FALL BACK

FALL BACK

Pierson’s family has a time share in Lake Havasu, so Logan went with for a small vacation. Good for him! Spread your wings some more. Have a blast. Speaking of wings…. I’m ready to fly.

Almost.

I need to make an appointment with my therapist first. I haven’t been there in months. I think I would like a new, someone to talk to. A, no judgment, judge. If those exist. Lol. Maybe. She doesn’t really want help. She wants the information which will help her with what she’s looking for.

The sound of silence.

If that exists.

Nope...

Not today.

The Tigers are on.

I don’t know much about baseball, but I am willing to learn. (For the moment) Because it is not only in school sports. It’s in the professional big boy game, too. For instance: The boys spent more than half of their school years in Tecumseh. She didn’t notice then, but she did notice when they moved to Clinton. It was the Tecumseh Indians, and the Clinton Redskins. Was, is the key word here. They changed their mascot names to be more socially acceptable. I couldn’t tell you what the new names are, but I know they sound stupid. Just like Washington and Cleveland football. Leave it the fuck alone!

Aummm…

I find patience and calm within my own heart. If I can find patience and calm in one situation, I can find patience and calm in any situation. Let it go.

Aummm…

Lol.

We will see.

Happy birthday Amy! A feel-good book.

“2018”

FOR ALL THOSE WHO SEEK A BETTER WAY.

Her writing is beautiful. I can feel her with me. As soon as I turned the page it was immediate.

And then I closed the book. A book by David Dillard-Wright. PhD.

A book of clarity.

And then…

We went to go exercise. We are sticking with it three times a week now. Finally. Jason is beginning to see the results. That makes Amy happy. That makes Jason happy. Amy is also seeing results a bit within herself too. Mainly her ass. She feels an ass.

Today anyway.

It was a really nice day today. Sunny, and bright. But not too bright. She still opened up the outside shade to let the light in more. It didn’t burn her eyes, so she spent a little bit of time on the porch. She isn’t too comfortable going out into the yard. Speaking of that…as they were driving to Tecumseh today, they passed a house that Amy has been noticing a little more each time they drive Tec-Clinton Rd. These signs were right to her right. BAM-BAM-BAM!!! And I thought Greg's flag was obnoxious. These Trump lovers, they are not meek in the slightest.

And tomorrow is going to be like today.

Maybe a little cooler. But bright sun, once again. It is a perfect day for Jason to mow the yard. He can also weed-whip the dead flowers away. The temperatures really drop until next week. Lows in the upper thirties. Wow. That’s chilly.

Highs in the fifties.

I’m ready for the snow.

Oh.

Btw.

That weed bush is growing huge. Like the one Jason cut down last summer. It now has red flowers at the end of each of the stems. Getting ready for more, red to bloom.

It isn’t a weed.

JASON.

4:14AM.

She can hear her wood chimes when the heater kicks on. She should be sleep. She’s tired. She hardly gets sleep. NALA! She sits at the door and scratches. Scratch, scratch, scratch. Let me out...

Now!!!

I don’t feel like getting up. I am in the middle of something.

STOP!!!

Squirt-squirt.

Lol.

(A spray bottle)

Ugh.

Today is a day not to worry about things. Today is a day to play outside in the garden. Mow the grass and pick up the poop, too.

As she looks out, she sees the daylight.

It’s bright.

Burn.

Example…

For two years, or more, he was talking and playing games with someone else.

He’s a liar.

Does anybody see what I see?

Am I delirious??

The weather in Michigan is hardly ever the same. It changes every day. Yesterday it said it would be cooler than what it says today. This is a great day to spend outside. Tomorrow, too. Even warmer.

First, we must get through today.

11:42 Am.

About an hour and Jason will be home.

What to do…what to do?

4:14pm.

We went to the store.

Amy has been feeling like cooking lately. She wants to make some manicotti for dinner tomorrow night. They drove into Brooklyn for the ride and hit the Country Market. Ninety dollars later…

Amy is here, and Jason is picking up the dog poop so he can mow. The grass is at a perfect length to cut it and leave it. A beautiful day today. Amy has left overstuffed peppers that they got at Costco a while ago and froze. Good for nights like this. Tonight, Amy is hungry. She is super hungry. She has yet to eat today. Surprise. Surprise.

FYI…

San Francisco 49ers at Seattle Seahawks. Brockstars vs. Aiden and Abetting

Amy vs Jason

Live projected: 50-50

Jason was watching the Tigers play their big game, and then he turned on football before he went to sleep. It’s a big game for Amy and Jason. It’s between second and third place. My face will be in my phone all night.

Come on San Fran!

I’ve got cold feet. I lost bad last week.

Oh well.

This is just the beginning of the week.

This morning she woke up to Jason messing around in the kitchen. He was getting his lunch together for the day.

Today is Friday.

Early Friday.

But the weekend. None the less.

Yay!!

5:18 AM.

The Appleumpkin Festival is happening in Tecumseh and Kapnik Orchards this weekend. I think Rod and Marcia are coming down, so that will be a good time. It will be different.

It should be warm, too. A beautiful fall day.

Today is a day that will be number three. The third day of exercising for this week. It sure is nice doing this with someone else. We are working together.

For a moment.

Because when we left Carter’s, we drove through Tecumseh to see what was going to be happening for Appleumpkin tomorrow. It’s going to be a little crowded. Okay. It was a lot crowded.

Suddenly…

She doesn’t want to go. That might change tomorrow though. It is supposed to be cooler with clouds. And Rod and Marcia are coming down for this. It’s in Tecumseh. Ugh. Yay nay, maybe say. It was so long ago. Get over it.

Nope.

If she gets over it, then she can forgive him.

She won’t.

She can’t.

Ohhh…

I don’t know…

If I can ever, let this go.

The Jeep. 200 more dollars. The pre-pay for the 600-dollar job they are doing on the 21st. I’m so sick of the Jeep. I told Jason today when he told me the cost of the issue, that the Jeep is going to end the relationship. Example…

Two storms.

Practically, back-to-back.

Helene.

And Milton.

Total destruction from the gulf, to the Atlantic. Jeff has his property there. Somewhere.

Probably under water.

11:02 pm. (Friday) Let’s go to my roster…

64.70…

16.70

A decent matchup. Sunday night we will have the final scores between my team and Jason’s team. Right now, it is 74% to 26%. A long way yet to go…

Omg!

Did I do this all wrong?

Did I make the wrong choice?

Tell me…

I think I did it wrong.

Part of this, not all of it. It was the, first part.

Before Stacy, even.

I wonder if that mishap is going to be the difference between the two. Because the second one is the pick-up. Lol. It will pick up the mess of the first one.

And then there is this.

The reason for it all.

5:09 AM.

She was here four hours ago. And in that time, she has slept and woke up again, took a bath, and sat here trying to decide whether or not to go back to sleep.

2:10pm

She was here five hours ago. And in that time, they went into Tecumseh to spend some time away and get some greasy cheeseburgers. Boy, this festival has gotten bigger, and bigger over the years.

So has Tecumseh.

I have to stop going there.

I miss it.

But…

I would never go back.

Not for any longer, than need be. There is no need. Nope. I don’t miss having a house. I do wish I had different neighbors. With a fenced-in yard.

Btw…

Rain, all night. That will be nice to have a window or two open to listen to the water bang on the roof. It can bang all it wants, as long as it doesn’t seep through.

On and off showers tomorrow.

Good football weather. The kids will be over for the Lion’s game at four. They are playing Dallas, at Dallas. Go Lion’s! Lol. Go David Montgomery! (Of whom is now with the Brockstars) This should be a good game. Fingers crossed.

As for you Aiden and Abetting, may the better player, prevail.

Lol.

We are neck and neck. Number two and number three.

There are only seventy-five points that separate us.

Amy made some cheese manicotti the other day. She hasn’t done that in years. It sounded good. She made it because it is meatless. She did that on Friday, so it has been seasoning in the fridge for a couple of days. It will be leftover perfect. Good for the game. Which isn’t on until four. The boys will be here to kick off. Megan might come too. Amy invited her over also. Who knows…

7AM.

Hmmm???

She didn’t know what time, she went down. She knows it wasn’t too late. And somehow, she slept through. Maybe it was because she stayed up really late the other night. She pulled an all-nighter as a matter of fact. She must stop doing that. This is not good for her. In more ways than one.

132.00/63.66

Brockstars…

Playing Jason is not fun. After the afternoon games, Jason is finished. Amy has Higgins going tonight. He can be a savior if need be.

If need be, Jason.

It’s anybody’s game. (More mine than yours)

Fuck…

131.00/78.62

There is still a chance.

Either way...

Amy doesn’t like playing Jason. They play a lot of games together, but in football she would rather play someone else. He is a sore loser-winner.

Not fun.

But.

WINNING IS!!!

Ya’ know….

Go Detroit.

Happy boys??

Of course I’m rooting for Detroit.

But…

This is my team. This is The Brockstars!

I want to win…

Dip shits.

Ok.

One more half to go.

Did you know that there is an election coming up this November?

I think the whole world knows. I wish Logan would vote. He’s twenty-three. He’s never voted.

Why???

He has no desire.

I didn’t when I was his age. Yes Logan, the world is shit.

Stupid shit.

But shit at that.

Old people are know-it-all’s.

Obviously.

So, they bicker.

Some worse than, others

I believe the young people don’t want to play that game.

INJURY REPORT…

It’s number 97...

Aidan Hutchinson.

Wow.

His leg broke so bad they won’t replay it on television.

It was that bad.

(So, we looked it up on the internet)

POP!

You could hear it over the crowd. Yuk. this is really sad.

Ok...

Let’s go Detroit.

Ok.

I can’t make him go in and vote.

I get it.

Boy…

Do I get it.

Totally.

He is busy trying to make his life. ‘

And that makes me glad.

166.60/143.82

99%...

…1%

The game is not over.

But yet it is, JASON.

Infinities…

We’ve been doing too much. Go-go-go. We’ve been spending too much. Money, money, money. It’s time to take a break. She’s in an isolated mood anyway. She has been. This is a good excuse to start closing up.

Speaking of…

Summer is over. And if there was an Indian summer, it is time to warm up those teepees. The heater is here to stay. Climate change is here to stay. The days are getting shorter.

In fact, it’s almost daylight savings time. Fall back!!

It’s 3:46 Am.

Diamond is staring at me.

Yah.

The game is over. I don’t know what happened to the other side, but it doesn’t look like they paid any attention to their Fantasy teams. (Which is good for us) Did like, everyone quit?

There’s no quitting in football...

What happened?!

Where did you go??

Huh…

Back to reality.

Ok.

Today is Monday. The start of another week. And it’s chilly. It’s just going to get colder. My eyes are blurry…

How is today going to go?

What is today going to be like?

It is much cooler, and breezy. Patchy frost possible tonight. It’s a sweatshirt and sweats kind of day. They are going to go exercise today anyway. Amy needs it. She is sore from last week. She went outside early this morning and tried to stretch it out, but right now she needs to go and work it out.

It is 1:31 pm and Jason should be here any minute. And then we can leave. I need to keep myself busy. Go, go, go…

Whoop! Jason is home.

Into the bathroom, he goes.

I want my own damned bathroom.

I am scared this is it. I don’t want this to be it.

I had a plan.

A plan that just, fucking exploded.

How?!?!

Wait.

What’s new…

Seriously, what’s new?

That’s all I do.

This is all I do…

There is a football game tonight that I, nor Jason, really seem to care about. Our teams are done.

But I do care about Laportapotty and his score. He’s got people going tonight.

Until then…

I wasn’t too happy about Logan moving back home until just recently.

He thinks that I am really upset about it.

I was.

I got over it.

Do I let him know?

Or…

Do I make him squirm?

Yep.

I spent the evening cleaning out the extra bedroom to start to get ready for him. I have completely taken over that room. So, much stuff.

Jason went to Walmart and picked up a few plastic totes (pink) for the clothes that I need to find room for. I’m glad I started this now. That way stuff can go to storage and will only be a small, clusterfuck.

She woke up on the chair sometime in the night.

This morning.

She had to go to the bathroom.

She’s up!

No going back to sleep, now. It was sometime before…

2:20 AM.

I know that because I was awake while Jason was sleeping.

And I was awake when Jason woke up.

As a matter of fact, she is still up.

I let the inner light shine through me. I allow the inner genius to awaken and accomplish its goals through me. I awaken to higher illumination, bringing my work into line with divine guidance. Everything is beginning to fall into place. Everything I need is within arm’s reach.

That up there, over there, however you read it, is wishful thinking.

They went to Carter’s today, and they both got a good workout. They were in there for about an hour. Amy did full body muscle training and twenty-five minutes of cardio. The place was empty. Desolate. Quiet. Perfect. She must exercise well today. Because she ate a good dinner. and she cleaned her plate. She’s been eating, so her weight is holding off at about 126 lbs. Which is the weight she is choosing to be good with. She’s not jumping up or down anymore. She thinks her body is finally feeling okay. She is not worried, nor concerned about it anymore.

The scale is now pushed under the towel shelf.

Out of sight, out of mind.

I asked Jason to help me with switching up some players on my fantasy team. I am playing Trevor this week. I for sure want to beat him. You too, Mack Martin. You are too close, for comfort.

Okay Trevor…

Let’s play.

5:15AM.

The heater is on. It’s cold. Thirty-six degrees. Fifty-four for a high today. That’s a little chilly.

A PJ and sweatshirt kind of day.

There is a pile stacked in the living room filled with things that she doesn’t want to look at anymore. She is going to stack it more because when Jason gets home we are going to go to the storage room. But before that, Amy needs to empty some drawers to fit her clothes that no longer have a home in the extra room.

I don’t want to go anywhere today. Besides storage. I’m not going to get dressed for that.

Lol.

I didn’t.

She moved her beads today. She got tired of them getting caught in the drawer every time that she opened it. If she keeps it up with them being there, she will get frustrated and force them in the long run. Pinggg…

Nope.

They will be touched less if they are in the middle of the room.

Hopefully.

And she had no room for it at the trailer.

Example:

Jason and I were playing Rummicube, and every time it was Amy’s turn, Jason would grab a tile and start knocking it on the table. Well, this irritated Amy. So she asked him to stop. Wrong…

So she quit.

(Super-good at quitting things.)

The Rummicube needs to stop for a while. It’s going to be a, long season. Thank God for Carter’s.

An outlet.

10/17/2024

3:40 AM.

By the way…

(three hours later)

It’s time to put away the Spring and Summer yard toys.

She noticed when she stepped out into the sunshine.

To be continued…