Foreign lover

I can't stop my tears. Feeling like alone. I take for drink water glass.

"Mom where are you"

"I'm here baby"

"Come here my son"

"Mom, are you Angry with me? Whole day didn't talk me"

" No no my little son.I made u special foods. I want surprise you"

Suddenly coming tears back I can't stop. Today is my son's 4th one birthday.my son is my world I haven't anything.

6 years ago I was live with my parents. My parents are poor but they are rich of from kindful.that times I want to study and polish english knowledge. I so try it. I completed english certificate course and paid attention english classes. however I can't satisfied

Last time I joined with group it had only foreigners. I can't believe it bcz I never met foreigners. By the way I type message and send group" good morning"

But nobody response it. I thought they are don't care me

Suddenly I remember country to country different times. However I share with others ideas. 2 month like I can't join conversation bcz I was help my parents for Garden

So, I thought I want to left group. I left

This time changed inconceivable

Some group mate ask me why you left suddenly

I don't care his message. Bcz I give up learning English.

Again he text me after 2 days

Yeah two month spend with him whole day. One day he wasn't in online I so afraid. I don't know why I so afraid

However he again come online I scold him bcz haven't online

He said me "sorry my friend I have some test and prepared file for college exam"

He said "Am I ask something from you"

I said it's okay

He said " Actually...... I love you.... Please don't blame me I said serious I love you my cutie.. you are so special my life

Suddenly I dumb . I see his msg long time I can't believe he ask this type message. I never fall in love someone.......

However he is so distance country and his language, nations, religion also so different what I doing I was overthinking about.....

After 01 year

However I accept his proposal

We were organised our date. I know we are so distance but he serious love me

He informed me "I prepared visa"

At Time I so many happy and impatiently will meet him.

Yeah spend time and as soon as our date

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"Baby... I'm in now sky I coming soon...." He called me

This is my 1st meet I'm lifeless like and shimmy like

However I strong my mind I'm in now airport I'm waiting ....

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Oh he is coming I run his near and tightly Hug him

I can't explain that time and I so happy and came tears

" Don't cry my cutie I'm now with u I never give up you"

He give me something

He said open it

" Wowwwww my favourite chocolate and more gifts" I again hug him

This is our first meet however I'm talk less with him bcz my English knowledge poor.

........... He spend with me 3 days his visa expired after 4 days

He beg from me please come with me in my country.

" I can't without live my parents. I so love them" I said.

He wasn't talk anything bcz he hold sad.

We are now in airport. He touched my hand and said I will come next time. Please ready for come my country. My mouth dumb I so many cry that time.

.......... Because only time is capable of understanding how valuable love is ... I wear every night his jersey bcz he give me for memorise.. I so caring his gift

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After three months after he selected higher education. I wish him. My aim is one day he became doctor. I always not chat him.

After day my colleague friend talk me for go town

She and me prepare it morning

I went her scooter. Suddenly my feelings like faint and I vomit. my body like lifeless. she said please let's go hospital and check

Yesterday I eat some hotel foods I think it's allergic I said her

We were went hospital

Doctor checked me and take urine test

After moment...

" Oh you are now pregnant"

I afraid how I face my family

They will killed me

" congratulations my bestie. But what are you doing "

We are both college students

But I can't abortion my child

Also I can't talk my boyfriend bcz he start his medical degree

I select choice I went job for garment. My friend's aunt's home near it

Whatever

I said my parents my job training is start next week I want to complete and I will come back for see my mom.

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My friend was come here bcz my baby born day soon

At that day I can't calm My body so pain and hard .

Her aunt suddenly talk taxi vehicle and went to hospital.

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" You are so lucky my friend. You born baby boy so beautiful "

I so happy her words

I take my baby my hand

His face, blue eyes and All things same like his dad.

So sorry my (unknown) lover. Please forgive me

Whatever I keep secret from my lover. if I said him otherwise he lose his degree.

Doctor is so important for world

I love you my boyfriend and my child. I slowly hug my little baby

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" Mom, mom, mom,moomm why are u cry mom ....? I suddenly come present life. my child now 4 years old

" No no my little diamond, do you like to see your dad? we will as soon as meet him. Mom is not cry my son"....

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My boyfriend but he isn't boyfriend yet he is now my husband.

He completed his degree.

Next week he definitely come for see me.

I so many happy because he completed his degree

Me and my baby son waiting for his visit

I Will want to surprise my husband............. my feeling broken but I can recover soon. all of the world's problems can be solved with solutions. However I have confidence with him also I trust his executive ability In my whole heart