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I did not take my anxiety medicine today knowing I will be okay.

             Walk to the sliding glass door as beams of sunlight strike my floor. Today is a good day to go out to experience the fresh air. To breath it in deeply as I have done so many times in the past. To take in the beauty of nature created to bring peace to a soul in pain.

             I look around outside and see no one in sight.

             “Perfect,” I say. “Time to go out Picolo.”

             She barks and dances as I pull the glass door open. In moments she is out and running across the field. The joy I can see to be free. No constraints to hamper the freedom to run.

             “Let me enjoy a little of such an emotion,” I think as I step out onto the patio.

             I look to my left and right seeing the mole has been at work. Rich, dark dirt mounds here and there. I go to one of the mounds and grab a perfectly round rock. A mixture of gray and black as I turn the rock over and over.

             “You will make my faithful dog happy today.”

             I walk west of my small home onto long, green grass with natures items scattered throughout my path. Fallen leaves, twigs and branches, and mushrooms erupting from the earth.

             I step onto a gravel road that leads to the lake. I glance toward the lake and see geese lying on the pebbled shore.

             “I hope you enjoyed your relaxing moment,” I mutter toward the geese.

             Moments later, Picolo is rushing toward the geese. She is feet away when they burst into the air and fly a good twenty yards to land in the lake, honking profusely. Picolo rushes into the water but stops less than five feet in. Barks then turns around to step out and running commences around the field. Maybe that is what I need to do? Run and run all over the field. To scream at the top of my lungs, but I did not need unwanted attention.

             There are pine trees scattered throughout the field, but I go to an area that has no trees. A flat field as long and wide as a football field. I go to the middle and stop. I close my eyes to enhance my hearing and smell. Immediately a lukewarm breeze caresses my left arm.

             “Are you out here today?” I ask.

             I keep my eyes closed as my imagination erupts, slowly opening them to see what to behold. I see family that has moved on; walking, running, skipping, crawling, standing, and sitting in the field. None of them pay me any mind as they go about enjoying their new life. Leaving the pain to the living. I look to my left and see her. My lost love. And she is looking directly at me with those beautiful, doe eyes. She is smiling, showing off those lovely dimples I lightly squeezed ever so often. I want to run over and give her the biggest hug ever. It is not to be. I close my eyes then open them again. I stand in an empty field.

             Picolo barks nearby. I look toward the bark and see her sitting feet away looking at me with anticipation. She has surely seen the rock in my hand. I look at the rock one more time, not sure I will see it again. Sometimes Picolo will bring it back to me. Other times she takes it to the lake and drops the rock in the water.

             “Here we go,” I say, and I chuck the rock as hard as I can toward the lake.

             Picolo is off in a flash.

             I walk over to the gravel road and head toward the lake, scanning the ground as I take step by step. There is a good chance I will find another rock for Picolo to fitch. If I do I will send it in the opposite direction for it will be a sure way to exhaust her.

             “Hello,” I hear a faint voice to my left.

             I look toward the field with trees, not seeing a soul in sight. Maybe they are hiding behind a tree. I doubt that is the case.

             This field was bustling with activity years ago. A place for church camps in the summer. Children running and playing across this field. I can see them enjoying their lives. Enjoying their innocence. How I wish the innocence would stay as one gets older.

             “The children I see are in their twilight years or they are gone at this present moment,” I mutter. “I pray they are enjoying youth for eternity."

             I glance back to the ground and see a perfect rock to throw. a gray rock with a couple of dull, yellow stripes.

             "Picolo!” I call out, seeing she is close to the water, watching two ducks far off in the lake returning her stare.

             Picolo turns and a fast trot toward me and takes off as soon as I throw the rock. She quickly passes me, coming upon the rolling rock to chomp down on it.

             I walk down to the lake, feeling a slight breeze caress my right arm.

             “You always loved the lake, my love.”

             I go over to a stump and sit down. Even though it is a beautiful day there is no one out on the lake in their boats or jet skis. Just a calmness. A time of quietness. A feeling of peace in my fractured soul.

             “How much this is needed,” I say.

             Blessed to be able to live in a place so close to the lake. There are people who live near me or across the lake, but so many days like today where it is just me.

             “Thank you,” I say as I close my eyes.

             Tears form and drop on my lap as a little bit of healing comes my way. A little bit of pain taken.

             I open my eyes upon the bark of Picolo.

             “Ready for another rock,” I say to her as I stand up from the stump.

             She drops the rock nearby as I pick it up and moments later it is flying. Picolo runs off to retrieve it. Today is a good day to run just like Picolo. The breeze picks up as I run across the field. I am sure the unseen loves to see the smile on my face.

March 03, 2024 01:01

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Melanie Yorke
12:15 Mar 26, 2024

Absolutely beautiful.

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Corey Melin
13:36 Mar 26, 2024

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Jason Basaraba
19:50 Mar 13, 2024

There is nothing like the love of a pet like Picolo to help resolve despair. Yep, as we age our brain goes in different directions and with anxiety life is totally unique. One day at a time that is all we can do. You had such beautiful description's I could smell the air and see the gees fly in a frenzy. Well done

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Michael Maceira
16:35 Mar 13, 2024

Growing older can be challenging because one should (dare I say, must) learn to appreciate life as a child while retaining the responsibilities of an adult. You capture this really well in this segment: This field was bustling with activity years ago. A place for church camps in the summer. Children running and playing across this field. I can see them enjoying their lives. Enjoying their innocence. How I wish the innocence would stay as one gets older. What's interesting is that you capture this innocence by having your character go to th...

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Aly Jester
17:21 Mar 12, 2024

"Maybe that is what I need to do? Run and run all over the field. To scream at the top of my lungs, but I did not need unwanted attention." "How I wish the innocence would stay as one gets older." Lines like the two I quoted always feel so impactful. They make me consider why we lose true freedom as we age. Why can't we run and scream at the top of our lungs when the urge rushes over us? I think we lose our 'innocence' when we start trying to perceive ourselves from others' points of view. We lose our freedom because we worry others will l...

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Corey Melin
18:39 Mar 12, 2024

Very much appreciate your comments for they are so true. Regain our freedom and not worry what others think. Our mental health would be so much better

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Angelica Sophia
16:37 Mar 12, 2024

Love Picolo and the way the story shows how pets can help people learn important life lessons.

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Corey Melin
17:06 Mar 12, 2024

Thank you for the comment, and pets can definitely help people move on in their lives.

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LeeAnn Hively
03:16 Mar 11, 2024

Grief is such a weird emotion for such a weird species as we are. Beautiful story.

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Corey Melin
17:08 Mar 12, 2024

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Wally Schmidt
17:57 Mar 10, 2024

Was really routing for the mc to pull out of the funk that grieving can put you in. Nicely done Picolo!

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Corey Melin
20:35 Mar 10, 2024

Thank you for the comments! Sometimes when it comes to grieving it’s an off and on situation. That has been my life but for others they move on or they get stuck in their grief

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Helen A Smith
12:51 Mar 10, 2024

Some kind of acceptance of grief as the MC appreciates all the healing power that nature gives. Also, aided by his best friend, Picolo. Very relatable and poignant story.

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Corey Melin
15:10 Mar 10, 2024

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Kristi Gott
00:17 Mar 10, 2024

Beautifully told. Vivid sensory details and imagery bring the reader into the story, creating an engaging, compelling story. The character becomes someone we care about and with whom we empathize. Feels authentic with emotional truths. Well done!

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Corey Melin
15:10 Mar 10, 2024

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Ty Warmbrodt
21:29 Mar 06, 2024

Nicely done. Beautifully told

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Patrick H
13:52 Mar 06, 2024

Nicely done. Grief is a complicated process and writing is a good way to express it.

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Corey Melin
16:57 Mar 06, 2024

Thank you for the comments. Writing is a great way to express emotions and to let loose the imagination

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Alexis Araneta
10:40 Mar 06, 2024

Very poignant one, Corey. Beautifully-written.

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Corey Melin
16:56 Mar 06, 2024

Thank you much for the comments

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Trudy Jas
04:18 Mar 06, 2024

Saying goodbye takes a long time. So, thoughtfully told, Corey. Tahnk you for liking my stories.

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Corey Melin
16:56 Mar 06, 2024

Very much appreciate your comments. Events continue on that reminds you of the times doing it with a loved one that is gone

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Hannah Lynn
02:59 Mar 06, 2024

I feel the emotion of this story as the MC lets go of some of his pain. Nicely done!

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Corey Melin
16:53 Mar 06, 2024

Greatly appreciate your comments. Take care

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Mary Bendickson
00:25 Mar 04, 2024

Spoken so well. Enjoy the day. Thanks for liking my flood story. And for 'Hammer Down '.

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