What happened to that place

There was a place that I remember but that place no longer remembers me.its been some time now that has passed by ,but yet I find myself thinking about that place. Will it ever forget me or have I chosen to not let go.is this place just now in my mind only to exist when my mind wonders? So I think to myself hoping no one hears my thoughts about the place. Wonder what people would think about me if they could hear my thoughts out loud. My thoughts linger on for most of the day as I gather my own thoughts once again. Then I stop to imagine what this place might look like now, would anyone be living there..soo many good memories and bad but mostly good,and maybe this place only now exist in me but no longer to be found to the public eye. Not sure how to feel about it.just wish I can erase my mind, and never look back.only left with nightmares about that place, in my nightmares I go back but it's different now,the place is completely dark and every room is fill with darkness.theres empty rooms where there once was live and color.i wake up and shudder.As I continue on with my life, it just seems to get harder not any easier.everyday I keep thinking about that place and whatever happened to it,did it just all go away? How can something be there by one minute and gone the next.i swear life can be Soo unfair at times. Why most we suffer such fate within ourselves,why is it so hard to just let go! My mind just keeps on racing and my heartbeat seems to beat faster.is this place taking over my thoughts soon to invade my body?! Why can't I just stop living in the past,I mean this place is the past but somehow it keeps creeping up on me like it's Here now and never left.we say leave the past behind you but this past is literally chasing me down and I can't seem to help myself but go back into it.i mean this place shouldn't even exist but yet it still does, well in my head that is.several days pass and I decide to go to bed early.as I'm falling into a deep sleep I catch myself back in the very same place I've been to too many times before.that place again.its Soo dark,where are the dam light switch?!? I tried to turn the lights on but they won't come on.it feels like the further I go into this place the darker it gets.the only light I see is the ominous outside light from the dusty window and sliding glass door.thats barely enough light to see my way into this place.what happened to this place?? Wasn't it just daylight before I entered the place?? Seems like once I was inside the darkness enguff me.shadows cast all over this place.i slowly creeped my way up the stairs.its crazy I once remember this place to have many people over, food Cooking over the electric stove and laughter and music would fill the air. Now nothing but eerie silence...I inch my way up the stairs slowly and I'm not sure how I don't trip and fall down since it's so hard to see but I still remember every step I took many years before and I guess that's what helped me reach the top of the steps.that room, should I enter it, would it still feel safe like it once did.a place I can go to get away from it all.sadly it did not feel safe anymore. It felt heavy,the air was dense and it was hard to breathe in there.why cant i barley see out the window, could have sworn I saw movement coming from outside.maybe it was just my mind playing tricks on me.lol. I leave this room and make my way towards the next room but first I must go through the hallway, thankfully it's not a long hallway.so I quickly make it to one of the larger rooms and I make my way to the walk-in closet.i hear something in there.i think I hear somebody in there whispering.i slowly open the closet door,but stop myself ,that whispering stopped and now I hear movement,I think it moving towards me so I turn around and run down the stairs as fast as I can but I feel this force pulling me back upstairs.i could be yelling right now but I'm so terrified I just want out this place!!! Somebody please slap me back to reality.take me far away from this scary place.this is not what I remember it to be.not like this.i couldn't stop running what seemed like I was running in place,yet I remained in this place.bonded to this dreadful place enguffed in pure darkness with something evil and menacing lurking upstairs wanting out and calling out to me.not sure what it sounded like.not quite human that's for sure.i keep looking around this place , so much sadness and heaviness.i Just want to leave this place but it won't let me go.i start screaming for help, screaming my lungs out but there's no sound coming out my mouth. I'm screaming for anybody. Why me, why has this place glued me down and I can't hardly move,not even baby steps.what does this place want from me, and I'm trying so hard to get away from this thing tht was hiding out in the closet.what the hell was it!?! Why can't I wake up from this nightmare.So I just start to Imagine that I'm not there at all and soon I'll be surrounded by light and this place was never there. Perhaps I can make my thoughts louder than this place and pretend it's not there that I'm just overreacting. But what if..no I will not let my negative thoughts get the best of me.soon I will wake up and this nightmare will pass.but has it.no it's inside of me and eventually I will have to face it and that place well that place as long as I can help it that place doesn't exist anymore , question is have I woken up or I'm I still dreaming?