change

i need to come clean i need to confess ,please, i have done wrong in my life, i have taking my life in the wrong direction, i don't want it to end down the drain i need to fix this, i need to change have some growth, i'm tired of this life, the same thing over and over again, i want something new, something fresh, CHANGE, not just something fresh but a makeover, a renewal, i seek to find something new, i seek to find someone true, someone to care, love and protect me, to be there when i am feeling badly, i know whoever is reading this will think my life is a mess but truly it's just needs some change something cool something not so plain. i seek to find love in the world but come up short with nother other than, what i make of my life, this confusing mess that's just not right i need to find change, i need to find truth something just is ought to change, something to confirm my thoughts, i will one day begin to see, what i have missed in my fog, the good things that came and went, the good things that meant something. i passed i by looking for more, something outside the inner core. I thought I might begin to see, what meant so much more to me, that stuff, the food, money and work, that friends family and true love, i feel that i have had to much dealt, i haven't been able to feel what I truly felt, that i have Ignored it all and blocked it out, but i still search for something else, maybe a meaningful relationship or a true friend to vent, someone to truly agree with what I meant, i don't ever mean to be a bag of Burden, but i know something for certain, I made a mess of my life and it needs to change, something needs to be rearranged,that doesn't mean that i'm a terrible person, it just means i need love for certain. so i look up above and say, show me how to love again, please forgive my battle face, i need to find some more grace, i hold in the restlessness, the hurt, the pain that nobody understands, i just want my secret to be out, to come clean, a new chance to be me, to have no doubt, i want everyone to begin to see how nice i actually can be, i not a villain i mean no harm, i just have some stuff to figure out. i have now begin to see how you have taking care of me, i now will go and be free, to love, to care, please let me be free, i know that i have been a bit harsh, direct, rude and mad but i have changed, haven't i? please just forgive me, i beg i plead i need you to just let go of me, i need to know how it feels to be me to have a window into a minute of my life. now i will start to go on about all the good that i have done, you know that i have cared for mom, loved your son and while doing it had some fun, i try to live a happy life while doing something that i know i thrive at, please try to understand, i've done somethings that had pulled us apart,but now to bring us together, something to make us better, i bought a elite, special Cruise, to the caribbean, come on, there's nothing to lose and while were there we can talk about the different rules. we need to have some fun together, to learn how to live, have some fun! to you and to me i will find away to agree with you, now we will have a chance to bond, you won't regret this easy choice to sit next to me, please we will begin to agree, i need this next chance at life let take a step together dad, for you have lost so much, take the rest, now that mom has passed and your only getting older lets take the jump take the leap, please i'd plead, i know that i get to be annoying, bothersome, irritating and maybe boring , but i am your daughter, please just take this opportunity, not just to support me but to just spend time with me, i love you i care for you and i'd do anything in the world for you, i know you have always been there for me so now here i am asking for something from you all over again, don't take it personal, don't be angry, just know that i am here for you this time, YOU. i want to support you this time, i know i wasn't there all the time for you but i'm making it up to you, please dad, this is not a ''scam'' i love you, i care for you, but now, NOW i want you to see that you mean so much more to me. now you just have to think it over, and while your doing that try to forgive me, together we can sail away, leaving all our worries behind, we can sail away into a misty cloud side-by-side, buy some clothes and pack your bags and lets start new. let's agree to agree we both need this so much, a fresh start, clean slate, a fresh start, i will say it over and over again and again, take in as a thanks, appreciation, you are the best dad, person, human in the world, (i may be a little bias) but i feel it in my bones.

The confession of a lonely daughter apologizing while seeking forgiveness, change, growth, something new, that is trying to turn her life around and make things right with her friends, family, and most of all her one and only dad with a apology and a cruise.