A sweet girl escaping the monster

After i finished all my office works-which was a lot-i got out of my room to the living room to escape from that stressful atmosphere. I slumped on the couch and started changing tv channels.Suddenly a movie caught my attention and i decided to watch it. I had no idea what the movie was about but still went for it.Only if i had known that it would bring back some long long forgotten memory of mine into life.I could relate to it so much that my mind had involuntarily taken me to that exact same place and time of that bitter old memory.

I was studying fourth standard and i had a very bad habit of forgetting certain things and getting remembered at the very last moment which would lead to my mom to lash me out had happened so many times before but still,

"Oh sh*t, i've totally forgotten!!"

"You got to be kidding me josie. Are you really being serious right now?Tomorrow's due and You know who's incharge for this assignment right?" She asked me in disbelief.

"Come on girl, you are so not helping for my stress right now"i panicked and started ranting.

"Okay cool calm down.I have a plan. Get the essentials and come to my house early morning.We've got it, okay? and we're going school from here.So inform this to your mom" she calmed me down yet by throwing a ticking bomb at me which is right now at the kitchen ticking which i can hear from right here.

"Oh holy sh*t" i said blankly

"What's again?"

"Im going to have to face my mom is what's again"

"Uh-oh, good luck with that"she hung up.

'Here we go lets face the wrath of my mom' said to myself and went to face my consequence.

After a nice amount of lecture i got, i went to buy the things i needed for my assignment. As i had lived in a main area , it was just a street away to reach the main road where a lots of stores and shops were present. When i reached there i stood debating into my mind to which store i should go first. Thats when i noticed a new petty shop straight before where i was standing and a man, probably the owner, watching me standing there. He should've noticed the conflict on my face so he called me by waving his hand. I went to him.

The shop was small and there was not much space for more than two people to stand in there.The owner seemed to be in his forty's.

"Hi my dear, why were you standing there?"he asked me.

"Um.. hi, i am looking for some things i need for my school assignment"i said awkwardly smiling.

He smiled at me widely. He took a chocolate from a jar in front of me and gave it to me

"Here take it sweetie, what's your name?"He asked fondly

"Im josie, thanks for the chocolate"i smiled politely

"Oh its fine my dear, you can call me uncle if you want"He smiled and said "i think i know the place where you'd find what you're looking for" he pointed his hand at a shop and directed me to go there.

I said my thanks to him and went to that shop. When i was returning back to my house i felt someone looking at my direction. When i looked he smiled and waved his hand and i returned him the smile.

I went back home in a happy mood even though i was in a bad mood when i went out. Sometimes when people were being nice to us and smiles at us it makes our mood instantly happy. Thats what happened there.

The next day my mom sent me to buy some groceries.It was evening time when i went to buy groceries and while returning back i heard like someone calling me. When i looked at that direction it was him,the shop owner i met yesterday. I went there.I dont need to but still slightly feeling guilty as i carry things in my hands which was bought on somebody's store while he was being so nice to me.He looked at me and grinned as if something happened good for him today.But i could tell he was in a good mood.

"Hi sweetie, how are you?" He asked enthusiastically taking my hands with a wide smile.

"Hi uncle, im good " i returned my smile while i also trying to hide my bag im carrying behind me which was totally in vain because i knew he had already seen it.

"Oh, bought things at other's store and forgot about me huh?" He fake offended at me

"I... um..im sorry" i didnt know what to say but it was really awkward to me.

He then took my hand and brought me inside the store with a fondly smile on his face

"Haha..i was just kidding sweet girl" He said while still holding my hands in his. His neighbour shop owner on the right side, bend his face and looked at us.

He left my hands and looked at him saying

"Look how cute she is, i was playing with her like i got offended and she got sad" He chuckled with an amusement look. The neighbour shop owner also smiled at me and went to his work when he got a customer.

"Did i scare you? Im sorry my dear. Its just.. next time you dont need to go that far when im right here." He said again taking my hands and bringing me close to him.

"You can come here whenever you want. You can go to others if i dont have what you're looking for. Otherwise you can buy things to me, your friend uncle, wouldn't you?" He looked amused and pinched my cheeks.

I dont know but i started feeling so uncomfortable that i've never felt before. He was holding me so close to him, too much for my liking. But i didnt try to show it to him. I just smiled not to hurt or offend him. Because all he did was being nice to me. I thought he might be thinking me as his dear daughter or because he doesnt have one or i might remind him of someone from his family seeing how close he was being with me. 

He then started asking questions about my family,my likings,and some general topics.

All while i was standing close to him, my hands in his one and his other went holding around me. I felt too uncomfortable that i couldnt even answer his questions or listen what he was saying. I felt too aware of only his actions now because he next almost was side hugging me and his hand around me got tighter and went lower. I started squirming out of discomfort still not trying to show that on my face. 

He kept talking to me with that same amusing and fondly look on his face. I so much wanted him to let me go and go home.He was still talking, asking questions and im not even aware but still iam answering him . But the next thing he did to me was out of the world uncomfortable. Not even a father could do that to his daugher and someone to their family member.My expression could've screemed discomfort,yet my mouth was still dumbfolded but my body responded to how bad i felt as i involuntarily started squirming more . Because what he did was his hold around my hands got tighter and his other hand went lower and lower down there that now it was touching my genitalia. I felt so shy and bad and was at the verge of crying out of discomfort but still not knowing why and what was happening to me.

I felt so relieved that i was sweating and would have looked pale when the neighbour shop owner came there all of a sudden, and he left me. I took that as a cue and got out of there very fast and went home.

The minute i got out of there and getting back to home all i was thinking was ' okay i get it , he might have thought me or i remind him of someone close to him. But does anyone do things like this to anyone? But it was so inappropriate. Thats so bad and gross' thought my childself who didnt know anything about good and bad touch. I kept my mouth shut and told no one about this. Because i felt so ashamed and embarrassed to even think about this,let alone talk about this to someone and i also thought this might go other way around as 'what if they didnt allow me to go out after this'.

After a few days when i went to the store the same way he still called me. He called me and waved at me many times but i went like i didnt hear him until i got back home.I didnt even bother to look at that side.I felt bad for doing that but still i felt good and didnt regret it for doing that because i felt safe that way.Everything was so confusing at that time. I left my breath i was holding the whole time until i was crossing that place which i didnt even realised that i was holding it.

The alarm beeped and broke me out of my trance of a nightmare. And my night just went like as an adult recalling her horrific events of her childhood.