The Right Time, and the Right Place

“The Right Time and The Right place”!

“Are you there God”…….. I called out, with desperation and hope, a hope that I could continue to enjoy this life, but I feared that I was leaving it!…”It’s me”…was not said, I would not have been so bold to have said that, ‘as though he knew me on a personal level’!

My last connection with the church, and with God, was mostly whilst I attended the latter stages of primary school, and the early years of my secondary school education, and I enjoyed my time going to church, mostly because I enjoyed singing, and I was in, both the school choir and the church choir, and my time happily singing in such a huge and colourful building, to a large congregation was very enjoyable, and was a big release from our claustrophobic life, that, for years would be in caravans!

My experiences of religion, after I finished going to the church, Ididn’t really go beyond my early teenage years, but the intrigue always remained, and I would often think deeply about the birth of the universe, that has an untold number of galaxies, and life (‘debatably being’) on other planets! “Is Hell a ‘peppering’ of these planets….because they’re far from being perfect”! We see awful tragedies that question your beliefs…..’but it’s about having a good and positive belief’, “which I know is very difficult to have or to gain/maintain, especially when you see war, murders/tragedies, famines and poverty Worldwide”!

The birth of the Universe would have taken time and thought, and some of us will believe that ‘a God’ is responsible, whilst others will believe that ‘it was an explosion of gases’, caused by an astronomically humongous ball/planet of intense heat and fire, that lit up a black and empty space, which would eventually explode in the atmosphere of gases, and this explosion would create an untold number of galaxies, with millions, or billions of other planets, and in an observed further galaxy, was discovered, amongst four large stars/suns, another planet that was very similar to this World, in having both green land and blue sea, and was appeared to be a planet that was thought to be capable of supporting human life, and my first thought about this planet, with it being surrounded by four big suns, was, “I bet the spiders are massive”!?

The big mystery of ‘is there a God’ would be answered many years later after my previous attendance in church, and many experiences had been, enjoyed, endured and created, since then and fortunately my years of education led to me gaining my first full time job, and eventually the purchase of my first home, with my Fiancé, and life seemed good!

“Laura…Laura……….Laura”, I desperately called out, as my sudden trembling, which would lead to collapsing dramatically onto the floor, and I felt disturbingly and worryingly unstable and dizzy, and it was painfully numbing, with the numbing being unusually just down one side of my body, and that was the left side of my body!

I was in the bathroom, just about to get into the shower, when a sudden trembling started, a small headache began, that was predominantly located towards the back of my head, and the trembling became uncontrollably stronger, and my collapse was, fortunately, a controlled one, because there were objects(‘bathroom furniture’) that I could have tragically hit my head on, and perhaps I could have been fatally unconscious instead!

My desperate cries were fortunately heard by my Fiancée, who was very luckily still at home, and would have usually left for work by this time, but she heard my cries and came rushing to investigate! ‘What a shock she must have had’!

She was alarmingly upset and concerned, and ‘naturally and sensibly’ called for an ambulance, but an ambulance would not immediately be dispatched, until a Doctor saw me first! Fortunately, our local Doctor began work moments before and he attended within 10 minutes, and after quickly observing my condition, he immediately called for an ambulance, believing it to be a brain haemorrhage!

This was indeed the correct diagnosis, and he very quickly called for an ambulance, and one was despatched and very soon after their arrival I was awkwardly transferred onto a stretcher, and I left my, relatively new home, to continue the mornings dramatics in the back of an ambulance outside, but I feared that I was gradually ‘shutting down’, and that death would soon be upon me!

When I arrived at the hospital, I was calmly examined, and was again told to stay awake, which was very very difficult to do, especially when I had been transferred into an ‘even more’ comfortable bed, and that it was also, relatively early in the morning!

My idea of finally getting some sleep was ‘short

lived’, as I was very suddenly mobile again, and the bed that I was in, was pushed very quickly outside, into the bright, early morning sunshine, which caused my eyes to close, and total darkness descended, and remained for months!

Where did I go for almost three months? I heard faint noises and sounds, which were confusing, intriguing, hopeful but sometimes scary, and I was to experience, in painful detail, a past life that was cruelly ended in a war, that was inconvenient, but necessary, and then towards the ending of my very personal coma(“although it’s available to read publicly”!) I would see the World again through the eyes of a dog, BUT I was not a loved dog in a happy environment, and my young life seemed to be a short one, because I was deliberately forced behind a settee to eventually die of starvation and a lack of oxygen/air! (“I sincerely hope that readers don’t think that I’m ‘doo-lally’, a ‘sandwich short of a picnic’, completely barmy, or just plain ‘nuts’, because I underwent some thorough mental tests before I eventually left hospital 9 months later, after receiving Occupational Therapy and many days and hours of Physiotherapy”!)

With this rigid belief in reincarnation, which, I must stress, is not repeated to promote a particular religion and it might sometimes sound repetitive, but I look at the world wide news, and I wonder what sort of world we are going to return to? Or, “maybe this world is a ‘stepping stone’/an example for other worlds, in another universe”!?

The darkness that I was in would eventually become lighter, with the voices becoming clearer, and I would successfully return, with many physical disabilities, that even after many hard years of Physiotherapy, and voluntary sessions at the gym, could not be corrected, but I would always see those that were worse off than me, and I would feel very grateful!

“Will we experience many kinds of emotions, physical challenges and many different situations, either in this world, or another world, where we experience, ‘that sudden unexplainable shudder’, that makes us say “I had a funny feeling then”! And to those who say that there are no planets, in this galaxy, before earth where life could have existed first, then please remember that this earth is millions of years old, and so other planets could have existed before our own, and were eventually devoured by our sun, because this planet is millions of years old, and the universe would have probably looked similar to “a never ending snooker table with billions of balls, ‘as planets’, to be discovered”!

“This planet is difficult to understand sometimes, ‘let alone worrying about other ones’, and we can only hope that we progress through the galaxies, and life improves ‘each time’, as we go through “the human filter system”(“the title of the book that I’m currently writing”!)

“There were several ‘occurrences’, that I experienced whilst I was in a coma, that have come true, and the most profound experience was when I was suddenly behind the steering wheel in a car, which was a small two door hatchback, and it was a ‘typical example’ of a sensible, unexciting car, and without knowing why I was enduring this experience, or without knowing what car I was driving, I was just driving it, with ‘little to offer’ in excitement or ‘gadgetry’, and then, without the hassle of transferring into another car I was behind the steering wheel of another car, and it immediately felt impressive, with the steering wheel being slightly smaller and much ‘chunkier’, which was padded and the car was a lot easier to steer and drive, because it was lower to the ground and it’s build and suspension felt superior, and it’s ‘Sportier’ interior was a pleasant colour that was a darker shade of the exterior, that was silver/light grey; I was suddenly back in an ambulance with clear windows, and I looked back to see the two cars that I had just been ‘driving’, and one was a ‘basic’ FORD FIESTA, that was a sensible car for a ’middle-aged’ person, and the other car, that I had just driven, was a ‘Special Edition’ SPORTY VAUXHALL NOVA, that looked ‘more’ impressive, and in which I thought that I experienced the most comfortable drive, and we continued back to the hospital.

I was not woken up early in the morning, and instead was told that “you were fast asleep, and after having a restless night, we thought that we’d let you have a ‘lie in”, and the nurse, “bless her”, went looking to see if the breakfast trolley was still around, but ‘ended up’ making me some toast instead!

During the evening, my Fiancée came to visit me in hospital with her Dad, to tell me about her day and it would involve cars, and our current car was included, ‘in fact’ it was the main topic, because its oil sump was cracked, and its oil was leaking badly because of its recent high mileage(‘driving to work, and then driving a further 120 miles/round trip’) to visit my comatose body in hospital, and all of this sudden use/mileage would be responsible for the damage, and it would mean, either having an expensive repair/‘a new engine’, or investing in a new car, and during her visits to several garages together, with her Dad, to get some very expensive quotes to repair the engine, and looked at, and test drove two possible replacement cars, and one was a FORD FIESTA, and the other one was a Sporty VAUXHALL NOVA Special Edition- and she asked me for my advice on what to buy, and my reply was immediate, and stunned her, because my usual indecisiveness had ‘very happily’, and temporarily, gone!