HER

I saw her across the room and my heart beat out of my chest....I wanted to talk to her, I wanted to kiss her. She is my temptation, and I want her, but do not mistake this, I not only want her body I want her mind and I want her. Whatever separated us before will not separate us ever again. I loved her ever since I could remember. She took my breath away. I have known her since she was 2 years old. At first we were just best friends and then something happened. I started becoming more and more attracting to the woman she was becoming even at age 14. I hid my love from her as to not scare her away, I watched her date guys that did not love her as much as I did. I had not seen her in YEARS and there she was, sitting across the room in a beautiful red dress. I felt weak, and as hopeless as I did as a teenager around her. Gloria. I went to stand up to go say hello to her but it seemed my legs were stuck to the chair and my feet were cemented to the ground. I absolutely could not move. My fear held me down. All of a sudden I was able to move and right then I had a decision to go over and say hello to Gloria. My mind battled me the whole way over but somehow I made it in one piece over to her table. At this point my whole body has a sweat gland that is profusely sweating everywhere because I am the most nervous man anyone in that restaurant that night could see that. I finally approached the area Gloria was in and I saw a man walk up to her, my heart sank and I went to walk away, but somehow I stopped turned around and booked it over to Gloria. I listened as my voice talked, boldly and confidently I said,

" Gloria!! do you remember me?"

Gloria put her drink down and looked over at me she immediately stood up and smiled and told me to come over there and give her a great old hug.

" Its so nice to see you again Edward!!"

Gloria gushed. Her cheeks getting pinker and pinker by the minute

I leaned closer to Gloria I wanted to give into my temptation I wanted to kiss her, I was also very shy, still letting my fear hold me back. Several scenarios pop up in my head of Gloria just rejecting me and walking away forever. I stopped my thought process before it got to far into catastrophizing.

Gloria looked over at me and smiled and I melted, her beautiful smile calmed my anxious heart, I knew Gloria loved me as a friend but If I gave her my everything would she accept it and most importantly did she feel the same way?

My mind reeled as I sat next to Gloria who was chattering on about her life, no kids, not married --working on herself, reading a lot of books and is a published Author as well...she stated she was lonely in the abyss of words and I stopped my internal dialogue and reached out my hand so she could hold mine.

She grabbed my hand and my heart rate begin a very rapid rhythm.

My heart was stuck in my stomach and I looked up at Gloria with all the love I held for her since we were 12 years old.

Gloria started crying.

Through her tears she said

"Eddy, I love you--I always have and deep down, I always have known you loved me. I can not express how much I have wanted to tell you this but was trained to let the man lead first, I should have just shouted my love for you on the mountain tops."

I scooted closer to her and I hugged her, I looked into her eyes and I told her my affection I had for her

" I love you more than words can express, I wish I could have told you sooner as well but I let my fear control me, I do not like to be rejected, and I have never been good with relationships, I let my fears keep me from a wonderful, BEAUTIFUL relationship, with my best friend and now my girl!"

Gloria beamed, she looked so happy just like a dream of hers had finally come true..

" Eddy, I think meeting you here was a divine plan, I think we are made to be together, somehow all my prayers have been answered, I have been praying for years that we would one day hold infinite love for each other."

I looked into Gloria's eyes and I said

"I love you, and forever I will love you, I will never leave you."

Gloria gazed at me with all the love I know she has held for me since we were at least 6 and I fell in love with her all over again. I was so thankful I told my fear to get out of the way of my love and happiness. I could feel Gloria's heart opening up to me and she leaned over and kissed my cheek. I blushed but smiled and laughed and she put my face in her hands and pulled my head gently towards her lips and then I kissed her and she kissed me. I felt my world close in and fade away.

Temptations are usually viewed as bad habits to fall into but I had a legit temptation to rekindle an old hidden flame and start a new love life again..in this case I was craving her beauty a little yes, but I ultimately wanted her to be my wife.

I can say to this day in our 10 years of marriage I am glad I gave into this temptation.

The temptation that led to a life full of love and happiness.