I'll Love You More Tomorrow

The following letters are based on actual events in my own life. The letters themselves are made up but are based on true feelings and conversations. Dates are also modified.

November 12, 2024

My hubs, it’s been about a month since you deployed. Honestly, it mostly has just sucked. But those first couple of weeks weren’t so bad because I truly thought I may have gotten pregnant right before you left… you know how we’ve wanted that so badly. I figured… what the hell, if I get pregnant right before my husband deploys, at least I’ll know I got pregnant. It made the two-week-wait worth it. But I just started my cycle over again at the start of the month. Now we have to wait again. Now the last couple weeks have been agonizing. We had to wait so long just to see the specialist, then of course we only got to be seen once before you left. But here’s to the next half year. Our future still has hope. I’ll be okay. It helps that we can video chat and message each other pretty much any day we want! I love you more today.

December 8, 2024

…and I’ll love you more tomorrow! It means even more now since I am 9 hours ahead of you in time. That basically puts me in the future! I know how hard this season of infertility and growing our family has been. Basically, our whole marriage. But I’m in this with you, sweetheart. You know I’m not as good with words as you, but I’ll write when I can! I’m also glad I can see your face and hear your voice most days though. I know you’re getting ready for your drive to Arizona to see family and friends for Christmas. I wish so badly I could drive my passenger princess the whole way (I know, I know, you hate when I call you that, sue me!). Hang in there, though! You’ll be just fine making this long drive.

January 20, 2025

My love! I know we’ve talked a lot about the trip already over the phone, but I’ll still reiterate that it wasn’t the same without you. I’m glad I could see your family as well as mine. Remember the other day when you told me about going to that theme park two hours from base over there? I didn’t share it before since it wasn’t a big deal. It isn’t. But I’m sharing now because it’s been stuck in my heart. The thing is, I’m happy you got to hang out with your team and get out of the rut of deployment stuff. I just wish I could experience it with you… not the deployment stuff, but the theme park and experiencing a new culture. There’s no advice I need or fix necessary, but I feel better sharing it. Anyway, I miss you. Luka misses you too. 

Oh... and we’ll talk about it over the phone before you even see this letter, but I had some minor cosmetic damage on my bumper. I hit the lamppost in the church parking lot. It was dark, icy, and someone’s stupid headlights were on as they sat in the parking lot. Maybe they had a child inside playing volleyball or something… but the car is fine. I’m fine. We’ll talk about it more soon.

February 2, 2025

Sweetheart, thank you for telling me about your feelings about my excursion. I wish you came with me too. There were rides I wanted you to join me on and a Harry Potter area you would've enjoyed. Now some of it has Arabic on it, but I have some Harry Potter merch for us both! Sucks about the car… especially since my car needs to be replaced when I get back. It’ll be okay. Let’s not worry about an insurance claim on yours. The deductible is still $1,000 and if the car is running fine, it can wait. We don’t want monthly premiums to go up. I miss you, my wife, and our sweet doggy. It won’t be long. We are over halfway! I love you!

March 10, 2025

My love, you already know the care package is on the way! It’s in Bahrain as I write this so by the time you get this letter, you’ll have it. It’s the anniversary one, of course, so it’s my favorite one I’ve sent you (even more than the Christmas one). How’s the morale over there? I know you can’t really share anything about work, about what you’re doing or maybe seeing over there. Still, I like to know how you’re doing. It’s hard not to be a part of your life, like in the ways we used to be. You know what I mean? We have our regular video calls, and these letters, but that’s all we’ve got to sustain our marriage. I’m not saying our marriage is in trouble. The house is just lonely. Things are different, that’s all. I love you so much, my love. Being a military wife is somehow the hardest thing but the most rewarding thing I could be. I’m all in this. As hard as things get, you’re stuck with me.

March 24, 2025

Hi sweetheart! I’m so glad to be stuck with you. Also, you’re right, I have the package! I know we’ll talk about when I can open it soon, but it’s sitting on the top bunk right now and I look forward to opening it any day now, next time we talk hopefully. I know whatever you sent, I’ll love. I loved the Christmas one obviously, except for all the glitter that fell out! I still find some on the carpet. As for morale, eh. I mean, mostly everyone’s okay. Just in routine. Maybe it’s good there’s nothing major to report. No news truly is good news over here. And I’m okay. I miss you, of course. That always sucks. But I see you next month! I love you more today and I’ll love you more tomorrow…and next month!