The loving hand I missed

I went to school walking along with my friend Libbie. I couldn't get our science paper done, it was so hard I said trying my best to sound normal like my life was perfectly in order. Really? She said I thought it was easy! Oh. You have to promise to never tell anyone this, Ok what's so bad That you are so serious about? I have been getting d's in my grade card my whole life Oh and I want to kill myself.

 Kiera you don't have to be perfect she said sounding so positive I wanted to strike her in the head for it. I was failing in every class and wanted to kill myself and all she said was that I was just unperfect. I didn't say anything back. I mean what would you say if your life was upside down and didn't even have real parents to help you through it? Nothing. You would say nothing. One week ago my dad died and my mom has been super nasty ever since. My mom wasn't the reason I got d's thought. Honestly I didn't know either. Libbie knew that but still, she acted as if all was normal. I was partly relieved that she changed the subject because I wasn't about to talk about my miserable life. We entered the school and parted to go to our classes. I went to my locker and punched in my usual code 5-18-12. Opening my locker as always I grabbed everything I needed. Ring, I pulled out my gleaming phone and looked down to see who had just text me! Casen, my crush I thought to myself happily and saw what he had said "Meet u, Five my house don't be late :)! I smiled to myself yes I said under my breath gleaming from ear to ear, Bin Bin Bin. Oh no I hadn't noticed what time it was I dashed to my class flinging myself into my chair, receiving a glare from the teacher. Great! The first day at school and the worst impression so far I said to the person next to next to me who happened to be distracted on something else. Looking around the room I saw Casen. I smiled a small grin and looked past him to see my biggest nightmare thea. Casen waved and I waved back he turned and I did the same Maybe it was time to find a different crush one who might be a little less popular I gave a little laugh to myself, of course, I wouldn't do that! I have had a crush on him for two years, like seriously! The class was so boring in math. After class, I met Libbie and Kenzie out in the hallway. I have the worst class group, said Kenzie! Ha! You don't know anything until you have had thea in your class, oh it is horrible you can't breathe I said acting like I was being choked. We started laughing! Thea walked down the hall. What's so funny did Kiera fail another test? Lots of eyes looked at me, and I noticed people starting to stare. All the laughing stopped. Umm, I gotta go catch you later, scurrying away as fast as I could not looking back. I walked alone because Kiera and Kenzie were mad at me for running away from them in the hall. I heard someone running up to me from behind so I threw my hand backward hitting Casen. Sorry sorr- he cut me off, no it's my fault I should have warned you I was coming! So where are we going he turned to me his green eyes excitedly dancing we are going to Dairy Queen! That sounds exciting I said moving next to him well we walked! To change the subject I said, I can't believe we have six classes together, but in the first and third periods, we also have thea. OH ya she's lots of fun he said. Shocked, I said well she's not the nicest person I've ever known! I said trying to make myself sound almost funny. O Ok, he said I assumed you liked her, do you still like her as a friend? Na Not really she acts like she owns the world or something. I noticed he was getting super uncomfortable so I just stopped talking. This time he started the conversation. You know you are very interesting he asked? Me interesting? Kiera I mean it! Really? When I saw thea talk about your grades you just walked away, and most people don't do that. You were there? I asked under my breath. Ya. Do you have super bad grades as she said? I have to go, I said standing up. I-I didn't mean to offend you. I glared at him you just want to spread a new rumor about me. No, I wasn't! Yes you were I yelled at him! I walked away only to find him coming back to me, I turned around and yelled you need to realize people aren't always perfect! Then I left him standing there devastated. 

I faked sick the next day, and to my suprise I was able to barf when I saw Thea on telivition with Casen. I sat there how could he do that to me? I ran upstairs nobody was home so I grabed my coat and went to the street waiting. It was raining, and I felt it was matching my mood. I was about to end my life, and for the first time I wondered how it would feel to die. I sat there, right in the mittle of the street waiting to die then a car nearby was stopped and the winddow was rolled down. I could hear the music in the backround (burn the ships). I found myself crying. I saw a car comeing in my direction down the street but I could'ent do It I jumped aside just in time. I was still crying as my moms car pulled up. She ran to me clenching me in her arms. I felt so loved! on the car ride home I told her everything. The next Year I found myself at a Kings and Country consert, they wote the burn the ships. I even got to talk to the two people who saved my life.