"What me Worry?"

"What me worry?" "You darn right I worry, not only once a day but more, way more than I used to."

"I mean I worry about lots of things, silly to most, yet to me, they are important, more so than before." "I worry about various things from spiders and snakes to things striking the Earth and causing end time catastrophes."

"Seems that I worry too much and overthink things that are everyday occurrences, or are normal to most, yet I worry I am going to die from a simple touching of my hand on moldy things, and it will cause my hand to rot off."

"How does one stop worrying about all the many things that are seen but what about the other things that you cannot see?" "How do you identify with your fears and worries, without seeming like you are big baby or just cowardly?"

"I am a germophobic and this is more or less, not a terrible experience, it is more like I am unsure what will happen when I touch something that I am already considering myself insane and am willing to pay to figure out and resolve the issue once and for all."

"I am a schoolteacher, I have a good standing in the community, I am married with three kids and a beautiful loving wife." "What would they think of me if they learned about my inner deep darkest secret?" "How would they react to this new thing that they may or may not already know?"

"I would soon find out, while I was barbecuing, on my new grill, and the table became covered with several dozen spiders, which I am no friend with." "At first I was not too bad, then as more and more arrived, then I became panicky and was jumping up and down, trying to get rid of this annoying problem, then started to run and screaming all the way to the end of our driveway."

"It was like a different person was there and I was no longer hidden from view, as the other person within took over and was in charge, instead of me."

"I glanced to the left then the right up and down side to side before I was off running looking as if I was giving the other me, full control of my life and well-being". "I was never sure of how anyone knew about my present problem, once more feeling the sting of not being able to get this matter in hand".

" I was using the spray I had on the picnic table". "I was aiming wildly, hitting any and all targets that were moving around". "Then as I was trying to hit the target, most of the people who were struck by the wild spraying of this person, who did not care to change now to get this matter handled". "Shows what can happen when you fly off the handle and are met with the one who can beat you out your whole life".

"I was using my wits to get me where I needed to be but was left outside by three kids who were not sure when they would allow me to return". "I scream and became hoarse". "I raised up my hands to push in harder, to enter the front area, so that no one could ever mess with me this way or any other way".

"I was bitten multiple times on various parts of my body, fainting and become less coherent the longer I spoke even one word". "I was in dire straits and was not sure when this whole nightmare would come to an abrupt end".

"I was not sure how I would ever outgrow my fear of spiders, which I was explaining to whomever would listen to my dilemma". "I was beginning I was destined to finish here at this moment, when my savior arrived".

"I was looking around for a way to get inside of the house, when I hand grabbed me and pulled me back". "It was my very own wife who rescued me".

"She had some of the spray from the garage, and pointed it towards the grilling area, not sure how she managed to hit her intended targets, but she hit them well".

"The moment has come and gone". "The fear of my panic and my distress is I am never going to be able to deal with this fear, head on or not, it will be there for the reminder in my mind, until death allows us to part way". "I remember being tormented and tortured in so many ways from the time I first went to school into my teen years and now into my early adult years".

"This is an ongoing process, and I am not willing to take too many more chances unless I can be given some sort of guarantees". "How can I ever know that I am cured?" "How can I ever stop worrying about this annoyance, which haunts my every waking moment and changes over into my dreams and my nightmares?"

"How can I find the reason that will give me enough hope to help me become better at fighting this?" "Especially with all the ways f trying to get past this fear, have all ended in total disaster?" "This reveals my fear, allows my fear to pull on and decide where I will go and how long I will be there".

"This is one of those problems that stems from past things that brought about lack of self-confidence, low self-esteem, being easily afraid and lost without someone to guide me and work with me".

"To look for solutions, which have been ineffective in the past, will not work any better in the present". "I keep repeating myself, and am getting tired of those who find out, repeat things about me that may or may not be true".

"I assure you this, these people who hurt me in this way, are never heard from again". "The same people have become distractions for the mother spider, whom I have not seen yet". "I am not certain I want to see the mother of all spiders". "Yet the more I offer these people to this creature of doom, my life is taking a turn for the better". "Oh, and yes I am finally smiling". "That kind of smile that makes me look sinister and up to no good".

"We will have to wait and see what happens next".