Anxiety is real

Palms sweating, heart racing, thoughts boggling and basically unengaging. Being in a place but not exactly living in the moment. Staring out the window drifted off to a place unknown not only to the ones around you but also to oneself. Wishing to be outside with a desire burning inside, envying the birds, you want to learn how to fly, you know that its time that you spread your wings and fly towards freedom. You feel like you are imprisoned and nobody can save you, not one soul not even yourself. Drowning in your own thoughts and knowing deep down that the only thing that can cure your anxiety and your unexplained and uninvited feelings of despair, solitude, sadness, emptiness and loss of touch with the world is so simple yet so hard to obtain in this never ending, never sleeping and busy world.... That one thing is non other than solitude. Being alone has this power that very few acknowledge yet alone know of, you get to deal with your emotions one on one and get your thoughts aligned and in check so they say but there is something they didnt tell us, we who suffer from this thing called anxiety....As soon as you get back in the world filled with human beings and basically the noise of the world despite having your peace and quiet, your solitude, all the feelings related to anxiety silently but quickly creep back in and just the thought of being anxious makes one more anxious. Be it public speaking, being in crowds, group discussions, walking alone in a place filled with people, fear of the unknown , fear of making mistakes and basically everything that is contrary to being alone, locked up in your room, your safe haven with no form of human contact and enjoying ones company. So they say, anxiety is all in the mind and if you dont deal with it first hand it could possibly kill you. Well there is some truth to that statement but in all honesty, anxiety is real. Feeling the need to please everyone and being totally confident to text and play a role you basically are not but as soon as your phones rings anxiety rushes in and you get a panic attack because you are afraid to be yourself, is my voice sounding perfect or my accent, will i say the right things... You ask yourself so many questions that by the time you gather the courage to pick up the call the person has hung up or it rang so many times that the call disconnected. Anxiety, the very dreadful anxiety, why does it attack with so much force making the few that it attacks look sad, lonely, desperate to die and insecure? Anxiety causes you to lack confidence, peace, stability, freedom and basically you are unable to have a sound mind. Having anxiety is draining and is like a fulltime job leaving you exhausted and hopeless but only one thing differentiates the two, with a full time job your reward at the end of a long day is rest but with anxiety you cant sleep. Anxiety keeps you up at night, replaying your day in your mind like a movie on repeat paying special attention to your mistakes and mishaps wishing they never occured. Anxiety makes you dwell on the past and have no hope for the future, you never live in the moment and dread living, you hate life, you have nothing to look forward to and you basically have a short memory because you would rather not pay attention to what is going on in the moment, in fact it is not your choice, the anxiety chooses for you, it makes you live in the past or future and never allows you to soak in what is happening in the present, in the now, it never does and it never will. Anxiety should not be ignored, anxiety should be dealt with. Anxiety is real.