Glenn is coming

Sarah is aware that giving her patients a habit of daily journaling can develop their coping skills as well as keep track of their mental state easier for her. Journals are read and organized for each patient individually. Brian was the last one whose sheets she needed to put in order for this week.

Daily diary sheet, October 23^rd

Psychiatric Center

Subject: Brian 

I decided to write until my head can still think somehow clearly. I sometimes wonder if this is the „real me”. Anyway, I have to hurry because I don't think I have much time before he comes again. I will start by saying that it wasn't my fault for what happened last Halloween. I don't remember any of it, I never do. I am not a criminal, and you HAVE TO trust me. Glenn took over even though I told him he couldn't, but everything was falling into place with his thoughts, his movements, his actions, not mine. I lost control, I was rather a voice in the back of his head having less free will than inside a lucid dream. I know about the way Glenn thinks, he is really smart, like REALLY smart, which is why it will take a lot of effort for you to find him. I never remember what Glenn does, but I know that he is excellent at hiding. Last year he lost himself, after he...did it, you know. I was suddenly there among all those people...blood everywhere...and I took us home, covered myself with a blanket and waited to wake up and realize it was all a dream. But it wasn't a dream... You know, he said that he would make it bigger this time, and you have to catch him. It takes a little to set Glenn over the edge, wrong look, wrong intonation, you have to act nicely around him, never deny him any food, and don't deny him activities he craves. You have to be careful and you have to catch him before he does it again.

PLEASE HURRY.

Daily diary sheet October 24^th

Psychiatric Center

Subject: Brian

Barbara

Is anyone of you wannabe doctors reading this now?? How about giving me a clean set of plates for my lunch here?? I said it many times: a lady like me will not take any more germs than I already have to in this pigsty of what you called a hospital!!! My towels were not put on my bed the way they are supposed to, I didn't get any sanitary tissues, and the smell of your rotten chicken that you call food makes me sick!!! Does someone like me look like she belongs here???

Get your f****** hospital in order!!

Daily diary sheet October 25^th

Psychiatric Center

Subject: Brian

I guess Barbara was here yesterday since all the things in my room are suddenly arranged by color. I also noticed the space around my bed is sparkling, and is that a lavender smell? Where did she even get it? What a diva! Anyway, as I have said many times before, I am here by accident, you got the wrong guy. I am a world-known composer and you are robbing me of my tour. My orchestra can't go on without me. I request to speak with my lawyer.

- Concertmaster, Louis Stayne

Daily diary sheet October 26^th

Psychiatric Center

Subject: Brian 

My dearest doctors,

„To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in suffering.”

Don't you think Nietzsche put it beautifully?

I think it's beautiful.

What do you think?

Daily diary sheet October 27^th

Psychiatric Center

Subject: Brian

It is never peaceful inside a teenage mind, but it is a great relief when there is no Glenn. However, I can hear him coming, developing slowly, just like last year around that time. I smoked a lot of cigarettes today. Thank you by the way, for letting me do that. It is hard for me to be with adults, as I guess it is hard for you to keep an eye on misbehaving Kevin, but it doesn't have to be like that, you know. Let me ask you something. Are there not any crazy girls around here in this town? I feel alone, no one to talk to here, by far the youngest. What is a boy with raging hormones supposed to do, huh? You put me in here for what, doing drugs, smoking too much, breaking into a few shops? Can i get a bit of a social life here? You know I like girls, you know Glenn isn't interested in girls, Louis is just interested in his concert master career and don't even get me started on Brian. Cmon, I need a life.

Daily diary sheet October 28^th

Psychiatric Center

Subject: Brian

My dearest doctors,

Are you excited about Halloween?

Daily diary sheet October 29^th

Psychiatric Center

Subject: Brian

For Christ' sake, Brian here! Is anyone reading these sheets?? I told you today during lunch that Glenn is coming and what do I get? More pills, that's what I got, more pills! I did make quite a scene today in the activity area, and it is because he is very strong, and he will do it again, just like last year. Glenn is coming and you HAVE TO STOP HIM.

Daily diary sheet October 30th

Psychiatric Center

Subject: Brian

Barbara

Why am I being held hostage in this disgusting room? Did Brian do something again? He did, didn't he? Always worrying about Glenn, when there are more important things to worry about. For example, why hasn't my room still been vacuumed??? And can you PLEASE for once just give me MY SHEET? Who told you Brian was in charge? He did, didn't he? Anyway, I will need more sanitary tissues soon. Glenn is about to go somewhere soon and last time he made my hands filthy.

Daily diary sheet October 31^st

Psychiatric Center

Subject: Brian 

My dearest doctors,

Thank you for thinking about the energy I will need for tonight and for letting Barbara return to her dorm, it really was necessary for us to get out of there. I enjoyed the food a lot, not quite what I was expecting, although I guess pizza can keep me up through my mission. Last year was wonderful, you know, no one noticed it, and it was so easy to sneak out of the window, to switch the recording on camera. How stupid are you? I hope that one day movies will be written about me. Did Brian try to warn you? Haha, I bet he did, and I bet you didn't listen! Poor little Brian, could never have controlled all of us. He is afraid of me, you know, they all are, Barbara, Kevin, Louis, just as they should be. Poor people last Halloween, they didn't see it coming. Did you know your hospital is walking distance from the place I killed them? And you didn't even suspect it! „Halloween massacre that made history by unknown killer on October 31^st has left 25 people dead”. Who would suspect poor little Brian? No one, of course. Brain has probably already told you it wasn't him, and he is not lying, you know, it was just his body, OUR body. Body remembers, they can all feel my crimes, sooner or later, but not anymore. I want you to know that Brian is not in charge anymore. You see, Brian is too weak, they all are. I let them take the stage just for the fun of it. Not anymore. I am thirsty now, for adrenaline, for blood. I am doing them a favor, don't you know? They have to find a meaning in suffering to truly live.

Glenn

Sarah tried to hold her hands still, but they were trembling and sweating. Her thoughts were interrupted by the mix of police and hospital sirens that could be heard in the distance.

At the same time, the doctor had just come back from the second floor:

„Brian is gone”.