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To be born in Slovenia under Enlightenment regime is a challenge. My grandfather coped in his own way. Being imprisoned by Nazi was a peace of cake. Living among Slovenians was quite a different story. Being declared a suspicious citizen, after refusing to donate money to Partisans because he was broke, he practiced to play a half wit. When anybody asked him any question, he would look into the sky, move his lips as in searching for the answer , stammer "ah" and "eh", until the the other person gave up and left. After a while this behavior became his routine, which he practiced also at home. Good for him , because at that time the government started to surveil the people with microphones at home. The fact that he could compose and arrange any musical theme for the orchestra, spoke two foreign languages, wrote in "alter Deutcher Schrift" and Cyrillic did not fit the image of an imbecile.

My grandma was born in Montenegro. That was a sin. The neighbors announced they would hang her on a pear tree , so she escaped from Slovenia until the dangerous neighbors died or were murdered. My grandparents had no friends and I blamed them for it, because I didn't know any better.

My father went through a mock court trial which could have resulted in his imprisonment. He said in a public place that shooting 3000 suspicious citizens by the government was a monstrosity. He learned a lesson. His survival daily routine was servitude. He joined the communist party. God was forbidden, so I was not baptized. We had no friends or social life. He told me that during his studies in Ljubljana, the students avoided him and did not interact with him, because his father was a suspicious citizen. He asked me if I had the same experience. Actually, I did. A mother of my friend was a member of UDBA. She forbade my friend to socialize with me.You see, my father and grandparents were politically suspicious. Another school mate kicked me out of her apartment, saying: " I invited you for a visit because I thought, you were one of Ours", meaning she was a member of Children of Enlightenment and I was not. The members of Children interact with each other, marry among themselves, are predestined for the leading positions in the government and are exempt from law.

With the time the Enlightenment regime sharpened its claws. The daily routines of servitude or playing a dummy did not meet the survival requirements any more.

Thirty years ago my coworkers snitched on me when I was reading a newspaper article, criticizing the government. The consequences were drastic. I was never accepted to secret service and military secret service, meaning I have no basic human rights and no privileges. My phone is monitored, my emails are checked or blocked, my mail is detained. There are cameras and microphones in my bathroom and toilet.

I was declared mentally sick by a member of SOVA and my education was halted forever. This SOVA lady stated in her report, that I came to the meeting in Macintosh, while she had to stand by the open window because the room was too warm. Afterwards I was unemployed for long periods of time. I lived from the money, my father received when we sold our summer house. Because it was set on fire twice in two years. Because he received threatening phone calls, demanding, he should return to Montenegro, because he was not welcome in Slovenia. In my absence all the documents and gold, worth 60.000 €, was taken from my apartment. Someone entered with a key. I changed the locks five times. It didn't help. Next I kept the documents in a safe box in a bank. In Slovenia and in Austria.These documents disappeared, too. I received fake laboratory and CAT scan results. Therefore I received no adequate medical treatment. I could not make a surgery operation appointment. I live in complete social isolation. My neighbor of 55 years declined my coffee invitation with the words:" I am alone and old. I can't afford to interact with a person like you."

I applied for the political asylum in Canada and was declined.I lost a lot of money. I consulted two emigration lawyers in Austria and was declined. By writing to different EU agencies, human rights organizations and magazines I never received any answer. The website I created was blocked after one hour.

By learning from the history we can predict the future of Europe. Adolf Hitler describes in Mein Kampf the fall of the House of Habsburgs. First, he explains, the king became progressive and supportive of nationalism and second, the people followed the Enlightenment movement, demanding multiple national independences. There will be no kingdoms in the future.

With the fall of Berlin wall, the eastern Enlightenment movement spread westwards, engulfing Europe' s Enlightenment, the USA' s Enlightenment, Canada, Mexico, numerous African states, New Zealand. Be aware: people, living under Enlightenment regime, are psychologically changed. Ten commandments play no role in their lifes.

My advice for future generations: follow the survival routine. Do never, ever, say what you think, take a shower facing the bathtub curtain, make love under the blanket, do not have important conversations in a pub, because the tables are bugged. If you are a person of interest, f.e. involved in a car accident, you will be checked by satellite images. Make blood test in two different laboratories. If your doctor doesn't meet your expectations, look for a doctor abroad. If you need a surgery, don't delay because the doctors say so. Move abroad if you can.

Ladies, cover your private parts, if the gynekologist leaves you waiting on the examination chair. If you are waiting for an email too long, contact a person by phone. Fight for your survival.

I'm now old and sick. I am proud I made it so far. I can't fight for the survival any more. I can not live abroad, because my pension is too small.I can not pay medical insurance or treatment abroad. My survival routine at home does not suffice any more.

In the future, everyone living in the northern hemisphere, will face similar problems. But remember, as long as you fight, you are not defeated.

Posted Oct 09, 2025
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