1st entry.

Hello me. I know we haven't always been a ghost. COVID did that to us. One day we had a career and focus, optimism even. Then the world changed and dragged us along. I admit, we have been a bit of a frog in our focus on how to effect genuine social and environmental change.

Our friends always seemed to agree we need kinder, cleaner, more effective ways to make a living in order to function more consistently at peak energy.

Then one day my optimism crashed. I realized we wern’t going to get there. Plastics and forever chemicals are in everyone's blood streams now, and there's no going back. This killed me. And I'm sorry I feel such a need to apologize to you, but I do. I keep remembering that ancient Hawaiian prayer; Ho Opo Ono ono: "I'm Sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you."

2nd entry.

And so we need to explain why we turned our energy toward deep, long satisfying meditation. We had a reunion with the purpose of our soul. And since the soul is invisible, we became a ghost. The greatest ghost, I will call a yogi. Yogi is a sanscrit word. It simply means union, or to join with. So the great union is apparently the successful development and delivery of consciousness - the daughter of the mind, by means of her body, has been able to know Shiva, the supreme knower of time, and who then becomes capable of leaving her body merely by wishing.

3rd entry.

Somewhere along the way we had a rebirth. Electrical energy took over our body... sending us into a crisis we’ve never quite processed with our family. Spinning in circles, slamming against walls. Moving into yoga postures we could never accomplish on our own. Spontaneous mudras (hand dancing communication) became the norm.

4th entry.

Then we went on a pilgrimage. We found ourself visiting the monasteries in the Himalayas and taking up a serious Kriya practice (visually placing the breath inside the spine to draw it from the base to the crown slowly, very slowly. Sometimes ringing our chakras like a bell along the way). The monestaries have ancient libraries with papyrus scrolls containing writings that are written in sanscrit as histories. They hold records going back manys thousands of years. In those scrolls is a story of a man from Jerusalem who came seeking knowledge. He stayed for thirty years. His teacher's name was "Chetan nath." Once he had accomplished all the kriyas and mudras, Chetan nath sent him home. There is a book called prayers of the cosmos. They are the Aramaic words of Jesus translated into english. In the beginning of the beatitudes it reads "Oh father-mother God, blessed are those who find their home in the breathing."

Suddenly we were devouring teachings like the Shiva Sutras. Shiva is known to Hindu's as the Lord of Time. Shiva teaches us that consciousness is soul. Consciousness is of immense mind, which is manifested by means of the body, and is the cause of the feeling of being. Consciousness of mind is soul. He also teaches that knowledge is bondage. The immense mind, which is manifested by means of the body, adopts physical limitations to know the totality of it's own consciousness and also the one who manifests it. Said in other words, it limits itself in a bond with the body for the sake of knowing itself.

I practiced like this for maybe thirty years. I became an authorized Kriya teacher. Then I died again. And I became a ghost. Again. And this is when I met you. And you pointed me back again to the words of the Lord of Time: "By concentration of the mind into the core it knows its invisible form and is then established beyond the visible. The sublime consciousness element that is manifested by means of the entire visible world is also the cause of manifestation of the mind. When mind concentrates into itself with a strong will power, through its own consciousness by means of a body, it experiences its immense invisible existence that lies beyond the physical limits. Subsequently it gets the experience of the existence of the element of Conscious Void, which lies beyond the entire visible world, and is experienced through the medium of vision." I came to understand that this conscious void is what Christians refer to as "God". And Hindus refer to it as "Brahman".

4th entry.

Our life now is very fluid. We have nothing figured out. We work as needed at supporting others on whatever journeys we're invited on, and feel inspired to join. We move from now, to now. Our emotions are very stable, calm, soothing to our soul. Peace. This is a nice word. It describes our interior well.

This doesn't mean we don't love to play. To get rough with giggling ridiculous humor at anything in the world that tickles our funny bone. Even horror movies make us laugh. Everything seems ridiculous when it triggers unnecessary fear.

Our heart is deeply moved to compassion when seeing how much people suffer. How angry they become when fear overwhelms them. It taught us to be careful about placing our mind into our heart before we speak.

5th entry.

Now, we wish to invisibly move energy from negative to positive. To use our breath to keep our insides well showered or washed with loving attention to what matters. This way…no matter what, we can remember how to evolve. Love-evol when we love, we evolve. Evolution. Volution. Being compelled forward from now to now using love as the catalyst… through the simple movement of time.

Yes. There is darkness. Hello. It can be loads of fun to explore when the light of love is seeking to play with energy and as a side effect stimulate the movement and growth that happens anytime energy moves.

Since we already died, and we are already a ghost, this feels quite safe.

This perspective often triggers anger at us, and causes folks to question our mental health. Rest assured, peace and stability within is very healthy. Owning this state of mind can truly piss people off. Why? Because we have simply decided not to join them in suffering.

The generation coming up under us already knows a lot of this. Just ask Zack Bush. Or Otto Sharmer. Or Depak Chopra. Or any other "Guruji" or beloved teacher. Enlightenment is simply someone who owns their own inner light. We are very much not alone in this perspective. Yet it did take committed practice to truly understand how to arrive. And then, yes, we had to die. Daily. Deep in meditative emptiness we became our true self. A ghost.