Later, tater.

Potato, Potato.

Tomato, Tomato.

Two sides of the same coin when flipped are deceit and deception. What becomes of choice.

He provides.

The “rest” is a chaotic stream of consciousness.

Thank God warriors still exist. In our consciousness. In the world. Who have paid the dues.

We bat. We ball.

We sit.We crawl.

All in an effort to see another day. There must be more to life than a day spent playing back up.

We oftentimes, cannot grasp the importance of a moment. The moment Henis the role model who has been right before our eyes. Even better, when a human person steps into the role. He chose for us. as with a lot in life, trust wanes and confidence pains us into not wanting to trust in the first place.

Pain. I want it to go away. His strength is in knowing the way of showing the weak we do not need to handle with Him on our side. Connection seems distant.

He is on our side. We may not like the momentary message of “Hey, get over it. I am here.” Because our fight was lost in the sadness and pain of the chaos that we did not understand.

And. May never understand.

He wants peace and calm for us.

Life gets so complicated and all.

We really DO need one another, but are so afraid to ask or even worse we feel weak when we do not ask or know how to ask.

It isn’t even an ask of forgiveness.

Why?

Pride.

Gets in the way of our asking for help in the deepest times of vulnerable fear.

We reach out.

We recess.

We cave into the fear that is too much to bear.

An eye for an eye.

A tooth for a tooth.

In our modern times the stakes have become impossible to bear by the common man. We are all common men. But our arrogance lends us the “time” to dupe the other into thinking we are better,

He has a plan. He really does. We stupidly ignore it in the arrogance that we know better what to do to right the wrong.

Broken?

Just ask the rat. The hamster. Who goes round and round on the wheel dizzyingly so. The hamster does not even know the why he (or she) travels endless hours on a wheel on the road to nowhere. If we readily admit our confusion about the road to nowhere, perhaps it is a start, a move in the right direction of less pain, and more peace. in the meantime until we get there, it may be the same old same old.

Why?

The lie we tell ourselves.

Pain.

Hurts.

To hope it will “go away.” “Poof” like magic fairy dust. We are scared and the now the proverbial hamster running on the wheel of never ending never end. Beneath it all, we pretend all is ok, when the hurt takes on a life of its own and wrecks the very soul it is trying to kill. Double whammy.

“I am fine.” We project to the world. When deep inside we ask,

”Please understand me.” My hurts, my uglies, my insecurities.

The first step to admitting there is a problem is admitting there is a problem. How else is there to be any tangible remedy?

What is it a human wants.? Perhaps it is a moment of strength as if to say I wish I would have said this because your hurt is just too much for me right now.

What is it that you want. (om)

Acceptance.

Power.

Revenge.

Peace.

Manifesting Destiny with never ending baggage that keeps getting heavier and heavier. Clearly no way to live, and a perpetually unaware way to die. Painful in the moment. Painful in the long run. Painful all around. We believe we can cheat death in our most arrogant moments of life.

We desire control, yet feel powerless to control our own surroundings much less the minutiae of the moment of projection and constant rejection.

We pretend to have it. We got this. But we do not. We lie mostly to ourselves. We lie to others, too.

Afraid to admit the damage we may have caused in the interest of someone else having to pay for it. We, believers, after all, will be required to atone, one way or another at the gates of heaven. For our own wrongdoing. The weak will continue to use the weaker to pile on their lies and fears on. Hamster wheel.

In some cases, we will accept this fate. In some sadder cases there will be less than a choice to accept that which we cannot. Or will not. Or choose not to.

There must exist heartfelt sorrow for the wrong committed and a desire.

A desire. (om) To turn away from the hurt and the devour of our fellow man. There was a man, Zacchaeus, “Z” a person of example in the Bible, who learned the hard way of life after encounter taking a Jesus pledge to repay those he had defrauded four hold. It was only after he met with Jesus and learned truly resolve that “Z” was even able to ask for repentance leading to restitution.

”Z” began the process of righting the wrong, restoring what was damaged, making truth known.

The sad truth in that when the victim cannot be found, the hamster wheel goes round and round and money simply speaks so loudly in the ears of the victim.

At this point of the fearful and those unwilling to admit wrongdoing, “Z” made an effort to right the wrong. That says something about Jesus powers.

The best that can occur is the peace that passes understanding.

Forgiveness and reconciliation are distinctly worth paying attention. Along with humility and sincerity both parties, although may not “Get it.” The willingness to forgive and admit wrongdoing goes along way to the narrow path of His followers.

One cannot fake it.

One cannot talk their way our of it.

To make amends take time.

It takes your time.

It takes my time

It takes a whole lot of patience and peaceful understanding that strong connections do matter .