Lost to the world

Lost to the World

Prologue

Lost to the world is a post nuclear blast monologue told by one girl, Trudy and her point of view.

It could be triggering in many ways but is meant in a lighthearted, thought provoking way, of a world we currently live in and the aftermath that could be. 

20/06/2119. 11.11am Flash! The End. 

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Hello, is anyone there? Oh I think I see you, though you can no longer see me. Well I mean technically you can still see me floating around and about, maybe on your shoulder or the floor, but there is still a lot of what was me falling from above you. 

I was 23 year old Trudy Moth, until a few seconds ago,

“sorry sir I didn’t mean to hit the back of your throat, choke you, or make you sneeze like that. I guess you’re allergic to me. Well allergic to dust anyway.”  

My particles are so small now they get in the strangest of places. So much so they’re gonna be cleaning me up for weeks or months to come. 

Well they will if anyone’s actually survived out there? Of course I could be talking to no one right now, if I was actually talking I mean. 

It’s more likely I’m just someone else’s memory, that is if anyone I actually knew is a survivor. Though I don’t envy the hell they, or you, will have to live through if you are a survivor. All that radiation left behind won’t be good for you I’m sure.

Unfortunately or is it fortunately? for me 

I’m not a survivor, my story is already over. Making me one of the lucky ones who doesn’t have to suffer the post nuclear world, like all the rest of you survivors out there. 

I’m currently that bit of dust on your shoes, then again that speck there could be Bea, she was my best friend and was sitting next to me on the bus, with the other 30 people, actually 31 including the bus driver. Making 33 of us in total floating around you right now landing here and there. 

Apologies if that thought freaks you out! but it would have been 35 if that couple hadn’t just got off at the stop before. 

So anyway, that particular pile of dust that just hit your shoes, could actually be anyone, or a combination of any amount of 33 different people. An Amazing fact if you actually think about that! 

However, neither you or I will ever know who is sitting on your shoes, head or shoulders right now. I mean I’m all over the place myself and there’s absolutely no way I can pull myself together this time!

 Well kinda anyway as the blast didn’t really take me anywhere. It just scattered me around with lots of other people all in less than a second, well maybe it was even faster than that? I couldn’t really say after all I was hardly expecting it! 

I was oblivious to the whole thing, happily sitting on that bus chatting to Bea, two best friends living a regular life and boom… gone!

I mean no one was really expecting it, we’re they? regardless of all the warnings on the news and many threats that were given across the world, just like many other past incidents and end of the world threats. 

Absolutely no one believed deep down in their hearts, that any human being could actually truly, be that terrible, that they could or would stick with hitting that one button, that ends it all or leaves you in terrible suffering! We all expect some human decency and consideration, don’t we?

Even in those we see as evil. After all they were once an innocent baby, born into this world completely pure, but no! In the end, as it was for me and many others, only one person got a say in all this. 

The one who actually DID press that button.

No one else got a say, instead like me they were literally, here one second and gone the next!

I was off to meet my boyfriend Ryan, from the train station. 

He was, or still is a soldier, who was on leave from all the fighting that had already been going on across the world. 

I was so excited! I couldn’t wait to see him, the next thing I knew! well that was when I said 

“hello is any, OI! do you mind? The pile of dust you were about to step in was probably the pregnant lady, who was sat in front of me on the bus, have some respect will ya”

Now where was I? oh yeah one second I was here the next I was saying

“hello is anyone there?” I didn’t even get to have a last kiss with Ryan, and I really was looking forward to being in his arms again, couldn’t wait! But alas! it didn’t happen.

Instead, I’m stuck here explaining how precious and short life actually is to you all, and most of you aren’t even listening. You’re all too wrapped up in yourselves and your own lives as usual, aren’t you?

Now, I know we live in the real world (or at least I did till 11.11am this morning ), and if someone’s dead, they can’t speak to you can they? because well, they’re gone aren’t they? They don’t have a voice anymore, because ‘they’ are no more.

Yes, I also know in reality I can’t possibly be telling you that either, because as I already said, I am no longer me. In fact I am just no longer! I was also a complete stranger to you, so you probably have better things to do or go and listen to? 

If so, off you go! I wish you all luck for your future. In the now wasteland, that’s the current world you’re left behind in. I honestly don’t envy you in the slightest, but seriously, good luck anyway, you’re definitely gonna need it.

yes, I know I can’t actually, possibly, be here wishing that for you all because I’m gone! 

But even gone, there is something I can tell you about. If you’re interested to know? Find yourself something to sit down on and make yourself comfortable, if you possibly can? Then I’ll tell you about me from the beginning, rather than the end.

You! can then decide where the rest of my life would have gone? If I hadn’t been blown away in that split second like I was. 

So here just for you is the life I had. 

Enjoy! Peace out, It’s been a blast!

The Beginning…..