what have i done?

Anyone could hear the screams throughout the halls. I could feel them vibrating me along with them. These screams were screams of pure and tortured agony. Its as if the soul who screams these screams was to be taken way. Way from the world away from the people who cared about her. So, I answered her silent unending pray. It takes a lot of skill to pull someone away from the world with gentle ease. I did it again I use the gift god punished me with. I am fallen for a reason.

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“we’re losing her” he couldn’t believe it. His wife was dying during birth. Dying during the one thing she had wanted. All she wanted was a baby, and she was going to die for her wish. No, she was going to leave him. His soul was breaking for her screams. His heart was cracked open for her. She kept screaming each time she screamed it was a hammer to his heart. All because of a baby. He never thought he would feel rage for his child. His own blood was killing her. But deep down I inside he knew it was his fault.

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 All she wanted to do was die. She couldn’t think about anything but screaming. that’s all her body agreed to do. Her screams were layers of her soul falling off. She knew she was dying. Should she have cared probably. But it felt peaceful. Until the next wave of agony rolled over her. The tremor was too much to take. She screamed her last scream because no one would understand this agony.

“I love you, and I love this baby” she was almost positive that no had heard her last words as she left. The planet she called home. She left all she knew behind. She was free of her body. And joined the wind.

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I toke another life. I am a monster. I ended her life. I raised her out of her old body and put in the wind. I can feel her husband’s wrath and rage for the child. I can feel his pain its earth breaking. I can see his future. This kid will never meet her real dad. This kid will only know pain. This kid is the reason why his wife died, or that is the reason he will chose to believe. This kid isn’t going to make it past four. she will be beaten to death by her dad, for knocking over a picture of her mom. This is my doing. My fault this is why I was banished to this earth by god himself. I try to fix these things that aren’t broken. I can’t just leave the child to her death.

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His child was the reason she died. It’s this mass balls fault. This lump of cells toke everything from him. He had never felt this strongly about something, anything. He was going to kill it. He was going to do it.

“excuse me doctor, I would like to see my child please”

“sure”

He walked over to the murders pin. The life destroyer. He was going to strangle it. until he look into her eyes. They were his wife’s eyes. She was apart of this monster. This was the last thing she left him. The thing he was going to destroy it.

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I snuck into the LDR, and then I saw her. This child who mother was taken from her. This child who could feel the mother bond was already broken. She knew it too. I can’t believe I destroyed this family. I ripped them all apart. I stole the glue to keep them together. I swept the child up into my arms and walked out the door. Down one hallway and then another, and then another. I can feel her grief. She is so tiny, but her feelings are the size of the universe. Her sorrow swallows me. I did this to this child. I am a monster. Even god knew that. Even this child knows. As soon as we get to the parking lot. The alarms are going off. I can feel the amber alert in my pocket.my phone suddenly weighs three tons. The guilt settles over me, so quickly it hurts.

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His daughter was gone when he came back. The earth had already shattered under him, but this made the big bang look small. It was all because he had wished the baby dead, and now she was gone. His darling daughter. His baby girl. Everything he loved was gone. They had all left him. He walked over the elevator, and road all the way up. Opened the roof entrance. He walked until there was no room to the edge. Once he fell, he would fly. Fly far into the abyss. Fly into nothing. He would be free of everything maybe he was seeing her again see his wife, and with that thought he plummet into the concrete in front of the hospital. He had made his statement to the world. He fell for his wife. He fell for his daughter. He fell for the loss that strangled him.

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I cling to her tighter, as I feel his heart stop as I do ten more. Because I feel everything around the world. It gets sickening to feel everything that is being felt around the earth its almost as if she can feel it to. No, she does feel the sudden urge of loss that surrounds her. Both her parent’s dead. This child should have had the life that she was mean to have. He could see her future. If she came to live with him, she would resent him. She would hate him, but if he left her at the orphanage, she would never remember me. Is that better than watching her grow up? If I hadn’t touched her mom’s life it would never have Had to come to this. She would have grown up to love and compassion. But both ways she will never have any of it. She will always be looking for love in the wrong places. The day is almost over. Her first day of life. No should have to deal with this growing up. What did I do? I decided to keep her because maybe I can give her the world, that I already took from her. Maybe I can change fate or destiny because those are just words. But then maybe this is just a life out almost 8 billion.