vision of what is ahead and what she was doing wrong.

She thought if I can talk to Dad when the right time comes, If I can talk to aunt and sort out our problems, If I can try once more to get along with my brother, If I start sharing my problems with my friends and try to get close to them, If I try once more to start a new life.

And yeah did started and I guess it turned out well.

The conclusion is if she hadn't thought hundredth time to suicide. It's not about try once more it's about getting yourself together and try again with full energy and with full hope. When you get tired of the things happening around you your hope also get shattered. Things always take time to happen you can't force anything neither on yourself nor on others. Things we come to you as they should be, thinking about them as if your life depends on them will be no good. You must have thought about the life, of the moment you're living now but you can't focus on it because you're drained in the thought of what to do next and what you will do in future instead of living the moment. If you're unhappy about something you should think about 'lets try to be happy' 'lets try to get everything together' and that will surely work out for you.

So just try a little harder and you will surely get what you want. Think about trying to make yourself happy and better. If you'll start overthinking you'll regret it your whole life but that wouldn't do anything then. So make yourself stronger so that you can put stronger efforts and can try hard everyday.