Following the Rules, I didn't have a Choice

"I never knew that with the choices I have made or the choices I would make or even the choices I have yet to make, what those choices would have on the end results of anything that I thought of or that I spoke about."

"I was always cautious, I was always careful to be sure that what I was thinking of would never be heard about by anyone that happen to be closest to me, or near me." "The idea is to always be careful when crossing the street, or walking into a dark alley, that one was never caught with their pants down around their ankles."

"It is better to never have spoken or mentioned anything that could be used against you, but also that would cause you more problems if it fell into the wrong hands at any given moment."

"How else would that you have said be considered taboo?" "Or worse yet, be misunderstood, considered misinformation, or even taken the wrong way, even in the slightest of gestures?"

"Is it no longer ok to freely speak about anything that could be used in a complaint against you?" "When you step back, analyze the matter before proceeding forward, but doing so with broken glass care?"

"A word to the wise can either be accepted or rejected, depending on the material used in the committing of a felony, to be used as evidence, to be presented at the time of your trial, without the possibility of parole or probation."

"You are always innocent until proven guilty." "But even when you are proven innocent, or not clearly proven innocent and are neither proven guilty, which falls under the heading, "You are guilty, yet we cannot prove anything to the fact that you are actually guilty."

"The idea of one being guilty, yet without witnesses, without any evidence, without anything concrete that would state the facts behind your guilty, you are returned to place you were picked up without being found to be either innocent or guilty."

"When you say, "I didn't have a choice", is more along the lines of admission of guilt, yet leaves much to be desired and much to found to have actual basis of your guilt."

"You get more than you bargained for, less that you earned, never enough to receive an honest reward for your troubles, and yet you still feel ill in the pit of your stomach."

"You swallow hard and long, knowing that when you show the hand you are playing, you are revealing all your hidden gems that help you win more often than you actually felt you had won so many times over."

"When do the real questions, begin to be asked, and the real truth starts to ooze out from your pores and from within your inner soul, dampening your already damaged immortal being."

"You feel the seven signs of loss and then you carry the loss to the upper areas of wherever go to, to the place you regain sanity and release the negatives that you wish to change to positives instead."

You become angry, aggravated, and annoyed at the thought of never being taken seriously, yet not even looked at with respect." "You become your own worst enemy, no longer a friend to yourself nor a frenemy, looking at yourself as more of a degenerate and the lowest kind of person know to the human race."

"You are somewhat coherent, or at the very least awake and kicking." "You seek out the very things you despise, you look for flaws in others, when the ones you possess, are not less but more to others flaws."

"You point fingers at; you speak to others as though you own them and know what they are thinking at that individual moment, and you think or begin to believe you are perfect."

"You never find fault in your own actions, leave your thoughts half finished, while you spend more time necessary, and you try on new things to feel noticed and more important, which has a deafening effect on how you think and feel daily."

"You go down the wrong streets, heading in the wrong directions and arrive at the worse location that did not appear on any map, ever." "You want to defend your actions and apologize repeatedly, without second thought to what is considered as wrong to close to being wrong."

"As you find a way to justify your actions, right or wrong, you see that you were never going to be allowed to share and speak the truth." "You were only allowed certain material to use in your nightly watches, and you would never stop being a part of that as you were from before.

"You are not sure what rules to follow or observe, may be the one causing you the conflict and unnecessary anguish that you were trying so hard to avoid all this time you were offered in the beginning, which you turned down and then you were threatened but you know you will always have a way to escape and make it out, no matter what happens."

"It can become a sloppy mess of tangled wires, and all things don't so much add up to equal the amount of what was involved in the written down matters, then maybe it will become clearer."

"You think you are free, or are an owner of free speech, then reality sets in for the rest of your life."

"First you feel guilt, then you feel anger, then you feel doubt, then you feel pains and cramps that make you double over from your ordeal." "The same idea that got you started off, then later was ereased and removed from existence."

"You were lied to about the quick healing and quick about is actually in there, without being overly alert or actually able to know what you are thinking, and whether it will have any bearings on how you personally able to know which is which, between fact and fiction."

"Maybe the truth is so well hidden, that you can dig and dig for it, yet nothing is ever going to be found, without the right tools needed to complete the job period."

"You need only look in the mirror to see the true side and the very side you see, may not be the one you were hoping for."