"Three words plus one"

Looking at the mirror, you saw the better and a happier version of you. You thanked yourself for living your life to the fullest. And also by being able to expressed all the things that your heart wanted to say. You are so proud in yourself because after 5 years. And all the pain that you've been through by saying the 3 words to someone that you really cared for, even if it does not reciprocated anymore like before. Even if you knew, his feelings for you is already faded, you still say that 3 words which is, "I Love You" because you knew you will regret it in the future if you don't have the courage to say it. Because that time you are still hoping that 3 words can save your relationship, you thought that it can be fixed, but actually its not. But still you don't regret saying what you feel, you reminded yourself that it is okay, because the more important is you don't have any what ifs in the future. Again, you look yourself in the mirror and smiled because after all that chaos and being lost in your journey in your life. You surpassed it, and you are able to grow because of it. You have no what if's in life because of that. You have no words left unsaid, because you are a risk taker. Willing to take risk in everything you have said. And you admire yourself right now because you have grown in that roller coaster experience in life especially in love. After 5 years you are no longer a fragile, you are no longer a prisoner of your past. And of course you are no longer a lost woman, but you are now finally found. Not by someone, but your dreams. You finally reached your dreams which is, to be a known writer and a motivator. You used your pain, stuggles and the lessons that you have learned in life. Your past became your inspiration in everything you do and it seems that you finally harvesting what you planted. All your efforts and passion became fruitful. But, still at the end of the day, you still care for someone in your past. You still love him, like you did before. That is why you still reminisced all the memories that you have shared together. You open your cellular phone and you opened your gallery. Suddenly all the flashbacks came so fast. In just opening your gallery, you are able to go back to the old memories. It seems like your having a time machine. But even if you go back to the past you will not change anything what you did or what you have said in the past. Because it molds you, and you are not you are today because of the past. So as your eyes gazing to the old pictures. One picture captured your eyes. A picture of a 2 happy people wearing a red and white shirt, with sweetest smile that their lips formed. That one picture brought tons of memories. From the moment you have met each other, until having an unending happy conversations. You remembered how both of you shared all the things that happened in your life. The way how you laugh, the way you react in whatever that both of you said to each other. That pictures brought a bitter sweet memories, all the promises that both of you have made were all recalled. All those sugar coated words that he said to you. It is still stored in your mind and in your heart. And in reminiscing all those memories, you did not noticed that you already have a tear drop on your eyes. That tears is same as the tears you had before, everytime you remembered him. That is why you decided to stop gazing to that photo for a while and browsing for other pictures. Then you just saw a video, a compilations of a picture of you together with him. And that makes you reminisced more, but this time you rememember all the pains that brought by him. Because you made that compilations even if you were hurt before, you made it for him. Because that is your way to expressed your love for him. But it seems that he did not appreciate it, instead he just said I already saw it you may sleep. And it feels like it stabbing your heart repeatedly. And 5 years had pass but the pain is still there, because your love for that someone still remains. And from a tear drop, became a bucket of tears. So you wiped it with your own hands and looking back agian to the mirror. And you tried to smile again in front of it. Then you just decided to keep your phone on your drawer because the pain and the longing for someone is too much. Then after a couple of hours you lay on the bed and did not noticed that you already fell asleep. Then *ring, ring, your alarm clock is already waking you up. So you have decided to stopped the alarm clock and you finally woke up from your bed. And you open your window, it seems like you are beginning your day with a new hope. You seems happier and it just like you don't cry yesterday. Seems nothing happen at all, because you are the kind of a person who always find beauty in everything. That is why you are just smiling again, while looking upon the beautiful sky and after looking at it for a few minutes. You decided to have your breakfast. You make your own coffee and also you made a french toast, since you are not used to eat rice in the morning. Then to add mood in your day, you turn on your cellular phone and you play your favorite song of Ben& Ben, the song entitled "Lifetime". While enjoying to the favorite song. You sip a cup of coffee while sitting on the sofa and just relaxing. After having a breakfast, you just have started your day and your just daily routine like cleaning the house, writing, bonding with the family then taking a bath to freshen up. A couple of hours had pass and you find yourself fixing yourself and wearing a blue dress because you decided to unwind and enjoy yourself. So after a moment, you went to the church, then decided to went to the mall to bought groceries and some clothes, make ups. Then after that you took your phone and while browsing in the internet you saw a picture of a beautiful lake and you just have realized that it is not too far from the mall. So you grabbed the chance by going there. And after a couple of minutes, you went outside of your car, then you decided to just walk near to the lake. And while walking you blinked your eyes because you saw a familiar face. A face that you have been longing for so long. You slightly pinched yourself, to see of you are just dreaming, but you're not. Your inner self wanted to walk closer to him. But you just stopped from walking because he walked near to you, and without saying hi or hello, he hust hugged you. And it was a warm and a tight hug. A hug that you craved for so long. You are stucked and your eyes are widely open then when you realized that it is real, that he is finally with you. Then you hugged him back and after that you finally talked, awkwardness surrounded to the both of you. Because after 5 years you finally saw each other, and not just saw but once again both of you are coincidentally together because you are both in the same place where you were first met before. And it seems like both of you are recreating it all over again and before you parted ways, both of you uttered the 4 words, "I still love you". Before it was just 3 words and now one word was added to it. Also the sweetness added to it. And both of you was shocked because after 5 years the feelings were still the same. It is true that feelings won't fade even if you don't talk nor see each other. As long as you truly loved one another, it will last until lifetime. And you both took the chance again to say it to each other. You both took the risk, because both of you don't want to waste the time and opportunity and especially both of you don't want to regret anything especially if it is about love. Finally after 3 years, you are both looking in the mirror while saying "I love you everyday" then he looked at you. He said " You are the risk, that I am very much willing to take, I will keep choosing you every single day. I love you 3000 and beyond".