Dark before the Dawn

Vibrancy, a fleeting glimpse of hope in a colourless world. A flash of brilliance, squandered by fear and the weight of suppression and autocracy. Humility ripped apart by arrogance under the guise of righteousness, heroics and attention. Generosity. maligned by self-interest and fueled by greed and jealousy, leads a world into darkness and into the realms of drama, criticism, judgement, dishonour, distrust, distaste, fear and unworthiness.

When was it that we forsook love for money? Where was it that we substituted and derailed our integrity for blame? 

When did we stop speaking our truth, in regard to justice? When did we forsake praying for our truth, and more love, not only for ourselves, but for our brothers and sisters in the world called humanity?

Colour is an inner spiritual light and richness that can’t be bought, traded or usurped. It can be rejected, and in some instances forbidden for its very nature and true vibrational realities. Colour is not something everyone can wear, not everyone is comfortable with it and not everyone has an understanding of the worth of it. In a world of duality there will always be disparagement, those who agree and resonate with, for example the colours of passion and pink, the illumination and divinity of purple, or the blue light of healing, and then there will be others who will be indifferent to it, critical of it, judgmental, and avoidant of it altogether.

So, what is the bridge to close the gap? Patience, tolerance, willingness, faith, trust? And do we trust our own heart, soul and journey?

Is this the beginning of the end? Have we truly forgotten who we are? Is there a glimmer of the light of hope or has the flame dwindled and died? 

There is no light without love, there is no colour without commitment and endurance. There is no worthiness without respect, there is no peace without forgiveness and there are no rainbows without grace.

When and where did we sacrifice our peace? We’ve been fighting for it forever, yet few have truly found it. Why? Because it doesn’t start outside of us, it comes from within us.

What is it that we have truly surrendered to? One simple answer, the Drama Triangle and the sometimes dangerous and insidious power play of victim, persecutor and rescuer.  Truth becomes perilous, lies become headlines and rescuers become false heroes, all while the faithful become weary as old structures fall with no safety net in sight.

What our world is missing is love. Unconditional love. plain and simple. Where there is no love, there is no light and the darkness remains, but it will never win, unless we give in, and let it. The higher truth, the light is always there, just a breath or thought away.

Our own fear, disdain, distrust and hatred is the darkness we need to overcome and it’s everything that unconditional love isn’t. Yet it is our steppingstone into greater awareness and bigger picture of life. Our lives encompass our limitations, it’s not until we are called to take a step up, sometimes willingly, other times unwillingly, that we will never know our courage unless we are challenged. But challenged by what? For every person on our planet, it will be different. Every event is an opportunity to discover more of who we are and what we believe in. What we will stand up for, fight for, and what we will let go of.

Yin and Yang, always a spark of light in the darkness and always a spec of darkness in the light.  Everything is in darkness until it comes into the light of our own evolution.   Light always arises through the darkness. Truth arises from a sea of lies. Generosity arises from the confines and constraints of selfishness. Kindness arises from the depths of cruelty having known suffering.  Not until the lessons are learnt, can we take on another level of growth and hold onto its vibrational reality, keeping it safe within our own being, heart and soul and living its truth.  We can’t know one without the other, and we can’t bring it all into balance and peace without compassion, forgiveness and love, not only for our brothers and sisters equally, but for ourselves. Do we step up or step back?

We don’t need to be perfect, we just have to be willing. Willing to take a peek at ourselves, and observe the price we are willing to pay for our own freedom, our own liberation, our own sacrifice and our own surrender.

We need to reassess our boundaries. Do they serve us? or do they serve someone else? Are they long, short, firm, loose, consistent or nonexistent? Have we given our power away to another? to apathy? or to greed? or do we stand in our power with love? Each of us has our own answer.

Are we willing and co-operative enough to listen or do we hide in case we are asked to do something uncomfortable? Do we stand with integrity? Or are we stuck in pride and ego? It’s all learning. It’s all growth and all a choice of our higher soul to grow our lower nature and stretch into love.

We can learn from our history or ignore it. We can judge it at our peril, for what we judge, we become, how else could we learn compassion unless we walk in someone else’s shoes?

How else could we learn to have compassion and empathy for others and their situations unless we experience it for ourselves.

How else could we find forgiveness without the events that are the catalyst for us to change. It’s not someone else that needs to change, but our very self and the thoughts and beliefs we’ve built up and held around a particular situation,  event or trauma. Have they been held since childhood, are they held with a grudge? or the need to be right, heard, or helped? Only we can answer. Do we ask ourselves these questions? Do we challenge our own thoughts? Do we dismiss them, or empower them?

Everyone needs to be heard, but are we courageous enough to hear our own voice? Are we courageous enough to feel our own emotions? Are we courageous enough to hear someone else’s pain?, and are we courageous enough to apologise if and when we are wrong?

It’s easy to point fingers at others, it’s harder to look within for the same behaviors’, judgements and disagreements, because we don’t see ourselves as that, yet we are vehement when we react, and react we do without self-reflection or investigation. We launch vitriol without hesitation and cast blame without love. Has it become our shadow? Has it become our mantra? Does our consciousness have a twist in it that sends us off on tangents of lack of responsibility and detours us into blame, shame or persecution? Maybe it’s time to take a look, dig deep to find it, be patient to hear it, be courageous to see it and be willing to accept it, be worthy of loving it and be responsible to heal it for our own self-worth and for our own highest and best outcome.

Are we willing to wear the colour of peace within our own heart and soul? Are we courageous enough to call ourselves out on our own misgivings and misinformation?

Are we willing to have discernment rather than judgement? Do we have the courage to lead with the compassion and kindness that our world is lacking at present? Do we know how to be encouraging? Are we willing to have compassion for ourselves when we stumble into distrust and disdain? Are we willing to forgive ourselves for our mis-steps, mistakes, misconstrued beliefs and outdated thinking?

Are we able to look in the mirror and be proud of who we are and who we’ve become, or are we still looking from behind a mask of perfection, persecution and fear of who we really are? Holding onto the belief that it is someone else rather than the projection onto others of our own likes and dislikes?

Are we able to look in the mirror and honestly and completely surrender to the grace of self-worth, self-love and humility?

Are we able to look in the mirror and say “I’m sorry, please forgive me, I thank you, I love you” Are we even able say this to another person, even if it is just in our mind?

We as a soul, here on Earth in our humanness, and humanity need to colour our worlds with love.

Love is our strength, our surrender of fear and our birthright. It is a colour, a flavour and a commitment to be all that we can be in this life. It’s a vibration we can attain and maintain.  A rock-solid gift, along with the planet under our feet, supporting our every step It’s a foundation within that no one can take away when we choose to stand tall in the face of adversity. It is the gift that engages with charity, it encourages compassion and the warmth of empathy. It encompasses the beliefs of others that we don’t understand nor embrace, and it embraces our humility with being able to be vulnerable, when some of our most painful lessons are learnt. It uplifts our spirits and our lives into the colourful and strange new world of happiness, peace, joy, forgiveness and harmlessness.

What colour are we willing to paint our world?

May our journey into the oneness of love be of ease and grace. May we find comfort in its joy, may we stand tall in the face of adversity with merit, and may we continue with courage to live in a world of peace and prosperity for all.

Om Namo Narayani