My big heart of broken piece

look at the stars has she leaves for the last time. real wishing I could have superman superman power so I could fly and could just fly it it’s where I feel strongest. but in real life u got watch them walk away. it sickens me watching her walk free she said we are through there no saving us she was gone so I ask for one last kiss her responds every i was loke every she said i don’t know I don’t know the future gigg at what her new man said in my car has I take back the pets and she begin to fight and said u give o Jim has a gift I was loke you told u were working on your self that u need to figure u out which in Code Met someone else which is was what I expect along was true. and I couldn’t believe it like I give her so many chance just to be honest with me and she was at all the way throughout relationship just made me so mental exhausted I lost was She was the one person in my life I trusted but she didn’t give a fuck about me. Or what I was about just wanted to party an i wanted to get house build us for a family just wish I could talk to her about it I feel we were on the same page just think different I hate that year all the bullshit with u and I all the other bullshit I will be honest I was shut down I didn’t even wanna go to the bar with u cause u were gone has soon has we Got there she if I never told the looks I use to get the fake people walking up to me faking there talks to me somei could see the little h ha hah ha laugh in there eyes itjusy Made me wanna leave! I was so mental exhausted from your sis respect at the bar made me not come and thy went from hanging out with your friends they all just look with there fake simile and be nice for no reason. I knew u blast me to everyone.

still stareing at the star hoping for a shooting one to make a wish!

I wish I have listen give her space and not just next day! but Everytime we did.break up she would just go on dates ha I sit yhere think bout have much better I can what she talking about it’s just mental killed me lord look up at the stars I was so blind by trying to sent up this birthday thing and I went off got her everything she like for snacks wrote letters and a dumb ring because I didn’t thing she wa gonna stay any way everything was from each year we dated and she didnt care about did care thy I have a ring for her fro

frandma and shot it down I the wearing some old thing I can’t not believe u said that what has happen you. all this playing through my mind and I sit at her spot Where we use to get baked rewind of the whole thing. she never cared about your feels she would have seen a man so mental exhausted from being let down and told it’s his fault. I didn’t sleep with u in the bed for a month. Ecsuse I didn’t want to sleep beside someone who knew they were hurting me and still ask for everyrhing from me. ask me to her side I always did even when i know u were lieing it was easy to tell when u were losing just say straight face o emtions when I know or I get all dress up for me. u said you only do things when we break up and then it’s good for couple of month I know it doesn’t matter but I ask for a little things or big and I did listen to you wanna to hang out with family ya I came i was late because of practices or I would be there I neve Dutch a family thing because o was pass out or I didn’t feel good I honestly got tried. Of the excuses you used to give me when I get my face trimmed out for being five minutes later not answering my phone or something I figure if I didn’t get mad or freak u would do the same I mean I ditch with a band and your own mom even let your friends come with u but all u wanted was drugs and to go hit tubing I ever pull that dog house! and I was relax I hurt because this was the band we rock to at the wedding and had a set for a song for u our somg that u never remember it hurt me but I understand the real reason u came just for my the drugs and when isis no you left me ahed acne and gone

staring at these starts Just in his head talking to him self

I can’t blame you for all of it I should have been better but I realize it and I promise I won’t give up and I didn’t i was honestly so mental broke with you and work and just everything I lost sight of the fun we had together I turn into a jerk because I wanted House for us I wanted you to feel at home. I can tell when something up with the energy you hold and when u did leave I was fine at first s bit loading what brought us together was just a fire of how much love you and wanted do those I wanted to get on one knee fir U

I just remember being so mental tired with my own life I forgot how to tLk to you I remember I had so many things you don’t know and I know you will never believe how much I really did love you and I know it wasn’t me starring at the stars i would have give up everything sports and just Concentrate on her Since we both going shit time hers just want les to know if I loves her if I care about her i had a funny way of showing it all I had to say was I won’t give up on you I do love I will tell u on our wedding day I wanted to keep each letter I wrote for her so she could see the battle and how I loved her even when it seem I didn’t but everything she would say to me I was like your liein In my head just has Ihas She would about drug all the lies about it or say i was like that at her age and I said no I i change because I lost everything I was no body. didn’t care honestly watch drugs take something I love away told me she was gonna get Clean. in my head one day at work I get this message hey its my pets birthday wondering if I could take him for hr I will give him back to u keep my id and I have a job and am clean

i didnt answer she made her choose but deep down I wanted too But I looked at the stars I was llike she lied to u and u know this u have hear why she has said about u and what she did and u still have a heart fir the heartless someone who has throw u through the trash and made u seem like the worst human on the plant. and I still gonna be nice no don’t answer her she has try texting me asking for picture or call me text me happy birrhday send these little message asking for shit finally one day I had A eoungh when she Message me ask for pic and i message you made your choose. Deal. With it and leave me alone she message back I will if u let me see him I didn’t say anything else and haven’t gotten any message since just amazed that after all this u done to me you can ask me for something? when I ask for little things I didn’t get anything I said in my head mu heart is in piece and more break Everytime I hear something about her or what she did behind my back am just looking at the stars thinking why did have do that to