The real life

Kim was standing in front of his black framed old mirror in his violet painted bedroom. He was looking at himself. He was looking closely into his eyes and said, "Life is really short, enjoy it a lot. This quote or this line is the one which I never ever thought it's important. Because when I see these kinds of quotes on Instagram or Facebook, I always feel frustrated. But now everything I feel has meaning."

He slowly moved near the door. The poster in his bedroom holds a poem about love, Love you to the square of infinity. This reminds him of his good old days.

Ria was a beautiful, cute girl with blonde hair and a perfect smile. She was his classmate. She and he became close when she voluntarily helped him to complete his thesis.

Love bloomed between them. They were not a perfect couple, but they loved each other. They used to talk a lot. And suddenly they stop talking and meet again and be with the same love. They had this mature love. They were connected by heart.

Their love was going well.

One fine day, near the lake, they were sitting down, Ria was lying on his shoulder.

RIA: I want to say something to you.

KIM: Yes. Anything. I'm all ears.

RIA: I'm going to Paris.

KIM: What? You didn't say that to me before?

RIA: wait. Please listen. I applied for it many months ago. Now I got selected. And I thought you'll be happy.

KIM: I thought we shared everything. I thought we had no secrets.

RIA: I am sorry, please. I thought this makes you happy

KIM: Yes I'm happy for you but now I think we should go.

He started the car. They were really silent. She had something to say, but she didn't. She was really sad. He dropped her home and she said to him," Love you"

She waited for him to say back. But she was sitting in the car and she was standing out holding the door and seriously waiting for him to say love you too.

But for the first time he replied," Hmm."

He said and drove back.

He was driving really fast and he stopped when he reached home. He knocked on the door. His mom opened the door.

MOM: Hey, how was the date?

KIM: Yes. Good mom.

MOM: Hungry?

KIM: No mom. I just feel tired. I'll be back after a bath.

MOM: Okay.

He went to his room. He looked at himself in the mirror. He thought about him and his life.

We went inside the bathroom. Turned the shower on and shouted like an animal inside, himself.

He is a person who cannot take anything easy. Small things affect him a lot.

Days rolled on and they were like the same before, until that day.

Ria went to Paris. He acted like he was happy. But inside he was dying. He loved her unconditionally, it was not easy for him to live without her.

His life turned into a boring life. Ria started to avoid him a lot and excused by saying that she had a hectic work schedule. He used to believe that until he saw the Instagram post with caption "fucking happy with Héctor".

This made him break totally. He was broken. But he is not like the common people. He will not drink, he will not smoke or become an all time fucker. He used to cry alone and relive all his pain.

He realised that he didn't do anything for his life. For his mom or dad. He wanted to do something for them and live life and enjoy life. So he decided working hard is the only way.

He worked hard. He never took a rest. He avoided everyone. Many times, his mom used to tell him, this is the age to enjoy life.

MOM: This is the age to enjoy. Just be free.

KIM: I did that and I lost that mom. Now I hate everything. I hate living. I'm doing these things just to be happy. ( Started crying) I should be rich to forget that mom. I will not stop, mom.

MOM: There are people waiting to love you and have fun with you. You're the one who's not enjoying it. That girl who left you to enjoy.

KIM: Leave me alone, mom. You should be happy that I'm not like the other guys wasting time, drinking and fucking all the girls.

MOM: Actually, you should be happy. That's the first important thing. You won't understand it now. (Sighs)

After a few months…

Ria was crying aloud.

RIA: I am here. Please wake up. Please. Please.

She started crying.

He was standing near her and she was crying over his dead body.

He died in an accident. More precisely in a bike accident. He was slow, but the opposite person was too fast. They both died at the spot.

Now he's standing near his door, seeing the quote,Love you to the square of infinity, reminded him of these.

His mom entered the room, she walked past him. He shouted," Mom. I'm here."

She couldn't hear him and he knew that too.

His mom went took his photo and sat in the bed.

MOM: I am really sad that you're gone too early, but more than that, you didn't even enjoy your life.( She started crying)

He cried a lot seeing his mother crying. He sat on the floor and banged the floor and he was shouting and crying to relieve his pain.

MOM: I miss you. ( She started crying hard)

KIM: Sorry mom. I should've been less occupied. I lost my sense, mom. I should've taken you out. I should've spent some time with you. I wasted my life, just thinking about the future that I don't have. I'm sorry mom…

MOM: I miss you a lot. And more than me, Ria. She just arrived to meet you. How would she have felt to see you dead? She blames herself that she is the reason for your death. She ate poison. ( She wipes her eyes ) if you are here. If you are really here. Don't forget that we love you.

She holded his photo tight with herself and cried heavily.

He was totally silent. His tears were all over the room. He ran to the hospital nearby his house.

He saw Ria and her mom sitting with her. Ria was in a green dress and wires connected to her nose. His eyes turned red and tears flowed from his eyes. He couldn't stand there seeing her like that. He fell on the ground and hit his head to the floor and cried saying," I'm the reason for this. I should've been with you in Paris. My fucking ego stoped me. I'm sorry. Sometimes, some decisions we make in our life are really important. But I hate that I understand this too late. I just want to restart my life. I need a chance. ( Sighs ) (exhales) This isn't a movie."

He wiped his tears and his running nose and he went out of the hospital.

A blue horse and a black beauty with wings came there.

KIM: It's time to go. Is it?

Black angel: Yes. It's time. Don't worry. You were good. And you understood your mistake. This is already written.

KIM: Can I ask you a favor?

Black angel: Anything except having another life.

KIM: I need to see her future.

Black angel: That's easy.

She shook her wings and said

Black angel: You'll see all your loved one's future.

A white smoke everywhere.

He wiped his eyes. He was standing near a window. He was watching a kid playing video games through the window. There came her, Ria.

He had happy tears.

RIA: Kim, stop playing games.

He was stuck for a minute.

Black angel came near him.

Black angel: That's your name, right?

With tears flooding in his eyes and happiness flowing in his face and his mouth unable to utter even a single word, he nodded his head and said," Yes"

His mother entered slowly holding a stick and said to the kid," enough stop. Come on, let's play something out."

The kid with a smile on his face said," Grandma, you can't play with me."

Both chuckles.

Kim was really confused.

KIM: What's happening, angel?

Black angel: She married a guy named Laurenz. They had this kid named Kim. He was selling drugs to the school kids. Ria found it out and warned him to stop that. But he didn't. He was a drug dealer, but he wasn't a bad husband and dad. He was good at that part.

Days rolled on. She once went to visit your mom. She was really sick. So, Ria begged her to come and live with her and her family. Your mom refused first, but after Laurenz asked your mom. She said okay.

Because Laurenz said he knew about you and Ria.

They lived as a family. But one day some high school guys informed about Laurenz's drug trade and he was arrested by police.

Laurenz will be back soon.

KIM: Laurenz is really a good man. Except the drug part.

Black angel: Everyone is good. The situation makes them go bad. You cannot see anyone here without mistakes or without evil in them. He's a good man. His loved to be a singer. He tried a lot. He released many songs, but no one appreciated him. No one. He didn't have enough money to promote or advertise his songs. He didn't find a producer and self production needs money. Luck doesn't favor all. He just started to sell drugs to promote his song. Later drugs took his passion out of his mind and induced the idea of getting more money.

MONEY KILLS DREAMS. He is the living example for this.

KIM: You're right. You are an angel, have you made any mistakes?

Black angel: Showing you these is itself the first mistake. I said to you, mistakes are common. Come on, let's go. It's time.

KIM: Yes. I'm happy. Thanks angel. And one more thing, you are really cute. I don't want to waste my time like I did before. Will you marry me? Let's have a happy life together in heaven.

Black angel shook her wings.

Black angel: Who said you're going to heaven?

KIM: Am I not?

Black angel: Shut up. Sit in my blue berry.

KIM: Blue berry?

Black angel: His name.

Black angel started his horse. It flew towards the sky.