COMING HOME TO MEMORIES

Niagara Falls, a beautiful sight to see. The falls has away of taking you on a magical journey. For me looking at the falls is very emotional, it brings back a lot of memories.

I love everything about Niagara Falls. What I love most is going upon the boat rides. It was on one of these boat rides where the love of my life proposed to me. Oh My God! I knew this would happen. Tears are beginning to come down my face.

The memories of Jesse's magical proposal is still real as ever. Me and Jesse hand in hand got on the boat, he held me so the water wouldn't get all over me. As we got near to the falls Jesse got down on one knee and asked me to marry him.

I of course said yes. The magic of the falls worked on me and Jesse. We have been happily married for three years. But lately things between me and me and Jesse have been tough.

Jesse, for the last few months has been suffering from night terrors as a result from his military service. It kills me every time Jesse wakes up from one of his nightmares. it pains me because I don't know how to help him.

I have tried everything to get Jesse ton open up to me but he closes me off every single time. I don't know what else to do. I hope by coming to the falls this would help me during my troubles, to help Jesse during his troubles and to help me find a way to help Jesse.

The falls are beautiful at this time of the year. The weather is beautiful, families are enjoying themselves. I especially love when the couples get engaged. It reminds of the day Jesse proposed. Here we go again. I can't help myself. The memories are coming back in a rush. Jesse, I need you to come back to me.

Help me beautiful falls bring my love back to me, to make him whole again and to make him love again.

Jesse is a good man. He doesn't deserve to be haunted by his past. Jesse deserves to live a life free of his burdens, free of war. I love this man so much and it breaks my heart to see him like this. I want to help him rediscovery who he is as a man and as a husband.

I'm here in the same hotel room me and Jesse stayed in the day he proposed to me. Memories of our time spent here are so beautiful and I shall not go into details of what we did that night. All I can say is I will remember that night for the rest of my life.

Wow, the falls are beautiful at night. The way the moonlight bounces off of the falls is magnificent. I wish Jesse can see the falls right now as it is.

I sit on the bench overlooking the falls and begin to think of ways I can help Jesse overcome his night terrors. Jesse my love you will overcome this and we will be whole again.

"Hello my dear. May I sit next to you?" I nod.

"What is your name?" I look at the strange lady.

"Bella." I tell her.

"Hello Bella. My name is Sandy. The falls are beautiful tonight."

I nod. What does this lady want from me? I want to be left alone so I can think about how to help Jesse.

"I don't mean to be interrupt you, I'm here to help you."

"How?" I ask.

Sandy begins to tell me her husband was in the military just like Jesse. She continues by telling me how she tried to help her husband overcome his night terrors but she failed and sadly her husband took his own life.

"What I'm trying to tell you Bella is don't give up on your husband. Fight hard and never stop no matter what your husband says or does."

Sandy says her goodbyes and leaves. Poor Sandy she lost her husband. I can't imagine the pain she's going through. I don't want to feel her pain. Sandy's words tug at my heart.

Send me a sign beautiful falls, I close my eyes and pray for a sign. I open my eyes and look down. This is just what Jesse needs. He needs to be reminded that love and healing are with in him. Jesse just needs to let it all out and I'm going to help him do that.

I rush back back to my room and send messages to Jesse's brothers in the Army and their wives. I tell them to come to Niagara Falls and to bring Jesse. I have a surprise for him.

I get immediate responses back. They are all in. This is going to be amazing present for Jesse. I am going to remind him of all the memories we enjoyed together and all the memories we can enjoy in the future and we are going to have fun as well.

The next morning I get up, quickly take a shower, get dress and head out to make and finish my plans for Jesse's surprise. Everything is ready. I paid huge amounts of money for the boat snd food. Jesse is worth the money I spent. I got Jesse's favorite food burgers and sandwiches.

Jesse is going to love this and be reminded of my love for him and that life is worth living. Yes, life is worth living, all the things of the past can be overcome with help from those you love.

Joy and happiness is inside Jesse. He just needs to believe it. Jesse needs to believe that he is a good man. Jesse might have done things he's not proud of but I know and he knows he did it in service to this country.

Jesse and his friends are here. I go and meet them. I say hello to Jesse's brothers and their wives, then my eyes land on Jesse. He does not look happy.

"Why am I here?'

"Let's get on the boat."

I lead everyone to the boat and an unhappy Jesse. I hear the gasps of everyone. I see Jesse's face and I know memories of our time here are coming back to him.

"Eat up."

The boat is leaving and heading to the falls. I look around and see everyone enjoying themselves.

Jesse is standing in the back of the boat. I walk to him. His eyes are closed. I turn to leave when I hear Jesse telling me to wait.

I stop turn around and walk closer to Jesse. he grabs my hand and tells me "I remember being here three years ago, the day I asked the most beautiful woman to marry me. That was the best day of my life not counting our wedding day. Why did you bring me back here?"

"I brought you back here to remind you of the special memory we had here. To remind you that life is worth living. To remind you, you can heal from the past. To remind you we can create new memories together and to remind you I will not stop trying to help you. I love you Jesse."

Jesse grabs my hand. We walk together to the front of the boat, the same spot where Jesse proposed. He turns to me and tells me "I love you Bella. I will try hard everyday to heal, to get better so we can create new memories together."

"That's all I want Jesse."

The magic of the falls worked. Me and Jesse look at the falls together and we kiss.