all in a dream

the air was warm.it was the same feeling she had when she had walked out of the office.sun shining on her,this time she saw Alfred.she sighed,thinking of him made her miss him more .she wished he were here,its been seven years since the incident of his death,since the first meeting up and that incident felt still the same,but different today.the regret of today to gratitude,took five years to get there,.but she was happy now.and was able to get there,and still feeling his warmth of his tender arms and those stupid arguments over the little things which either matters or didn't matter.,and the giggles inside about every thing actually.the reason behind her now.he was the one who gotten her into movies, she never really understood,really the purpose behind them in reality,she thought suddenly ,she wanted to be in real life,didn't want to be taken away from her.it was her passion ,after though he showed her the documentary 'what is it....oh right...inside job. after though he showed her the documentary she was hooked ,and obsessed,she wanted to save the world or something,.still feels like yesterday ,aware of the big space around her lingering after his death.she was floating,,like,well was not depressed. she enjoyed living again .took seven years ,of her life, suddenly now she was on a boat beautiful purple skies,right in the centre of the sun,she then saw a figure standing,getting closer and closer,as the waves fall back into black abyss then pulled into the boat ,sucked into a loud shrill of a noise that kept repeating aat exactly 128bpm.and a flash of red light appeared so suddenly and she drew in a quick steady breath,and suddenly she only found herself rising out of her own bed .and looked at her alarm clock by her beside lamp desk,and the clock read 8.30 am.and she thought 'holy shit. I'm late for work and I've never been late for work before.'no time to be ready.and trying to come back to reality like she was in a movie ,but it was a dream,no big deal,she went to quickly shower ,gotten dressed,and suddenly what a mess her bedroom ended up,so began picking things together and then after her breakfast and coffee, she gotten into her car and drove to her office,late or not,when she,d gotten to her office so late her boss giving her a look of annoyance and some of her colleagues looked on in annoyance,but she managed to apologise and promising this lateness will not happen again,but who is to know it wont happen again.oh well at least her boss had the decency to forgive and but lectured her a bit not to let it happen no more,soi she went to sit at her desk and began working on what office employers had to work on,,,filing typing and coffee breaks .all that reqiured and and at the end of the day she ,about to head into her car and a colleague of a young male stopped her into her track and asked if he could buy her dinner after her lateness for work and the lecture from thew boss,but she saying no need to make up of buying her dinner as she wowed it wont happen any more and managed to get away into car and drove for dinner herself at a local restaurant not that she was still depressed over the death of Alfred ,her first only love but guessing maybe not quite ready for a new male company ,maybe one day,after she having her dinner went shopping for a new working suit and a new pair of shoes,and went on home ,and finished up her last notes she,d gotten to do at home and realising near midnight so went to bed in morning she woke on time to be ready for another days working in her office building and when gotten there ,the boss looked on her amazed she had kept her promise of not being late again,and at lunch break she bumped into that young male,appologising fior not attending dinner out as a friend and his name he introduced himself as Joe and didn't mind her abruptness excuse ,she then suggested they could have dinner tonight or some other night just for a bit a companion and to talk more of just work,,,,and so many weeks passed they saw one another frequently over more dinner dates but in months gone by nothing turned out into a new relation with joe,as discovered he had already been happily married and didn't tendof leaving his wife,well as I understood and preferred the warm of just his friendship as her colleagues from work ,which would do her fine,maybe someday she would have her next found knew second love again,,but that maybe slow in time and only time will tell for her and so continued to happily work in the same officewith no bother of Joe already being happily married,,,just good to have a normal good friend at least,.and so and on went the weeks and months.she had a few dinner dates ,a short affair with one but being late again for work,and boss didn't think much of her lateness as she had turned out being the hard worker.after awhile getting tired of working in that office for a long period of so many years and tired of dating strangers when no out come of a serious relationship ever turned out right for her again,for the second time around,and so she knew what she needed to do in life,she ended up retiring and wanted to do her new new work for a church nunnery but not to live in a convent she still had her home,she just really volunteered the church and nunnery for charity.and all went well and her happiness there turned her into an author based writer just for one story book on her life and another book put out on sale which was her version of short romantic story novel,later retired in a nursing home and died with a legacy ,a good legacy ,,,