Words between us

WORDS BETWEEN US

“I hate you.” I say when his lips are

close to mine.

“You love me darling.” He says,

closing the space between us.

For those who always take care of

others, YOU deserve to be taken

care of too and loved

Mia

“Shit, really on my first day.” I say when the keys to my new apartment fall down from the 3rd floor. I moved to Amsterdam from Seattle to start a new life and cause I got a job in a bookstore and this is how is going so far.

“Ouch, what the hell” I hear a man’s voice, and what are the odds that my keys fell on his head, that can’t hap-

“Who’s keys are this, what the fuck.” He Interrupted me from my thoughts. Of course that happened, I mean why not.

“Hi.” I said to him when he comes up the stairs. “these are mine, I’m so sorry I hope it didn’t hurt you. Are you okay? Also I’m your new neighbor Mia.”

He looks at me like I killed someone, and then he groans, while handing me the keys.

“here you go, and be more careful next time. How can you be so clumsy? What are you five?”

What is his problem, dumb ass. I look at him with a surprise look on my face.

“Excuse me? It was an accident, I said I was sorry. And didn’t you hear me, I’m your new neighbor at least say welcome or something.”

His look gets even angrier,

“I don’t fucking care that you are my new neighbor, what do you want a cookie? Also my name Is Nolan, happy now”

I have a feeling that we will hate each other. Also he is handsome tho, muscular body, tall, black hair and brown eyes, to bad that he is a dick.

“Well I am happy Nolan, thank you.”

“ugh whatever.” He rolls his eyes. “just don’t talk to me and we’ll be okay.”

“no problem dick head.” I say and smile.

He looks at me with his eyebrow raised,

“the heck did you just call me?”

“you heard me, and it’s your fault that I called you that, cause you are being really mean.”

“Oh grow up Mia. And I wasn’t mean, just a little annoyed by you, and listen that is your fault, cause your keys fell on my head.”

“hey I said I was sorry and- ugh you know what forget it, just shut up.”

“gladly, just so I don’t need to talk to you.” He said and went to his apartment. I don’t know what his problem is, all I know is that I won’t like him ever.

It’s 8pm and I decided that I will bake strawberry muffins, i unpacked almost every thing already and I also went to the grocery store down the street.

When I’m putting ingredients in the bowl I realize that I forgot to buy sugar. And the store is now closed, so I can’t make muffins without sugar. So what do I do? Hmmm think Mia, think……oh-OH I will ask Nolan, maybe he has some sugar, I hate that I have to ask him, but what else can I do?

I knock on his door, when he opens them and he sees that it’s me, he rolls his eyes again.

“hi to you too Nolan.” I say and smile at him.

He nervously runs his hand through his hair and groans,

“what do you want? Didn’t I tell you to stay away?”

I sigh

“You did, and I hate that I have to ask you, but do you have some sugar?” he looks at me extremely confused “I want to bake strawberry muffins and I don’t have sugar, and the store is closed.”

He looks at me annoyed,

“if I get you sugar will you leave me alone? Also who bakes muffins at-“ he looks at the watch on his hand “8pm?”

Now I roll my eyes at him,

“me, I do. So what? Anyway just get me the sugar and then I’ll go.”

He turns around and when he comes back, he hands me the bag and says annoyed.

“Here you go, keep it.” And he slams the door in my face, how rude.

“thank you asshole.” I scream so he can hear me.

“Fuck off Mia.” He screams back.

Nolan

“Who bakes muffins at 8pm? I mean at least bring me some since you are my new neighbor, also how did she drop her keys on my head, like be more careful next time. And her saying “I’m your new neighbor.” I mock her with a high pitched voice, “so what if you are, want a fucking cookie? She is so annoying.”

I say when I’m locking my door, when I turn around I see Jeff, who lives in the apartment above staring at me like I’m insane.

I sigh and say,

“yes Jeff I’m talking to myself, so what. Fuck off now and have a nice day.”

He looks at me angry and goes down the stairs fast.

“morning Nolan.”

Oh great, now she is also here, I turn around, roll my eyes and say,

“yes morning Mia.”

She smiles and says sarcastically,

“Oh my god did you just said morning to me, good job.”

I groan,

“whatever Mia. Also where are you going at 7am?”

She sighs,

“I have a job at a bookstore called moonlight chapters, that’s why I moved here and to start a new life.”

I look at her with a disgusted look on my face, there’s no way that she is working next to my café.

“why are you looking at me like that.” She asks, looking at me confused.

“cause you are working next to my café.”

Her mouth opens and she stares at me with her jaw dropped.

“you own a Café? Oh wow Nolan, what does it call?”

I sigh.

“you will literally saw it now, cause it’s next to the bookstore you work dumb ass.”

She looks at me mad,

“sorry that I ask, but what? Is a name too stupid and you are embarrassed to tell me?”

I stepped closer to her and smirk,

“the name is not stupid, you will literally saw it in a couple of minutes.”

She let out a soft laugh,

“I know that I will, but I can still think that you are too embarrassed to tell me.”

I run my hands up and down my face,

“ugh fine it’s called sunrise sips, happy now?”

She chuckles,

“that’s a cute name, but a little funny for someone who is a grumpy.” She said and went, so annoying.

When I come back from work, it’s almost midnight and I write in my dairy almost every night, I just got it last week, only that this time I can’t find it anywhere in my room. I must of drop it somewhere, on my way from work, cause sometimes I took it with me, well fuck now I don’t have my diary anymore.

Mia

Around midnight I hear a soft fall In front of my door, I was watching myself in a mirror that I have there, that’s why. I decided to look, when I opened them I see a dairy on a floor, I think that is a diary. I pick it up and bring it with me.

I know that I shouldn’t open it, but the curiosity wins and I started reading it.

“I hate that I feel like that, why did this happen? I feel so guilty even if I know that it’s not my fault. And I love taking care of my sister, but sometimes is hard, I mean now she is in college and she is doing amazing, but still.”

Who is this person and what happened? I feel a little sad for whoever this is, also It must be someone from this building, but why did they let it In front of my door. Do they want me to write back? Maybe I should.

The next day I did write back in that diary after I came back from work and I decided that I will let it, in a laundry room behind a plant, they will probably saw it there. Also today I went to Nolan’s café and I must say that his coffee is amazing, he was looking at me like I killed someone when I walked in and ordered.

Nolan

I came to the laundry room and when I go past the plant I see my diary hiding there and what the hell this is a little creepy. But also the one who found my diary must be from this building. I open it and see that they write in it, who does that?

“dear person, I found your diary and I opened it, I’m so sorry for that, but I thought that maybe you left It, so I can write back in it. So I don’t know what happened, but you are doing amazing and it’s not your fault, please don’t blame yourself and I’m sure your sister appreciate you too. Also who are you? I’m a woman, I will not tell you my name.”

I don’t know why, but this made me feel a little better and it made me smile. I decided that I will write back and let it here, so she can found it.

“Thank you for this and no worries that you read it. Also I’m a man, won’t tell you my name either sweetie. Also do you live in that building? I do.”

I write in it that night and the next morning I bring it to the same spot when no one is there.

I go check around midnight, when I finish work if she wrote back already, and she did.

“I am from this building mystery man, so tell something about yourself, anything you want.”

I smile like an idiot when I read this, god who is she.

“Well I’m 27 and I have my own café, won’t tell you the name, cause then you can figure who I am darling.”

“oh secretive, well I’m 24 and I work at a bookstore, also won’t tell you the name.”

Hmm Mia also works in a bookstore.

Mia

God who is this man. We been writing each other for 4 days and I love it.

“Hi Nolan” I say to him when I came to his café.

“Ugh you again, anyway here is your coffee.” I look at him surprised.

“You remembered my coffee order?”

“so what?”

I smile at him

“aw asshole, are we friends now.”

He sighs and rolls his eyes,

“Get the fuck out Mia and don’t talk to me.”

“Gladly dick head, have a nice day.”

When I come home, I go to the diary, bring it to my apartment and start reading it, to see what he wrote.

“That’s a cool job. Anyway as you know I take care of my sister, I mean she is in college now. I do that cause our parents died in a car accident 7 years ago, drunk driver hit them. It’s hard a lot of times, but it is what it is. Now tell me something personal about you mystery girl.”

My heart sank when I read this, this poor boy must been so scared, and taking care of his sister and everything. I wish I could hug him.

“I’m so sorry that happened, that must been so hard. And now you want to know about me. Well I got out of abusive relationship that I was in for 6 months, the first time he hit me I went and I won in a court, so he is in jail.”

Nolan

She was in abusive relationship, fuck that must been so hard, I hope he rot in jail. I wish I was there for her.

“I’m so sorry that happened to you, I hope you okay now. Also a hint for you…I have black hair.”

The next day she writes back.

“I am okay now, thank you and I have blonde curly hair and brown eyes.”

Wait…Mia has blonde curly hair and brown eyes, and she also works in a bookstore. The diary girl is Mia, she is the only one in this building with a hair, eyes and job like that. This whole time I’ve been writing with her. So I’m in love with Mia, but she is annoying, and beautiful, and also understanding. No one understands me the way she does, through our writing. Also what I feel when I’m reading our diary conversation, is indescribable.

“I bet you’re beautiful, also I think that I know who you are love.”

Now let’s see if she will write back or not.

It’s been a week and she didn’t, maybe she’s afraid of founding out who I am.

Mia

I didn’t write back, cause I’m afraid to fund out who is he, I’m not ready yet. Also this week Nolan is a lot nicer to me than he was before.

“Hi sunshine, I missed you. Here is your coffee darl- Mia.”

I look at him confused,

“Why are you suddenly so nice to me?”

He smiles,

“what I can’t be nice to my favorite neighbor?”

“last week you hated me, what changed?”

He leans closer,

“Let’s just say that you grow on me, you’re not that bad sweetie.”

Diary man was giving me the same nicknames, also he has black hair and a Cafe. No way that he is Nolan.

“Amm okay, well see you Nolan.” I said and went, cause there is just no way that is him. But everything clicks, his hair, nicknames, where he works and why he went all soft on me now, shit. I’ve been talking to my grumpy neighbor this whole time, but it turns out that he is not that grumpy, he is just very hurt. I think that I love Nolan.

“Morning Mia.” He says when we both came out of our apartments.

“Morning Nolan.” I say while blushing.

He comes closer to me, smirking.

“Am I making you blush darling?”

I look away from him,

“What? No.”

He steps closer, pining me against the door.

“Then look at me.”

I turn my head around, look him in the eyes and our lips are so close that we could kiss.

Nolan

I wish I could kiss her, and the way she is looking at me is telling me that she want it just as much.

I lean closer, and when my lips almost touch hers, something falls on the floor, we look at our left and it’s Jeff, he dropped his beg, fucking Jeff.

I look at him angry and Mia moves away,

“Bye Nolan, see you later.”

“yeah bye Mia, have a nice day.” I smile at her.

Now I look at Jeff,

“I’m sor-“ he says, but I stop him,

“I hate you Jeff, fuck off.” I said and went.

This week me and Mia have been flirting a lot, I think that she’s into me too.

“Hi Mia.” I say when I come to a bookstore.

She looks at me surprised,

“Hi Nolan, how come that you’re in a bookstore?”

“I want a book, you have any recommendations?”

I actually just want to see her.

“yeah I do have, what books are you into? Also don’t you work till midnight? now it’s 9pm and I have to close now, but I will help you find a book that you want.”

I smile at her,

“I closed it earlier, cause I wanted to see you Mia. I don’t want a book, I just wanted to see you.”

“but why?” she asks, looking at me confused.

“because, I want to spend time with you.”

“stop lying Nolan, 3 weeks ago, you couldn’t stand me.” She says, while walking out of a bookstore.

“and you also couldn’t stand me, but now we are friends.”

She turns around to look at me, while locking the door.

“I guess we are, but why do you want to spend so much time with me?”

“because I- because I know that you are the diary girl.”

She freezes for some seconds, looks at me surprised and then she walks to the rain, I run behind her, grabbing her wrist and pulling her closer to me.

“You won’t say anything?”

“I don’t know what to say Nolan. I know that you are the diary boy, I just didn’t want to believe it.”

“why not?”

She looks at me,

“because we won’t work, listen I want you, I do. But we can’t.”

“I want you too, and we can be together, we will make it work.”

She rolls her eyes,

“Nolan, we hated each other, then the diary thing happen and now this, whatever this is. It all happen so fast, from hating each other to lovi-“

she stops talking, moves my hand from her wrist and try to walk away, but I pull her closer again.

“fuck it.” I whisper and kiss her. Passionate, desperate, while saying everything I can’t say with words. My tongue teases hers.

Mia

“I’ve been waiting for this.” He says when he pulls away.

“Me too.”

He smiles at me,

“So can you be mine now darling?”

“thought you never ask.” I smile at him.

He kisses me again, this t

ime more slowly, like he is savoring every second.

“you are not that annoying after all sweetheart.”

I roll my eyes,

“And you’re not such a dick head, like you were.”

He pulls me closer and smiles,

“I love you Mia.”

“I love you too Nolan.”