Stronger By The Day

Day 1: I have never believed in love. The concept is just hard to grasp. Having someone be “yours” and in the end, you will always get hurt. Even in all the so-called good romance movies someone always gets hurt even if they end up together. It will never work out. It’s simply just a word.

Day 2: I walk around the halls and see all the couples of which are so-called in love but I don’t believe that. Where in high school. The brain isn’t even done developing so how do we even know our preferences. I walked into class to see a new boy. He is handsome. 

Day 3: After seeing this new boy the next day I see him again. His name is Hugo. This would be the first time I’m talking to him. He seems nice and very mature. 

Day 4: I have found out that he is almost all of my classes meaning we have similar interests. “If you ever need any help, I’m always around,” I tell him. He says in a very mature way “thank you”. I never knew a simple thank you could sound so great. 

Day 5: He seems to be fitting in quite nicely. He has asked me for help a few times and we are now talking every day since we met.  I think we’re becoming friends but I wouldn’t want to get my hopes up.

Day 10: It has been almost a week. He has been sitting with me and my friends at lunch since he has no other friends if we are that. My friends keep picking on me about him even though I don’t like him like that and I don’t think I ever will. I’ve only dated one person and that didn’t go so well. I’ve talked to a few different guys but every time we got close to dating they would always ghost me or something. 

Day 12: Every day we get closer and closer. This is why I like meeting new people. There’s always something new to find out about them. Most aren’t predictable and it’s very nice. Things usually just go downhill once you really know them, that or you connect with them there’s no in-between. 

Day 20: We have known each other for 20 days now and he asked for my “snap”. Even though I don’t use Snap Chat very often I still give it to him. 

Day 25: He texts me every morning and night. At first, it was kind of annoying. How could anyone ever care about this like me? He has also been asking me how my day was or at least how it was going. It’s really nice to know that someone cares. 

Day 31: I get his number.

Day 33: He calls me. I smile wide and answer. 

Day 40: We have talked every night since I got his number. I love how he’s consistent. He remembers to always text me and call me. We have a lot in common. It’s nice to talk to someone like me.

Day 46: He is so sweet. I kept telling myself that I can’t catch feelings for him well, I think I’m catching feelings. I have no one to talk to about it and if I did they wouldn’t care anyway. What should I do?

Day 50: We are basically what we teens now call talking. Were not dating but were very involved so you could say. 

Day 53: He’s perfect. To perfect for me at least. I wish I was better. He deserves better yet he’s still around. He’s one of the sweetest and most mature boys my age I know. I hate to say it but at this point saying I don’t have feelings would be one of the biggest lies I’ve ever told.  

Day 59: We have known each other for almost two months now and have talked every day. It doesn’t seem like that long even though it feels like a lot longer. 

Day 65: I’m debating whether or not to tell him that I like him. I like what we have and wouldn’t want anything to get in the way of that. 

Day 66:  “I have something to tell you, I like, like, like you.” I tell him. I may have used too many likes but I think he gets the point. He is smiling. God, I love his smile. “I like you too.” 

Day 70: Now we know that w each like each other, we are still talking. Where are we going from here?

Day 74: We are hanging out as we often do and he askes me out on an actual date. I can’t wait. 

Day 76: This will be our first date. My older sister, Margret is helping me decide what to wear. She suggests that I should not try too hard to look nice but not look like I’m not trying. Its a little complicated but I decide that the best thing would be to take her advice. I am wearing a short, light blue dress with tan heels. I think its a bit much but it’s ok. “Wow, you look beautiful, not that you don’t always but wow,” he tells me with that wonderful smile of his. “Why thank you, kind sir.” I playfully say back as he laughs his incredible corky laugh. 

Two hours later he drops me off at home and hugs me. We say our goodbyes and he calls me the minute he gets home. He tells me how much fun he had and we should do it again. The next day...

Day 77: We stayed up till 1 am talking. We both loved the date and are going on another one next weekend. He’s amazing. We aren’t officially dating yet. He said we have to wait for multiple reasons. We already act like we are dating so I don’t get why we can’t just make it official but if it means being with him than I will wait. 

Day 84: We are going on our next date. He said he wouldn’t tell me because he wanted it to be a surprise. We go out to dinner and after he drives me to a forest. It’s such a cliche’ but I love nature so I don’t mind. We get out and he brings me to a circle of tall trees. He turns towards me and grabs my hands and pulls me close. “I want to be with you, I have wanted to since the day you offered me help. You’re so kind and nice. I love everything about you. I love you, Ophelia.”

Wow, he did not just say that. It seems too good it will never last. “I love you too but it’s too soon, I need to know that this is for real…” I tell him. “It is. I’m not going anywhere, trust me. Nothing is changing the way I feel about you and that’s a fact.” I believe him. I need to learn to trust. This could be good for me.

Day 85: Everything is great. I know that we became official just tomorrow but I know this is real. 

Day 90: Every day he has been walking me to all of my classes even the ones we don’t have together. We hold hands. He makes me feel safe. I haven’t felt this way in a long time. He knows how to treat me which is a trait you don’t find in most guys especially at our age. 

Day 92: we hang out after school. We go to our normal hang out spot. We are sitting and talking as we often do when I look away. He puts his arm around me and moves me closer. I turn my head back towards him. Our eyes meet. We grow closer together when I feel his lips on mine and no moment could ever feel better. 

Day 93: We grow closer by the day. Every second I spend by his side I am the happiest I have been in a while. Today before I left he kissed me goodbye and told me how much he would miss me then proceeded to text me right after. He’s the sweetest boy I’ve ever met. 

Day 95: We haven’t been together very long but he means the world to me. Every time I see his name on my phone screen my heart seems to skip a beat, or I see him calling I smile. Seeing him happy is the best thing in the world to me. When he smiles it lights me up. I always write him little notes because he enjoys reading them. It’s a little far fetched but he is the only one I want. He’s really the only boy I’ve ever wanted. 

Day 97: He wrote to me the best song. He’s an amazing singer and can play so many different instruments. He did all for me, no one has ever cared this deeply for me or gone through so much trouble just to make me happy. I’ve never felt this way before and I don’t want it to stop. 

Day 100: I now believe in love because I am in love. I never thought that someone could feel this way but now all the things I’ve said in the past are in the past. He’s my everything, my world. I am truly in love. I love him…