A Hole in My Heart

July 7th, 2004. A date burned in my memory for eternity..

Soft jazz music playing in the distance. A table set for two, perfectly placed beneath the shimmering moonlight. The cold evening breeze, welcoming itself into the room. I sway, feeling the music and hum remembering the fond memories I have with the song while I make minor adjustments to the table. Everything needs to be perfect. I take a look at my watch and see it is now a quarter past seven, three more minutes until the fun begins.

The door swung open abruptly and walks in a lady, confidently strutting across the room, wearing a navy blue mermaid tail styled dress, which hugs her figure nicely, her long red hair slowly swaying with every step and her eyes. Oh those big green doe-like eyes, I can't help but stare as if I am under an enchantment, unable to break free on my own.

"Good evening Mr. Crim." The lady suddenly spoke, breaking me free from her spell.

"Mrs. Reyes, a pleasure. Although we don't need the formalities, this is but a casual meeting, my dear Seraphina." I say as I hold out my hand, but alas, my hand only met the wind's kiss.

"That's a bit rude don't you think? Ignoring my hand like that. The nerve!" I say crossing my arms.

"Oh don't be so offended, anyway, I can't believe it's been a year already, this place still remains the same. Zeke you really outdid yourself with this one." She says eyeing her surroundings.

"But of course, this is the place we first met, I made sure everything is perfect. From the music, to the food, even to the color of the drapes. It seems like my memory didn't fail me." I smiled at her and pulled out her seat.

"A gentleman as always." She said taking a seat.

"Only for you." I say proudly and giving her a wink as I sat down myself.

"Why couldn't I have married you instead of that oaf, that brute, that heartless, brainless, loud, disguting, excuse of a human being, my parents forced me to spend my life with?" She groaned and took a sip of her wine.

"Well your parents do believe that marrying someone like Gunter Reyes will help restore your family's reputation. I'm sure he couldn't be as horrible as you make him out to be" I say with a cheeky smile.

"Oh he is even worse, gosh, even his name sounds utterly ridiculous. I mean can you believe he left me out in the cold, all alone and expected me to walk back home, without any way of defending myself, or even another person to accompany me in his place, knowing how dangerous the streets are!? Absolutely unbelievable!" She slammed her hand on the table.

"Please be careful, I paid good money to keep things in good condition around here. Also I take back what I said, do you need me to get the bleach and knife?" I say taking a sip of my wine.

"Forget it, he's not worth our time, anyway, where's Max? Our trio isn't complete without him. He is after all the third member which makes a trio...and I'm sorry for rambling" She chuckled whilst playing with her hair. A habit she only does when she's excited.

"There's a reason it's only a table for two tonight Seraphina, unless you suddenly became blind and need immediate help. Jokes aside, I wanted to talk to you about something of utmost importance." I say nervously as my voice decided to crack a few times here and there.

"Oh? And what might that be?" She asked with a grin.

As I finally gathered the courage and was about to open my mouth to speak to her, my phone suddenly rang. I excused myself for a moment and saw that the caller who rudely interrupted my precious moment was none other than Max himself. I wonder what he needs now, probably to set up another blind date for him. I mean honestly, this man cannot stick with one woman for a week.

"Max? I was in the middle of something. Also I can't set up anymore blind dates for you, you need to settle down soon-" I say annoyed before I was rudely interrupted again.

"Zeke, did you take your meds today?" He asks concerned.

"No, of course I didn't. I'd be a fool to take those." I say, now fuming, he knows full well I hate taking those medications. It doesn't help me. I don't want to take it. I rather have the whole world look at me like I'm a mad man than to have those meds take away the most precious thing to me.

"I thought so, I told the waiter to slip it in your wine...it's been a year Zeke, please...let go. She's not here anymore, it's not even a ghost you're talking to...please, I don't want to lose you too.." He says, sounding like he's on the verge of tears.

I dropped my phone, realization hitting me. I look behind me and saw she was gone...her wine untouched...her seat empty.

I sank down to the floor and cried my heart out. I looked at the table and saw a frame. The very same frame that contained her wedding photo. Tears no longer able to stream down my face, I took out the ring I had in my pocket.

"I was going to ask you to be mine...but I was too late, you deserved better my love. You were gone too soon, you broke our promises about the future. You left. And I have to let you go...but it's impossible. Please, Seraphina...help me move on! I don't want to forget but I don't want to live in the past!... Please.."

July 7th, 2004... The day my angel was sent back to where she came from, and the day I was going to propose and tell her to run away with me, start anew, only to be reminded about the hole in my heart, which will never be filled.