Bad day

The longest day is a day when you wake up and feel not okay.

Your body heavy and so is your eyes,

But most of all your heart is the heaviest, words can't describe.

Is it a pregnant elephant, or even a blue whale,

Sitting comfortably on your chest, making it hard to breathe.

The hot water got broken, on a cold winter morning,

The day just got longer than you could ever imagine.

Out the shower, into the cold cold room,

makes you think that maybe hell does not always spell doom,

cause at least it is warmer, you just assume.

You look in the closet, all black, and grey,

Those colors used to make you look so sexy, now they all look dead.

You pick the warmest, the nicest you could find,

only to see a tiny hole, oh how divine.

How can this day get any longer, you may ask,

The expensive perfume you love just had to end its own life,

Scattered on the, it jumped from your desk.

Now you smell overwhelmingly sweet,

Like a garden of roses, but inside you just feel like a small useless weed.

You slap your face twice, telling yourself to focus,

And yet you still had the audacity,

To spilling coffee on the paper just right after.

Arriving late because you had to clean up the mess,

could this day get any worst, you ask, and ask, and ask.

ask and you shall receive, well you thought, the jokes on me.

The presentation you made, got criticized, and berate,

Your superior give you more work even though you're underpaid,

Tick tock tick tock,

The clock keeps ticking.

And even with all the work that keeps you busy,

You can't help but feel that time is now frozen,

Cause the day just feels longer than it usually is,

Your motivation is low, you're dispirited and feeling shallow,

The work your doing is moving, but so very slow,

2 pm and its lunchtime,

but you don't even have the appetite to eat your favorite salad drizzled in lime.

The whole office looks at you with that gaze of pity, make you feel a silent rage

For you do not need their sympathy,

nor their words of encourage,

Because as a rational adult, you know it was your fault,

Them feeling sorry for you, just feels like rubbing your already bleeding wound with a lot of salt,

And even now, you can't help but feel bitter,

Maybe some coffee could make your mood better,

You go to the pantry, with hope glimmering in your eyes,

Hoping it was quiet cause everyone is supposed to be outside,

And even now, the odds are not in your favor,

Standing there is the coworker you just want to devour,

But you're not a coward, your mama did not raise you that way,

So you march head-on, with a smile on your exhausted dull face,

Hello, was all you said hoping that he won't try to get all friendly

But again, still no luck, he moves his body closer and tried to be flirty

His breath smells like a cigarette,

Making your nostrils anxious, unable to rest,

The more you move further away, the more he tries to lessen the gap,

his actions almost made you on the verge to snap,

Not that you would want that but you just can't help getting annoyed,

He says words like hey beautiful, things would get better,

But it's been 5 years and the lights just keep getting dimmer,

Truth is, you used to like him, he's a good looking guy,

You thought he liked you, turns out he's just like to flirt with everyone that has eyes.

You swallow the bitter truth and also your coffee and back to your desk,

And continue the work that seems does not even have slight progress.

Suddenly a notification pop up on your computer, its time for an update,

Oh lord, oh how great.

6.00 the time to go home,

You slowly walk back to your car, as if you're just a body without a soul,

Only to see a car, double-parked in front of yours,

without a note or the owner insight,

Now all you can do is to wait while trying to maintain your sanity with all your might,

You sat there in the driver's seat,

The radio started playing, the first song that it plays

is a song about how miserable life is, well god just has a lot to say.

Should you cry was all you could think,

Your mind says no but your heart says yes, a tear rolled down your cheek.

You hit your head on the steering wheel,

And just sat there feeling sorrow,

About your whole existence, and your sight starts to become narrow.

Finally, you hear a knock on the door,

You see it's the coworker that you so “adore”.

A moment ago you just wanted to burst,

But crying just turned all wrath you felt, into pure sadness.

You rolled down the window, just a slight,

You hear him say sorry,

And all you said was it's alright.

You left the building, feeling upset,

Where is the moon you unconsciously said.

Not that you care, but it would have felt nice,

To even get a glimpse of the pretty moon,

On a very shitty night.

You drive carefully, accompanied by the heavy snow,

Everything feels like it moving is in a slow-mo

Finally, you're back home,

You got out of the car and you just had to kick a freaking stone.

Now your foot hurts,

Hopping with one foot, you reach the front of your house,

Finding the keys in your bag felt like an eternity,

Your bag suddenly felt like it was just an endless pit of infinity.

The door swings open, and inside you go,

You close the door behind you, and now you're on your knees, 

How can a day be so atrocious, with not even a spark of happiness?

Finding the strength to stand up, you walk at a slow pace,

Heading to your room, you got a glimpse of your face.

The red eyes, from all the crying,

You just feel like dying.

You lay in bed, tears still rolling,

The phone starts ringing, someone’s calling,

You're not in the mood to pick up the phone,

But the caller just keeps ringing on and on and on,

Picking up the phone you see who’s the caller,

Taking a deep breath, you click the green button,

With the course voice, you manage to let out a hello mother,

Saying those words, makes you cry even harder,

You let out, all that you felt,

How today was the worst day you've ever dealt,

After talking to your mom for about an hour,

Your mood just became a little less sour,

Sweet words that only a mother could say,

Makes all the bad things that happen just went away.

Today is a bad day, then it's a bad day,

Just remember now tomorrow you're stronger than you were today,

Cause you went through a hellish ordeal

When another bad day comes, it would be so much easier for you to deal

But if you ever feel, that's it's too much, please come home,

I’m always here for you, with open arms.