don't blame your self

By rethinking the words of doctor yo, made me realize that I was wrong in making a very fatal decision, but I remain firmly in my opinion regarding this.

The initial incident occurred a month ago after I finished my research. After my research, I accompanied my friend fini to interview the doctor, and without me asking further questions, the taxi that drove through the intersection of red lights started turning towards the big hospital in my city, this was the first time I went to the hospital because I had been traumatized by things or things related to the hospital, but fini did not know my trauma. After the taxi actually stopped at the entrance I just sat still and sweated coldly in the back seat of the car, the fini who had come out and paid for the taxi reprimanded me for getting out immediately. I wanted to move but my legs were still frozen motionless, seeing my condition finally pulled my hand, and instantly I could move. There was no suspicion from the fini because after I got out of the taxi there was someone who called fini and immediately approached.

Hello fin, you're here.

 Yes, doc, I'm the same as my friend, introduce him sunny, this is doctor yo he's the doctor I want to interview Sunny.

I was really surprised by this first meeting because the doctor I met was the one I wanted to avoid the most in the world. After a quick glance, I immediately ran away from the doctor yo, but fini who held my hand can hold myself who want to escape.

Hey sunny, why are you leaving.

Without looking at doctor yo, I still close my eyes while removing this fini hand.

Sunny why is it in such a hurry?

After all this time, now that we've met, how are you now?

The doctor knows sunny.

Yes know fin, he is my friend and once did research together.

Oh, so it's easier communicate if this is sunny. Sunny open your eyes, you're friends with doctor yo, don't be ashamed so we'll go back to the office longer if you keep quiet.

I immediately dragged sunny a little away from doctor yo. Fin, I have to go now, you can do this session alone yes, I haven't been able to see doctor yo, and I also have trauma with the hospital so I can't stay here long yes, ok I go first.

 That's how sun is, I don't want you to go.

While running away I waved a little to the fini and exited the direction of the bus station across the road. With a heavy breath I immediately got on the bus, and sat in the back seat with a straightforward view, with my mind very confused, I do not know how to meet with fini tomorrow, surely doctor yo will tell my story that used to be, everything is my fault, but I have not apologized to doctor yo in the past, surely he was also upset with me. Huh, I have to live tomorrow with my face down.

Suddenly the bus had arrived at the address around my house, with weak footsteps, I went into my room which was already dark by night. After washing my hands, I heard the phone ringing from the bag I was carrying, and it's true that the one who called me instead of fini but doctor yo, nervously I picked up the phone with the loudspeaker I heard doctor yo speak Sunny, why did you run away earlier, I didn't tell you your story at all, and the interview continued without you, never regretted what you did yesterday, you know this is all work, you still have the right to make your own opinion.

With no sound, I just tapped the phone screen twice that signaled ok, completely without the angry tone of the doctor yo who just called. I myself was at a loss to determine the attitude To solve this misunderstanding, I know with this stubborn nature of mine, it could be as if someone was hurt by my attitude. With no sound, I just drink a sip of water and sleep in mixed minds.

In the morning at 08.00 am, I've arrived at the office in black clothes as if I want to avoid fini, but I don't think anything will happen today, because yesterday was a mistake that I've avoided, then everything will be fine now, without thinking about what happened last night, and the question mark now is whether I drink americano or mocha latte, with fini approaching quickly and whispering quietly.

 What are you hiding from me sunny?

When did you get there?

That's not the answer to what happened yesterday, sunny, sooner or later I'll know what you're trying to keep secret with doctor yo.

 Is it true that doctor yo didn't tell me?

Looks so sunny.

You better get some details to tell me from today who we're going to meet next, okay fini.

You alone just shut up without asking yesterday, so I'm silent too.

Obviously fin, doctor yo just co-workers, ok.

Okay, I'll just order a mocha. As soon as I finished picking up the coffee cup, I and fini approached the elevator door and the door was open with the manager to be appointed next week, as well as my rival John. Without the warm atmosphere, I entered the slow-moving elevator up to the 31st floor, just the glass of the elevator I topped with coffee, and john smiled proudly wanting to brag about going up rank. After the elevator door opened john told fini to get off and held me back to stay upstairs, without hesitation I followed him afterward upstairs.

You're just going to lose that sunny, thank you for staying stubborn and it's a blessing to me because you know I'm going to be your boss in a week, you should have listened to doctor yo's statement, but you still rejected his advice and you did a fatal thing for our news media, it's awe of me for you sunny.

Let's just say, John, because I could threaten your position, because even though I knew doctor Yo's advice for health research yesterday I deleted it and therefore the news that prints so much because in fact, my research remains unique by itself without anyone reporting it, are you upset with the fact that John?

Still, you're not proud of the mistake, even though yesterday's newspaper printing was so crowded with the title of your research, there are still many who comment negatively because you don't associate at all with doctor yo information. You should be more careful.

John, I have to say what it is, isn't that the slogan of our company, although the theme I researched with doctor yo related to hospital management, the fact that I did the fact explaining the mistakes that the hospital did, I know doctor yo until sanctioned because of my actions, but I do not regret it until now, you know what statement doctor yo that I did not list?

You better stop your ravings now sunny.

You'd better keep listening to my ravings, john's future manager, doctor yo said that he wants to end his service to the hospital because he's not fit to work there, is it wrong if I edit it into workers even some want to stop.

Why don't you complete your statement, I know that the next sentence is not a negative thing.

John, the other sentence is that even though I want to move, I have to work here to dedicate my knowledge, and please put my real life in your research. Am I wrong to edit his statement? Never be clear, John, I'm going to file a protest about your appointment because you know, my news has contributed a lot to this month's news sales figures.

Sunny, you shouldn't think your words are so true, you're so stubborn and overzealous about something.

Never before have john, I'm going to get off and never take the same elevator as me until you completely reject the manager's offer.