MINE FREEDOM

TW: domestic violence, forced abrotion

I HAVE ALWAYS ENDURE PAIN. AS DAUGTHER I WAS ALWAYS BURDEN TO MY FATHER. MY MOTHER DIED GIVING BIRTH TO ME. I WAS HATED BY EVERYONE IN FAMILY. AND TO REDUCE THE BURDEN WHEN VILLAGE NEEDED SOME GIRL TO MAKE PEACE TREATY WITH OTHER VILLAGE. I WAS SCARIFICED BY MY FATHER. HE HAD RECEIVED VERY LARGE AMOUNT OF DOWRY. I HAD ALWAYS DREAM THAT AFTER MARRIAGE MY LIFE WILL CHANGE. BUT SOON MY HOPES WERE CRUSHED. TO MY HUSBAND I WAS JUST HIS SLAVE. I WAS GOOD FOR NOTHING FOR HIM. ALTHOUGH I AM PERGNANT WITH HIS CHILD. STILL I UNDERGO HIS BEATING. BECAUSE I AM GOING TO GIVE A BIRTH TO GIRL. IN OUR VILLAGE AND NEAR BY VILLAGES GIRLS ARE BOUND TO BE BURDEN TO THEIR PARENTS. AND MY HUSBAND AND IN LAWS WANT TO GET RID OF MY BABY. TOMORROW I AM UNDERGOING ABORTION. NOT WILINGLY BUT FORCEFULLY. HOW CAN WORLD BE SO CRUEL TO KILL UNBORN CHILD JUST BECAUSE SHE IS GIRL. WHEN EVERYONE WAS SLEEPING IN HOME IS WAS WIDE AWAKE. I DON'T WANT THEM TO KILL MY CHILD. BUT WHAT IF SHE LIVES? BECAUSE SHE IS GIRL SHE ALSO ENDURE SAME FAITH AS ME? UNDERGO BEATING EVERYDAY? I DON'T WANT HER TO LIVE THIS LIFE. ARE THEY DOING RIGTH BY KILLING HER IN MY STOMACH? RATHER THEN LEAVING LIFE LIKE A SLAVE? IF I WANT TO SAVE HER I CAN'T LET HER LIVE IN THIS FAMILY. I WAS RESTLESS SO, I CAME TO TREASE TO STROLL. SUDDENLY A COOL BREEZE HIT MY BODY. AND A PIECE OF PAPAER CAME THROUGH BREEZE. I READ IT. IT IS MY ONLY HOPE LEFT.

NEXT DAY

I WAS DRAGGED BY MY HUSBAND TO HOSPITAL. I AM READY FOR ABORTION. I JUST NEED TO VISIT TEMPLE FOR PRAYER SO I CAN HAVE ABORTION WITHOUT SIDEEFFECTS.

"OK. BUT I WILL NOT ENTER TEMPLE AND YOU HAVE ONLY TEN MINUTES" MY HUSBAND SAID.

AS I REACHED TEMPLE FORM BACKSIDE OF TEMPLE I RANAWAY TO NEAREST BUS STATION AND GOT IN BUS FOR CITY. THAT PAPER WAS JOB OPENING FOR THE POST OF NANNY WITH FOOD AND LIVING FACILITY AND PAYMENT IS ALSO GOOD.

I REACHED THE DESTENTION. AND RECIEVED MY JOB. AND AFTER FEW MONTHS I GAVE BIRTH TO YOU MY TEASURE. BUT AFTER YOUR BIRTH TIME BECOME DIFFICULT FOR ME. SOON THE MONEY I HAD SAVED WERE USED AND MY JOB WAS NO MORE AND YOU WERE VERY LITTLE SO , I CAN'T LEAVE YOU ALONE AND GO TO WORK. FROM THAT CITY WE MOVED TO OTHER IN SREACH OF JOB. BUT ALL WAS IN VAIN. THEN WE AGAIN SWITCH TO OTHER CITY. I HAD NOT EATEN ANY FOOD FOR 3 DAYS. I WAS VERY WEAK. IN HOPE THAT WE COULD GET SOMETHING TO EAT I WENT IN CITY MARKET WHILE CARRYING YOU IN MY ARMS. I BEGGED FOR WHOLE DAY AND I WAS ABLE TO GET 1 BANANA. WHICH I FED TO YOU. SOON SUN HAS SET AND I STARTED WALKING WITH YOU TOWARDS DIRECTION OF TEMPLE SUDDLENY A LOUD SOUND OF CAR CAME BEFORE I COULD REACT. I WAS HIT BY CAR. NEXT DAY WHEN I WOKE I WAS ON A COMFORTABLE BED LYING BESIDE YOU. THEN STUNING WOMEN CAME. SHE APOLOGIES ME FOR HITTING WITH CAR. SHE PROVIDE US SOME BREAKFAST AND WE WERE GOING TO LEAVE FROM THAT PLACE AFTER HAVING SO DELICIOUS FOOD AFTER LONG TIME. SHE WAS SOCIAL WORKER. SHE ASLKED ME ABOUT MY FAMILY. I SAID YOU ARE ONLY MY FAMILY. SHE LET US STAY WITH HER. SHE PROVIDED US ALL BASIC NEEDS. SHE HELP ME TO STUDY SOME SITCHING COURCE AND HELP ME TO BECOME FASHION DISGNER. SHE ALSO TOOK CARE OF YOU AND HELP FOR YOUR EDUCATION. I WILL BE ALWAYS GRATEFUL FOR HEAR. BUT SUDDENLY UNFOURNATE EVENT HAPPEN YOU WERE MERELY TWO YEARS OLD AT THAT TIME. SHE WAS PROTESTING AGAINST GIRL CHILD ABORTION. AND ONE OF THE ANGERY VILLAGER ATTACKED HER.

SHE WAS STABBED IN STOMACH AND LEAVE TO DIE ON HIGHWAY. I WAS WORRIED ABOUT HER.I SEREACHED FOR HER NEARBY AREA STILL THEIR WAS NO SIGN OF HER SO, I INFORMED ABOUT HER MISSING TO HER NGO, POLICE, FRIENDS AND OTHER WORKER. NEXT SHE WAS FOUND UNCONSIOUS ON HIGHWAY. SHE HAD LOST LOT OF BLOOD. IT WAS IMMPOSSIBLE TO SAVE HER. BUT GOD FINALLY LISTEN TO MY AND YOUR PRAYERS AND SHE RECEIVED BLOOD DONOR AND WAS SAVED WHEN POLICE CAME AND STARTED INVESTIGAITION. SOON CULPRIT WAS CAUGHT BY POLICE AND IT WAS NO OTHER THAN YOUR FATHER. AFTER MY RUNAWAY HE IMMEDATELY MARRIED. BUT HER WIFE DUE TO REPEATED ABORTIONS WAS DEAD AND HE REMARRIED AND HAD TWIN DAUGTHERS. HE WANTED TO ABORT THEM BUT DUE TO PROTEST ABORTION OF GIRL CHILD WAS BANNED. SO TO VENT HIS ANGER. HE TRIED TO KILL LADY SOHPIA. HE WAS ARRESTED BY POLICE AND AT THAT TIME ME LADY SOHPIA, YOU AND OTHER SOCIAL WORKERS WERE PRESENT. HE PLEADED INFRONT OF ME FOR HIS RELEASE. BUT I TURNED BLIND EYE TOWARDS HIM. BECAUSE HE WAS A MONSTER. I NEVER THOUGHT HE WOULD KILL SOMEONE. I WAS INDEED HAPPY WITH MY DESICION TO RUN AWAY FROM THAT MONSTER. I AM GRATE FUL OF THAT PIECE OF PAPER TO BECAME MY HOPE AND HELPED ME RUNAWAY FROM THAT MONSTER. AFTER FEW YEARS LADY SOHPIA PASSED AWAY AND SHE NAMED HER 50% OF PROPERTY TO YOU. AND YOUR FATHER KNOWS ABOUT IT. HE IS NOT APPROACHING YOU FOR LOVE, KIND OR GUILTY. IF YOU THINK THAT HE MIGHT HAVE BEEN CHANGED THEN YOU ARE FOOL. I CAN UNDERSTAND THAT YOU WANT TO HAVE YOUR FATHER IN YOUR LIFE BUT, HE IS NOT FATHER. A MONSTER! HE WANT THE PROPERTY AND MONEY THAT IS WHY IS PLAYING WITH YOUR FEELINGS.

"MOM

I AM S..ORRY. I NEVER THOUGHT YOU HAVE GONE THROUGH SO MUCH OF PAIN JUST FOR ME. I ALWAYS WANTED DADDY. BUT NOW I HAVE UNDERSTOOD. I NEVER WANT MY FATHER TO HAVE ANY CONTACT WITH ME. I WILL NEVER SREACH FROM HIM. YOU ARE RIGHT HE IS MONSTER.