Soulmates..

It was my 18th birthday...I live in a world were when you turn 18 you get a soulmate tattoo..it's my birthday, and i'm getting my tattoo! I looked everywhere on my body then I saw a broken heart under my eye..HM..I didn't understand why it was broken..so i grabbed my laptop, and looked it up. "Only 1 person in the world has this marking. It means their soulmate is either dead or just doesn't believe in soulmates." That means..MY SOULMATE COULD BE DEAD RIGHT NOW!? This is bad..dad threatened to kick me out of the house if this happened! I went to sleep hoping some kind of sign would give me some hope. I woke up the next day to see the broken heart under my eye..gone..the news was on, and my dad was drunk like normal..my mom was probably doing someone in a cheap hotel room..my dad has been an alcoholic my whole life, my mom's been a slut my whole life as well..it hurts to say it but I HATE MYSELF AND MY LIFE! I'm suicidal, and I have not attempted suicide before. IT'S NOT A JOKE! Suicidal people get called fake and would never harm themselves nor attempt suicide is what people have always said. It's not true! We freaking cry our eyes out every freaking night! Anyways I have never felt safe in an relationship before so yeah, I have to go to my graduation today being my graduation day. I have to deal with the bullying and crap for one more day then I am free to do whatever. I started early on college classes. Getting a scholarship from Eastern California State University. I heard the news saying something about me..my dad was asleep thank god! I have orientation tomorrow for college. Anyway it's after graduation I got home went inside and of course I got Valid Victorian. My mother congratulated me, my dad slapping me then me going to my mom's house. When we arrived I went to my room, my room here was amazing LED lights everywhere! A loft bed. My chromebook. MY COSPLAY! Yes I love anime! Anyway I got into my pajamas's and climbed into bed. The next day I went to orientation got to know a few people then the next day school had started. I love the fact that my soulmate mark is gone, and I don't get anymore weird looks. The next day I woke up from my slumber in my dorm. I went to get ready for school. After I got back to my dorm I saw my roommate drawing. I just ignored the fact that I now had a roommate. Whenever I woke up I was going to get ready for school when I realized that it was the weekend. Then I slipped on some decent looking clothes, went to get coffee at Starbucks. I quietly slipped out of the door putting a blanket over her and putting her sketchbook on her nightstand. After I got out I walked down to Starbucks I was excited to get my pink drink. I didn't realize that I had forgotten my chromebook at home I got scared wondering how I forgot while walking into Starbucks. I was gonna cry when I remembered my brother worked here. "Hey lil' sis!" he said to me. "Hey bubba.." I said emotionless. "Someone's feeling down. Were's your soulmate mark?" He said. He then remembered that I told him my soulmate had died. Oh sorry lil' sis.." He said feeling guilty. "Oh it's fine!" I stated telling him what I wanted. He paid for it. "Thanks big bro see ya tomorrow!" I said he giggled. I went home then got an idea to go visit mom. After my visit I found out mom had a new husband, and had gotten a job as lawyer after turning her life back around. I then found out dad wasn't mom's real soulmate. I love my friends and family, well except my dad, he got arrested for public intoxication, and child abuse. I'm majoring in dermatology. After a while of college I was done with all of it. I adopted a kid. I love him to death! My brother got married and had a baby girl. I had found a guy without a soulmate as well and we got married. We were together for at least 10 years..and he left me for some hoe. Soon my younger brother also found his soulmate. I didn't believe in love. My mom had passed away along with my stepdad. My father passes away soon after. I went to my mom's funeral but not my father's. I'm now a dermatologist with a large office in Kentucky! I love my occupation so much. I always told my little brother he'd always find the beauty in everything, my son also loved that phrase. My son was in high school before I had knew it. Little did I know that wouldn't last long. A week later my son got in an accident, and didn't survive. Soon I had figured out at the funeral he had gotten a girl pregnant with a baby, no I was not angry. I loved the fact he stayed with her, and the baby boy. Her parents kicked her out so I let her move in with me. I raised her, and the baby like my own. I loved her, and the baby. I made sure the baby had an amazing life. The baby was still a newborn though which was a bit said but I was fine with it. I still miss having a soulmate. Too bad he died. I love you. I wish you didn't die. I reached up and touched the place under my eye were the soulmate mark was. Tears streaming down my face. That night I went to bed with tears in my eyes, only to wake up from my slumber the next morning to see that same soulmate mark under my eye. "NOT THIS! Here we go again soulmate...."