The Last Workshop
The coffee had gone cold an hour ago, but Margaret still clutched the ceramic mug like a lifeline. Around the worn oak table, seven other writers sat in varying degrees of discomfort, their manuscripts scattered before them like evidence of crimes they weren't sure they'd committed.
"So," said Professor Henley, his reading glasses perched precariously on his nose, "who wants to share first?"
The silence stretched like taffy. Autumn leaves performed their annual death dance outside the community center's windows, and Margaret envied their graceful surrender. At least they knew their purpose.
Finally, David cleared his throat. He was the youngest in their group, twenty-three, armed with the confidence that only came from never being truly rejected. "I'll go."
Margaret watched as he shuffled through his pages, each sheet crisp and perfectly formatted. Her manuscript looked like it had survived a small war, margins filled with scratched-out words and coffee stains that told the story of too many sleepless nights.
"It's called 'Neon Dreams,'" David announced. "It's about a detective in 2087 who has to solve murders in virtual reality."
Margaret caught Elena's eye across the table. Elena, sixty-four and writing her fourth unpublished novel, rolled her eyes with the subtlety of a theater critic. They'd all heard variations of David's story before—the young writer's debut was always either a genre-bending thriller or a semi-autobiographical coming-of-age tale. David had apparently chosen both.
As David read, his voice gaining momentum with each paragraph of purple prose, Margaret's mind drifted to her pages. Twenty-seven years she'd been coming to workshops like this one. Twenty-seven years of "show, don't tell," "kill your darlings," and "find your voice." Her voice, apparently, was very good at hiding.
"The neon reflected off Detective Chrome's cybernetic eye like tears of electric blue sorrow," David read with the dramatic flair of someone who had just discovered metaphors a week or so ago.
Professor Henley nodded encouragingly. He'd been leading this workshop for fifteen years, and Margaret had watched his hair go from brown to gray to that particular shade of white that spoke of too many hopeful writers and not enough success stories.
When David finished, the group offered their feedback with the practiced politeness of people who'd learned that brutal honesty rarely survived translation. "Interesting world-building," someone murmured. "Great imagination," added another.
Margaret found herself speaking before she realized it. "Why does it matter?"
The table fell quiet. David blinked at her. "I'm sorry?"
"Your story. Why does it matter? What are you trying to say beyond 'wouldn't it be cool if detectives had robot eyes?'"
The workshop seemed to hold its breath. Professor Henley removed his glasses and cleaned them slowly—his sign that things would get interesting.
David's confidence flickered. "Well, it's about... I mean, there are themes of identity and—"
"No," Margaret said, surprising herself with her firmness. "There aren't. There are mentions of identity. There's a difference."
Elena was trying not to smile. Tom, the insurance adjuster who wrote weekend military thrillers, shifted uncomfortably. Still working on the same novel she'd started three workshops ago, Sarah stared at her hands.
"Margaret," Professor Henley said gently, "perhaps you'd like to share your thoughts on constructive feedback?"
But Margaret was done with constructive feedback. She was done with gentle encouragement for stories that said nothing, with workshops that had become echo chambers of polite applause. She looked around the table at these people she'd known for years—really known, through their characters, struggles, and small victories—and realized they were all afraid of the same thing.
"I've been coming to workshops for twenty-seven years," she said. "Twenty-seven years of learning craft, technique, and all the rules that supposedly make writing better. But you know what I've never learned? How to write something that matters."
The room was absolutely still now. Even the autumn wind outside seemed to have paused.
"My stories are perfectly constructed," Margaret continued. "Good dialogue, proper pacing, strong character arcs. And they're completely meaningless. They're literary vegetables—good for you, but nobody really wants them."
Professor Henley set down his glasses. "Margaret . . . "
"I'm sixty-one years old," she said. "I've written seventeen novels and probably two hundred short stories. Do you know how many people have read them? Really read them, not just workshop critique, read them?" She looked around the table. "Three: my sister, my ex-husband, and then there's my neighbor, who's too polite to say no when I ask."
David's mouth had fallen slightly open. Margaret noticed he'd been unconsciously protecting his manuscript with his arms, as if her words might contaminate it.
"But here's the thing," Margaret said, and now she was standing, though she didn't remember deciding to. "I've never written about what scares me. What really scares me. Not monsters or dystopian futures or serial killers. I've never written about being invisible. About pouring your heart into something for three decades and having the world respond with a resounding 'meh.'"
She picked up her manuscript—dog-eared, coffee-stained, real—and held it like evidence.
"This story I brought today? It's about a woman who's been coming to writing workshops for twenty-seven years. And it's the first true thing I've ever written."
The silence that followed was different now. It was not the polite waiting of workshop etiquette, but the silence of recognition, of people seeing themselves reflected in uncomfortable clarity.
Elena spoke first, her voice barely above a whisper. "My four novels? They're all the same book. Different characters, different settings, same story. Woman overcomes adversity, finds love, and learns to believe in herself. I've been writing the same fairy tale for fifteen years because I'm too scared to write about my real life."
Tom nodded slowly. "I keep writing about war heroes because I was supposed to be one. Because I spent two years in the National Guard and never deployed, I feel like a fraud whenever someone thanks me for my service."
One by one, they began to confess. Sarah admitted her novel had been the same three chapters for five years because finishing it would mean facing whether it was any good. Professor Henley quietly revealed that he'd stopped writing entirely after his third rejection and had been living vicariously through his students ever since.
David sat silently through it all, his manuscript looking suddenly fragile.
"So what do we do?" Elena asked finally.
Margaret looked around the table at these writers, not successful writers, not published writers, but real writers who'd been showing up for years despite the silence that greeted their work. Writers who kept writing because something inside them demanded it, even when the world seemed indifferent.
"We write the truth," she said. "We stop writing what we think we should write and start writing what we're afraid to. We stop trying to impress people who aren't reading anyway."
She sat back down, suddenly exhausted but strangely lighter. "And maybe we should stop calling these workshops. Maybe we start calling them what they really are—group therapy for people addicted to rejection."
The laughter that followed was small but genuine, the kind that comes from shared recognition of an uncomfortable truth.
Professor Henley put his glasses back on and smiled, really smiled, for the first time Margaret could remember. "Well then," he said. "Who wants to share something that scares them?"
This time, the silence was full of possibility.
Outside, the autumn leaves continued dancing, and Margaret realized she finally understood their grace. They weren't surrendering to death. They were making their falling beautiful, making their ending matter.
It was time to stop falling quietly.
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Excellent observations. A serious story with a quiet humour which many will identify with. Also, poses the deeper questions. Why do we write??? Good question!
A workshop that is group therapy for people afraid of rejection. Love Margaret’s character as she steps out of her “safe place.”
Well done .
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Thank you so much Helen. I appreciate your rich observations.
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Love this. Absolutely LOVE this.
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