Echoes in the Café
That small corner café had been my refuge for years. Since I began working for the local newspaper, I would come here whenever I needed inspiration or just a break from my mind. The café’s comforting familiarity - the rich aroma of coffee, the murmur of conversations, the worn wooden tables polished by years of hands resting idly on them - had always been a balm. But that day, for reasons I couldn't quite explain, the place felt different, charged with an indescribable energy.
I sank into my usual corner by the window, inhaling deeply as I tried to let the café’s atmosphere soothe me. My attention drifted to the entrance just as an elderly woman stepped in, her slight frame wrapped in a burgundy coat that seemed to dwarf her. Her hair, an elegant blend of silver and gray, was pulled back, giving her a delicate, almost ethereal quality. She moved with a quiet grace that drew my attention.
She scanned the room, and when her eyes met mine, she offered a faint, introspective smile before walking toward me. It felt natural to hold her steady look, though I couldn’t say why.
“Is this seat taken?” she asked, her voice soft but clear.
I shook my head, gesturing toward the chair across from me. “Please, go ahead.”
With a gentle rustle, she settled into the chair, placing her handbag on the table and smoothing her coat with hands that seemed as fragile as parchment. Her hands held a quiet beauty - thin, delicate, marked by fine lines that spoke of decades of living. Leaning forward slightly, I noticed the faintest scent of musk and vanilla, a fragrance laced with stories I could only imagine.
For a while, we sat in companionable silence. She stared out the window, watching the world pass by. Then, as if sensing my curiosity, she turned and smiled.
“It’s a beautiful day, isn’t it?” she said, her voice soft yet resolute.
I glanced out at the overcast sky. “Yes… I suppose it is. I come here to think sometimes, just to clear my mind. I work at the newspaper, and it’s nice to escape the noise for a bit.”
She nodded, her expression softening. “I used to come here with my husband every Saturday. This very table.” She reached for her ring - a simple band with a small sapphire - and gently traced it with a tenderness that felt sacred. Her eyes softened with a distant memory, her fingers gently tracing the ring. “He’s been gone a year now. Fifty years together, and now… I come alone.”
I could only nod, feeling the weight of her words settles around us. At 19, I’d never truly felt loss; it was an idea, a plot point in books and films. Her words, however, made it feel real - heavy, tangible, like a shadow casting itself across the table between us.
“I’m sorry,” I whispered, though I knew the words could never hold the comfort they sought to offer.
She shook her head gently. “No need for apologies. I come here to remember, you see. It’s strange, isn’t it? You spend a lifetime with someone, and then… they’re just gone.” She stared softly at her ring, absorbed in the moment. “Sometimes, I swear I still hear his laugh, or I catch a glimpse of him as if he’s only stepped away for a moment and will return any second.”
A faint smile touched her lips, one filled with sadness and the quiet comfort of memories. I felt a strange ache inside, a longing I couldn’t quite define. Her resilience and quiet grace struck something deep within me.
“Do you mind if I ask… what was he like?” The question slipped out before I could stop myself, but she seemed unbothered.
Her eyes softened as if seeing him clearly before her. “He was… thoughtful. Kind. He noticed the little things. Every morning, he’d bring me coffee. On his way home, he’d surprise me with flowers. He made every ordinary moment feel special.” She chuckled softly. “And he never forgot our anniversary - not once in fifty years.”
Her words painted a portrait of love and devotion, of a life filled with small, cherished moments. I could almost see the scenes she described, and feel the warmth of a love that had lasted through the decades.
“Do you have someone?” she asked, looking back at me.
I hesitated, then admitted, “Not yet. I suppose I haven’t thought much about it. I’m still young, I guess.”
She nodded, a knowing glimmer in her eye. “That’s how it begins. You’re not looking for it, and then one day… it just happens. And just like that, your life changes.” We fell into silence again, her words weaving themselves into my thoughts. I wondered if I’d ever know a love like hers - a love that could linger in memories long after someone was gone. It was a thought that took root within me, a quiet yearning that would deepen with time.
As she stood to leave, she placed a cool hand over mine. Her fingers were long and smooth, her skin like silk stretched over bone. “Remember this, dear,” she said quietly. “We don’t always get to choose when someone leaves. We only get to choose how we hold onto them after.”
Her words, her perfume, her quiet presence - all of it followed me out of the café that day, trailing me into my life like a whisper I couldn’t shake. Now, at 49, her words replay in my mind, echoing from a different time, reminding me of love, loss, and the quiet power of memory.
I sit now, in the quiet of my home, those words drifting back to me. “We don’t always get to choose when someone leaves. We only get to choose how we hold onto them after.” At 19, they were poetry - beautiful, mysterious, but abstract. Now, years later, they are a truth I carry in my bones.
In the intervening years, I’ve known both love and heartache. I lost my first love - not to death, but to the slow drifting apart that comes when two people grow in different directions. I remember sitting alone, holding a ring I once thought I’d wear, feeling the loss of a life I’d imagined but would never have. Her words returned to me then, with a glimmer of understanding.
Later, I lost my mother, and her absence carved a space in my life I hadn’t anticipated. Grief wrapped itself around me, and once again, I thought of that woman in the café, her quiet strength, her soft smile. Her words - once mysterious - now offered a strange comfort, as if she had been waiting all these years to guide me through my losses.
The memory of her - a woman who had found beauty in love even in the face of loss - became a thread connecting us across time. I could almost hear her voice again, telling me it was okay to feel the weight of grief, that love could endure in memory even after it had slipped away from the physical world.
Now, I understand what she meant by “holding onto” someone after they’re gone. It’s about the little things: the laughter, the warmth, the stories that become woven into the fabric of who we are. Her wisdom, once just words, has become a part of me, a quiet strength that shapes how I hold those I’ve loved - and lost.
Her story, her resilience, and her love live on within me, a presence I never expected but one I will forever carry. Her words have become a talisman, a gentle reminder to cherish the small moments, to hold onto love deeply, and to let memory become a comfort when absence comes.
Today, exactly 30 years since that encounter, I realize how deeply her lessons have imprinted themselves within me. I remember her cool hand resting on mine, her soft pink lipstick, and the subtle fragrance of musk and vanilla that enveloped me then and still lingers with me now. Every gesture and every glance from that day remain vivid, as if untouched by time. In difficult moments, they return to my mind, offering quiet answers and a unique sense of peace. A fleeting encounter, yet indelible - a thread that has, silently and powerfully, bound my life to hers.
THE END
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Hi, Alina !! This was absolutely stunning ! The magic of your imagery made the encounter come alive. I love how you played with the imagery of the rings (hers and yours) to showcase how loss can affect a person. Amazing job !
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