Self with Faith

They say be careful what you wish for, I been a late bloomer,my friends had experience everything before .I was the oldest person in this group of females,I was raised by a single mother it was as if she was mother and father meaning her discipline skills were top notch LOL 🤣 😆 verses when my dad was around my mom use to wait on her turn to realign us kids back into a kids place.

My dad thought he was that man you know the type wife and a tribe of kids with different households.My mom sweet and unconditional love wether you good or bad she always explained the procedure before it happens 😆 😂. The first thing she says is I hate to do but you been asking for it , first of all as a kid who asked for what was about to happen who ? after so reads your right ask for witnesses and being the kid who kept notes on my siblings or do things I know I shouldn't have I knew the outcome, so each time I took one I got my revenge when pops was around, I say to it was worth it growing up the memories of the past helps grounds us and fill our life and others with more positivity than negativity well some no shade , I would never encourage revenge when you reach a certain level in your life the consequences would be unbearable, verses,a week of not going outside because everything starts at home that's the first army you join without signing an agreement LOL 🤣 😆 ain't no leave of absence, ain't no I don't want to because I'm sick you get it.

The only discharge is you have a kid or kids, when you think you know more than the sergeant (mother) or you are grounded enough to checkout with no possibility of coming back.I stayed home a couple extra years after highschool I didn't want to leave the nest most all my friends had an apartment,kids and a job,I wasn't feeling that especially having several nieces and nephews I got on the living in the same house training so I said the bed kind of kids is the ones you didn't birth they aren't your full responsibility but you do whatever to assist.

Now that I have lived by my choices and decisions I finally had kids my friends are grandparents, I'm dealing with middle school drama,but through it all I grounded myself I feel because I was older than my friends I guess certain things were expected especially having kids first that was no, never be rushed about nothing because you will just repeat or give up depending on the outcome some people want the victory at any cost.

I claim no victory from my past, I claim success of being able to ground myself enough to always stay open to change,who would want to be the same person everyday 365 days each year the only thing changes is their age, but I don't judge, I one thing that was challenging for me was going to college at a late age but I felt the need to give it a try by this time I'm a mother I can't even help the kids stuff different, but you know I'm grounded so I went in and I graduated it took an extra year but the challenge was like a breathe of fresh air,kids,job and household, one thing I did know my mom would say don't run now you started now finish.

I finished it was definitely a challenge since I didn't care for school in no grades, so my schooling was altered to small settings 😁 that's the adult way to explain Alternative School 😁.I said I was grounded sometimes being unbalanced socially and mentally don't met certain criteria on uneducated adults, I use my time to finally see school in a different light just think same room all day with no more than 5 kids,man this was actually a blessing as I look back because who like repeating grades or anything one time only for me, life success isn't always about materials things success is anything you have faith in I have faith in myself and all I put my energy into I feel success for me was not accepting me, because I knew I was better than any words used to describe by others it ain't enough time to fully collaborate, but know today I sit back and total my accomplishments in my rightful time, sometimes as they say the last is first and the first is last, I'm enjoying life,I was trying to see if I was who I am today back in the past ?what would I see as an successful life? would it had been more materialistic,? no time to take steps just leaping through life all sorts of legs up from others even exchanges, verses finding success off of your own intuition and ideas, well for me regardless how you look at it I'm successful spiritually it comes with wealth that grows each day, I am never yesterday or tomorrow I'm living today because success doesn't stop, people do!

The experience as we call them until we know the difference because something's are lesson which requires you to complete the task or tasks to be awarded with a blessing, it's like being successful don't always come from experience some success could become unsuccessful because no lessons learned like not investing fully feeling in title or privileged, that's not a positive success because it's temporary anything given can be taken away,why not invest in yourself own success the rewards will be unconditional that's beyond surface viewing success starts within all the way back to birth.Lets think about that,as an infant you being to pay attention and display being uncomfortable,but than you see if you cry everyone coming to offer something, like being picked up, wanting something someone else has the form of manipulation as an infant yes it's true some of us was carried way past the carrying faze, same as bottles, and pacifiers we are successful because whoever is taking care of you you can attain their attention by crying, once in the arms all smiles and gums, those were considered successful moments than we graduated to another successful time in life working as a teen and buying forbidden clothes, and I can't disclose any further but everyone was a teen before we felt successful by lying to adults, skipping school those were considered successful moments.Now that I am finally at the last life journey my success was well earned,one that when it's said and done under your achievements and with dignity of knowing that success was earned not given or brought.

Flow and Float !!!!