A moment in time

10:18 am

Lot 10

It’s nice today. The sun is finally peeping out. It’s creeping up over the horizon in a brilliant display of various shades orange and yellow. It looks just like a painting. I’m so grateful for the sunshine.It’s been raining for days. I am also grateful for the birds singing their glorious melodies. I see fish jumping in the inlet in between the lotus flowers, what beautiful flowers they are. I love the way they reach up toward the sky, searching for the warmth of the sun. I see a butterfly, fluttering about, it’s colorful wings riding the slight breeze. I’m so lucky to be able to enjoy this morning. Stretch up to the sky – reaching as high as I can. Grab the sunshine. Stretch down to the ground. Feel the ground beneath my fingers. The world looks just as wonderful upside down. I see the flowers trying to peek out from their winter lairs, looking for the warmth of that glorious sunshine. I’m feeling grounded now, sitting on this mat. I can feel the earth under the mat, still chilly and damp from the rain. I appreciate the juxtaposition between the cool, damp earth underneath me and the warmth of the brilliant sun from above. I am so grateful for this wonderful day.

Lot 20

It’s nice today. Whatever. Doesn’t make any matter to me. Not going outside anyway. I should eat something. My stomach is hurting again. I should go to the doctor. No, they’ll just want to run some tests. Been there done that. I’m pretty sure it’s back anyway. At my age what’s the point trying to stop it. Waste of time and money. And they’ve already taken most of my money the first time. Nope, I’ll just let it get me this time. Probably should call the kids. Nah, they’ll just worry and want me to come back and fight it again.Can’t be a burden again. No, better to say nothing. I should get outside to feel the sun. It would probably warm me up. Not sure why I feel so cold today. Maybe some coffee would help. No, I probably couldn’t keep it down right now. I see a dog. I remember when I had a dog, he was such a good dog. We used to go for walks, I used to take him everywhere with me.Used to be what got me up in the morning. Kept me company after Mabel died. Now he’s gone too. There’s no one left. I think I’ll go back to bed.

Lot 7

It’s nice today. I see the sun out. That’s great. It’s been raining for days. I didn’t count how many but it seems like a lot. We couldn’t go outside cause we didn’t bring our raincoats or boots. I hope we can go outside today. I want to see if there are any worms. I bet if I catch some we can go fishing. I love to fish. I don’t like putting the worms on the hook or cleaning the fish but I love reeling the fish back in. Ugh, I don’t want to eat my breakfast, I want to go outside. Can I go now? I ate my cereal. I put my bowl in the sink. WHY? WHY? WHY? I don’t want to brush my teeth. I’m just going to eat later and they’re gonna get dirty again so what’s the point? Fine, I’ll go. But then I’m going outside. Why do I have to put on shoes? Fine, I’ll put them on. Can I go outside now? Fine, I’ll take the trash out. And then can I go to the playground? Why do I have to take PJ? That’s not fair. He’s always following me around. He’s such a baby. Fine, I’ll take him. I’ll be back in a while. I don’t know, maybe a couple of hours. Why do I have to check in in an hour? I’m not a baby. I know how to take care of myself. Fine, I’ll check in in an hour. Now, can I please go? Come on PJ, let’s go.

Lot 11

It’s a nice day today. The sun is trying to shine. I heard it’s going to be almost 70 today. This coffee is sooo good. I hope the kids sleep late today and let me enjoy it. Probably not, but one can hope. I would have liked to sleep longer but I can’t miss my few minutes of solitude and coffee before the chaos. It’s the only few minutes of the day I have. I’m going to enjoy it. What should I feed the kids for breakfast? I guess I could pop some waffles in the toaster. That would be quick. And if I put them on paper plates, less dishes. That would be great, since I’ve already got a counter full from dinner last night. I can get the kids started on their lessons while I get the dishes washed. I guess I better see how many quarters I’ve got left. Laundry will take me half the afternoon but it’s gotta be done. I knew I should have done it yesterday while it was raining. I’m going to regret being cooped up inside all day when that beautiful sun is shining and it’s warm. I think I’ll enjoy a second cup of coffee. Oh no, I hear kids whispering…I better hurry.

Lot 19

It’s nice today. The sun is finally shining. It looks warm out, I sure would like to get out there and enjoy it. I would like to feel it on my face, just for a few minutes. Maybe at lunch, if I get one. I’ve got so much to do today to meet my deadlines I’m not sure how I’m going to get it all done. I better get started right now. Just one more sip of coffee, to get the juices flowing, literally. Oh no, where did all these emails come from? Maybe I should just ignore them, It’ll take forever to get through them all and I’m already behind schedule. I can get to them tonight. Or maybe in the morning. I need to finish the proposal first and get it set over for approval. While I’m waiting for that I can start on the next one. Then I’ll finish that article I’m writing then..then…then. I can see the sun is all the way up over the horizon now. I bet it’s going to be beautiful out there. I wish I had a moment to get out there for a few minutes to enjoy it. I’d like to go shopping and get some new clothes for summer. I need some new sandals, maybe a new swimsuit or two. It would be great to plan a trip to the beach. Maybe I’ll use that bonus to book a trip, a cruise maybe. To a warm beach with unlimited drinks. Maybe later.

Lot 22

It’s nice today. Finally, that damned rain stopped. It doesn’t make any matter to me. I’m hungry but can’t eat until lunch. I’ve only got 2 packs of ramen left and have to make them last. One for today, one for tomorrow. Then..I’ll have to figure something out. I don’t know what I’m going to do if I don’t find a job soon. Lot rent and the electricity bill are due in a couple of weeks.I don’t know how I’m going to pay them. If the car didn’t need gas I could go looking for a job. Maybe I’ll try looking online again if the wi-fi is working in the lodge. I hope it’s fixed now so I can find something. I gotta find something soon. I don’t understand why I’ve applied to so many and haven’t heard anything back. I just need a break. If I could just get a break I could catch everything up. Maybe I’ll ask at the office, see if they’ve got anything I can do for a little money. If I could just find something, anything, I could get back on track. What a shitty day. Please let me find something.

Lot 5

nice today. no rain. sun’s out. look at the lake. fish jumping. hungry. eat. breakfast. nuts. see my brother. chase.no, eat first. nice branch. easy to balance. jump. run. jump. run. down. bark tickles my belly. run. stop. what’s that. brother. no play .hungry. there’s some nuts. mmm. no play. eating. over there. more nuts. mmm. belly full. look out brother. run fast. gotta get up the tree. run down. I am faster. run, run, run. more nuts. yum. belly full. need a nap. tail looks bushy today. zzzzzz.

Lot 6

It’s nice today. Going for a long walk. Going to sniff everything. I hope we’re going to the lake. I love the lake. I love swimming. I love chasing the stick into the water. I’m a good boy. I’m thirsty. Watch the way the water drips from my mouth. Watch me shake it off. Watch me run around in circles. Oops, I got slobber on your clean pants. I’m so adorable. Watch me get the ball. Are we going for a walk yet? That’s my squeaky. Throw it, throw it. Are we going for a walk yet? Are we? I’ve gotta poop. That looks like a good spot. No, not quite right. Maybe here. No, not quite right either. I think I’ve found it. Nope, keep looking. Ahhh…just the right spot. That’s better. Watch me throw dirt everywhere. Watch me run in circles. Watch me, watch me, watch me…SQUIRRELL!